So, I'm 25 1/2 years old, I've been an artist in the games industry for 3 years now, and right now I don't know if I've made the right choices. See, currently I'm living in Champaign IL for a company working on an XBOX 360 game, and the game is good and the company is cool, but I'm required to work 10 hour days and 8 hour fridays for the time being. So far, this "mode" of work has become just about as common as the 40 hour workweek. Right now I'm sitting here alone in the office because I prefer to get home at 6 rather than 8 and actually have some semblance of a life.
I'm glad to not be working on bad games no one's ever heard of based on weak licenses, but I don't know. Maybe it wasn't worth it, to move down here and have 1/2 my paycheck going toward a condo I haven't been able to sell for almost 4 months now. I'm barely getting by on my 50k paycheck...so I NEED this job right now, there is no choice. After that though, I'm considering my options. I also need to save up some money to make any potential move even halfway possible again, perhaps by summer.
I've worked my ass off to be one of the best at what I do for a reason...so I could have a job I like coming to. I will be proud of the game we create, but I feel that I'm easily replacable, since my job of mocap-babysitting doesn't require much creativity. My job satisfaction isn't what I thought it would be.
The more I look back, the more I'm so glad I created the Pavilion, based on the things I hold dear in this world...mainly the sharing and fostering of ideas, gameplay, creativity, and stories. It's grown to something I never thought it would and I thank you all for that dearly. I especially thank all of you who have worked so hard to maintain it and keep its vision alive. I wish I could dive more into RPG Maker 3 & The Movies, but alas, no time.
I really wish I knew what to do next. If I try to get another job, it's not going to look good that I spent 1 1/2 years at my first company, 2 years at my 2nd, and 3/4 years at my 3rd job. Right now I'm in a semi-happy relationship, but I'm already kinda planning to break up when I become less busy because, well, we've been together 2 years, and let's just say if I could, I wouldn't marry him. He sees me as a great friend he can depend on in life and have his own independance. I want more than that in who I share my life with.
If you read this I greatly appreciate it. I'm willing to take any advice you can give.
I'm glad to not be working on bad games no one's ever heard of based on weak licenses, but I don't know. Maybe it wasn't worth it, to move down here and have 1/2 my paycheck going toward a condo I haven't been able to sell for almost 4 months now. I'm barely getting by on my 50k paycheck...so I NEED this job right now, there is no choice. After that though, I'm considering my options. I also need to save up some money to make any potential move even halfway possible again, perhaps by summer.
I've worked my ass off to be one of the best at what I do for a reason...so I could have a job I like coming to. I will be proud of the game we create, but I feel that I'm easily replacable, since my job of mocap-babysitting doesn't require much creativity. My job satisfaction isn't what I thought it would be.
The more I look back, the more I'm so glad I created the Pavilion, based on the things I hold dear in this world...mainly the sharing and fostering of ideas, gameplay, creativity, and stories. It's grown to something I never thought it would and I thank you all for that dearly. I especially thank all of you who have worked so hard to maintain it and keep its vision alive. I wish I could dive more into RPG Maker 3 & The Movies, but alas, no time.
I really wish I knew what to do next. If I try to get another job, it's not going to look good that I spent 1 1/2 years at my first company, 2 years at my 2nd, and 3/4 years at my 3rd job. Right now I'm in a semi-happy relationship, but I'm already kinda planning to break up when I become less busy because, well, we've been together 2 years, and let's just say if I could, I wouldn't marry him. He sees me as a great friend he can depend on in life and have his own independance. I want more than that in who I share my life with.
If you read this I greatly appreciate it. I'm willing to take any advice you can give.
) for about three hours a day. I don't have to worry about bills and everything but it's really hard to have a social life during it at all. 
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