Death next door

[JPS]

Yesterday the guy across the street from me died in his house, not sure why but he was known in the community as a big druggie.

My guess was an accidental overdose.

All I know is his father walked in to find his 26 year old son dead on the floor, we stood out on the porch and watched as they brought the body out on a stretcher, completely covered by a white sheet.

And it hit me then, thats the closest Ive ever been to a dead body, and it hit me that, when youre gone, youre really gone...

I mean just the day before I had gone to work and as I got into my car he said "Hey, whats up?" and I just said hey and shut the door, and its odd now to think that the guy who said hey is now dead, now just a lifeless body somewhere, no brain function, no beating heart, and the first stages of decomposition now starting...I mean, he was just here yesterday as alive as can be, now hes gone.

Why do I feel this way about someone I didnt care nothing for, I hated the man prior to his death, now I feel nothing but sympathy for him, and for some odd reason I feel this is partially my fault, he wanted to be friends, but I neglected to because of his drug habit, but I feel that if I hadnt refused his offer I might have changed things, might have somehow talked him out of that habit that had such a strong hold on him, and if I had just taken that opportunity, he'd probably still be alive and his family wouldnt be going through what they are now...

I dont know...I feel so miserable now...any words of advice anyone?

[Caciss]

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You've never been to a funeral?

But, yeah, death is weird. Especially driving past a car accident and seeing bodies strewn out across the road.

[altoecko]

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We always feel there was something we could have done to change the outcome but even if we could have done something, it doesn't change the fact the deed is done. There's no point in beating yourself up over this, mourn his death as long as you need to but his death is not your fault. It takes everybody different amounts of time to fully come to terms with death and when you finally do come to terms with it, don't let it rule your life. Your odds of dying are 1:1, so don't think about it, obviously don't do dangerous things, but don't hamper your everyday life out of fear of death. The best advice I can give you is learn from this, next time someone wants to be your friend, why not give it a try?

[The_Real_Crunk]

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The chef I worked with died on saterday morning.

You may remember I had a topic mentioning him. He was already an alcoholic and would come in drunk and angry like 3 dasy out of the week. he started drinking even more and got psoriasis. like the worst case Ive eve seen. Head to toe was all red flaky skin. So he got depressed and drank even more. When told to go to the hospital or docter he would just shrug it off, and say he would go home and sleep and he would get better. We couldnt let him work in a ****ign restaraunt like that. It was gross. So he went on leave. Got even more depressed. He basically stayed drunk everyday for like 4 months. he finally got medication, but the drugs were really hard on his liver, and he was told to stop drinking. Guess what he does? Drink, drink, drink.

Two weeks ago hes in the hospital again, and they say his kidneys and liver have failed, and they cant do anythingfor him, even if they had a doner. Saturday he died.

I learned alot from him before he went all crazy, and drank like nut. Id feel sorry for him too, but he brought it upon himself by being a raging alcoholic and turned down help from family, friends and co-workers at near every turn, so I didnt feel sorry for him.

But thats death. Poeple die, and people move on. Give it a 100 years and nobodys going to remember you, unless you do something worthwhile and memorable. Your just going to end up on your great grandkids family tree in their grade 4 show and tell. Thats why you make the best of what you've got and live life the way you want. Just dont **** off other people while your doing it.

[Crimson Knight]

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JPS, I think you realize how connected we all are, regardless of the significance.

Don't lose sleep over it though.

[JPS]

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No, never have been to a funeral, never experienced death with someone I known.

I never knew anyone outside of my immediate family, I didnt even know my grandparents that well, last time I remember seeing them was when I was 5 or 6.

I know he brought it upon himself, but still, 26 years of life to waste. Im 25, I couldnt imagine having only a year left to live, I know I could die today, but, man, it just hard to imagine someones 26 years of life, hopes, and dreams come crashing down in a matter of seconds.

Im not losing any sleep, and I dont feel like horribly bad, but I do feel bad nonetheless, and its eating at me a little, I just dont like thinking about things like that, considering the state one of my parents is in.

FYI neither of them was ever into drugs

[The_Real_Crunk]

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Its freaky to think when you turn 20, your already through about a quarter of your life. It took 20 ****ing years just to get to that point. Itd be cool to start off at year 1, the way I am now.

[JPS]

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Yeah Ive been thinking about that also, Im 1/2 way through my usefulness and Ive accomplished nothing

[Seraph]

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Yeah Ive been thinking about that also, Im 1/2 way through my usefulness and Ive accomplished nothing

Sadly, this is the lament of most people in life. If you look hard you will see that even the sorriest soul had managed to accomplish something good in life. (not calling you a sorry soul).

If nothing else, at least you made beautiful children and offered them all the love in the world.

[JPS]

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Darn you Seraphim stop saying things I need to rep you for!

[Seraph]

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Eh, it's what I do...

[JPS]

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Well youre one of the only ones around here that has kids so we can relate to each other quite a bit.

I dont know anyone else around here with kids, besides gloom and porkchop now, and I dont know about how little Funkadelic is coming along(cant find that topic anywhere)

[Dusk Raven]

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If you had said more that "hey" to him... who knows what might have happened. He might have lived a little longer or you may have died in a car crash.

Yeah, I'm a believer in chaos theory.

Your odds of dying are 1:1

That means you have a 50/50 chance of dying.

[JPS]

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That means you have a 50/50 chance of dying.

What else is it suppose to mean?

[Dusk Raven]

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1:1 means it's a coin flip that you'll die.