Farewell Mistafopa.

[Valkysas]

This link just came to my attention:
http://www.legacy.com/ivdailybulletin/Obituaries.asp?Page=Notice&PersonID=17528822

It's an obituary for our good friend Mistafopa/Steven Parks.

I was hoping that he was still alive after being diagnosed with spinal cancer and leaving the net, but sadly, thats not the case. I've known Steven for a little over 6 years. I can honestly say that he was my best online friend, and we helped each other through a lot of hard times. It's hard to believe I'll never speak to him again.

Goodbye old friend. I hope you've finally found peace.

[Chuck]

:(

[Jamos' Old Account]

Quite sad... I didn't even know him and I'm brought to tears. May he rest in peace. :cry

[KumoShinagi]

O_O :(

Good Bye Mistafopa...

[Kire]

I really don't know what to say. He was such a cool person and I loved talking to him...not to mention incredibly intelligent. I'm really gonna miss him. :(

[Caciss]

****! ****.

:(

I cried when I found out I'd never get the chance to talk to him again.

Now... ****.

[John Mora]

While I can’t say we parted on good terms, I’m sad that he died so young.

[Owl of Parliament]

RIP
Mistafopa.

[Redneck 2000]

We didn't always agree on things but he was a smart kid who went way too soon. :( At least he lived life to the fullest while he still could.

RIP Mistafopa

[Denmo]

RIP Mistafopa. From what I heard you lived the rest of your days doing what you love. I hope you died a happy man.

[Crimson Knight]

R.I.P. man. :( I didn't get to know him much, but he seemed like a cool guy.

[Tex Ritter]

I honestly very much looked up to and admired him.

That sucks a lot.

[Ryner]

That's a shame, I didn't even know he was sick.

[facts]

I don't know who he is, but I'm sad about anyone dying. May he R.I.P. :(

[Funk]

Mistafopa and I never got along, but no one should die that young. R.I.P.

[Alzar]

RIP fopa

:(

[Hikari]

I read a while ago at the Pav that he was terminally ill. Even though I only spoke with him once on AIM I have respect for him and am sorry to hear of his passing. He was a most unusual and intelligent and deeply sympathetic individual by all accounts. I have often heard how kind he was to people with whom he chatted regularly. It's terrible to think that he must have suffered. I hope he is no longer in pain but has found the profound peace for which he was searching.

The rest is silence.

[Vandal KING]

My god. I'm so serious, I almost felt like crying even though I never knew him. I hate seeing or hearing about anyone dying. :(

[Patryn]

RIP Fopa. I never really got to know him, but he was always around and always seemed to be a valued part of this community.

[Kefka Jr.]

Writing obituaries kinda puts an apathetic spin on your concept of mortality.

I'm sure Fopa would've found that humorous.

[hitogoroshi]

Geez, I never even got to meet the guy. :( Rest in peace, mistafopa.

[kaine1026]

It sucks..The 3 or more years I've been in and out of the rpgm community I can't seem to remember him. If he was nice to me I'm sure I didn't deserve it.

I feel for his family and friends because he died way too young.

[altoecko]

I honestly want to cry. He listened to me, and he respected me. By God I respected him. Ha, God, what a concept eh Fopa? I'm sorry I never got to say goodbye. Here's to you old buddy:

Mistaf0pa: I hate them, they sit there and they say things like: "MAYBE WE WERE MADE BY ALIENS?!?" You're what? Over 25 now? You're just not thinking this? I thought this when I was 13 and stoned for the first time. But I was stoned and 13, you're nearly double that age and sober, stupidity like that is just, well, stupid.

I'll never forget that.

This saddens me more than words on a forum can show. He didn't deserve to die like that. I'll miss you, and I will NEVER forget you.

[highwind]

Mistafopa was by far one of my favorite people at this community. I admired his intelligence. I honesly think he was one of the smartest people I've ever known.

The guy had a wicked sense of humor and was always great for a debate. The experiences and knowledge he shared - as well as his pain - always piqued my interest and helped me relate with a fellow human being.

Take care, man. You will be missed.

[Valkysas]

I'd like to remind people that there is a guestbook on the obituary. Sign it if you feel like it.

[Jeroak Nelave]

Damn, he was the first person from the agetec boards that i actually talked to online. He was a great guy, and always interesting to talk to. Its not fair that he had to die so young.

I'll miss him.

[Dreamknight]

I guess while I sorta have accepted not being able to talk to him ever again a little while ago I'm really sad to find out he has passed away; like Valk said I hope he found peace.

I remember talking to him quite often near the end of the first pavilion boards, he got me into modding pc games.

[Pandable]

I talked to him an awful lot... I.. I'll write more later, I guess. I don't really have words right now.

I feel as if a big part of the pavilion just died with him.

[Valkysas]

I just saw something that scared the crap out of me.

randomly, I googled "mistafopa". as he invented the name (he saw it in a dream), he's the only one that uses it. I found posts of his on different sites all the way up to april 3rd, 2006. including a suicide newsgroup. the posts in that newsgroup contain some information that makes me certain it wasnt someone who just happened to have the same name. I don't think cancer took his life.

[Pandable]

I... don't doubt that.
I can't count the number of times I worried about him having killed himself when he didn't sign on aim for long periods of time.

I knew this was going to happen eventually. I think maybe we all did, at least those of us who really knew him.

That doesn't change how sad this is.

[Valkysas]

it just upsets me so much because I was there for him a lot when he was having thoughts like this, and I wasnt there for him this final time. I just keep wishing I could have contacted him somehow, to talk him down, convince him to live. its not fair! He, more than anyone else I've ever known did not deserve to feel the way he did, to hurt the way he did. NOT ****ING FAIR. whenever things started picking up for him, life just knocked him down again. god dammit.

[Pandable]

not right now, cause I really need to sleep.. but.. i'd like to talk to you on aim about this, sometime. I always respected him, but even after about 3 years of 8+ hour conversations at a time, I still feel like there were things I never really knew about him. loose ends I need to tie up. I'd.. like to talk to you sometime, in private, about all of this, if you don't mind. I'm kinda shaken by all this, to say the least.

[Valkysas]

dont mind at all. and yeah, I gotta get to bed too.

[Nixon]

I just saw something that scared the crap out of me.

randomly, I googled "mistafopa". as he invented the name (he saw it in a dream), he's the only one that uses it. I found posts of his on different sites all the way up to april 3rd, 2006. including a suicide newsgroup. the posts in that newsgroup contain some information that makes me certain it wasnt someone who just happened to have the same name. I don't think cancer took his life.

If he really was nearing the end, and it was inoperable, then I don't blame him. At that point it's pretty much take your own life or be completely miserable until your body finally gives out.

[OmegaD3k]

Just the other day I saw one of his posts and thought he was still around.
No one, especially someone that young, should ever go through cancer. No one.
Rest in peace, fopa. :(

[Karr Lord of Chaos]

what a shame to die so young, dont like it one bit.

i would guess he commited suicide rather then face the long road of cancer. its hard to tell what went on in his life before he died...

edit: remember him well, that is the mission of the living.

[Starba]

That's horrible, I had no idea! Whatever happened, he isn't suffering anymore, so we should at least feel comforted by that. RIP, Mistafopa.

[Fushigi na Renamon]

Wherever he is now, he isn't suffering anymore, and that is a little comforting. My sincere condolences.

I didn't know him very well, but I know he was well-liked by many, and it makes me sad that I didn't get to talk to him more.

I'll always remember him as the funny little man from KF:TAC that told me, only after I drank it, that the water was poisoned and I shouldn't drink it.

RIP, f0pa.

[IRC]

He taught me how to make booze in a bathtub.

[Gustaff 13]

I didn't speak to him much...
He was sort of a pillar of the pavilion, and that kind of intimidated me. Now I'll never have that opportunity again.

[Hikari]

Valk, remember how he was. He lived on his own terms. If that was him on those sites, if he did commit suicide, you cannot blame yourself, nor can you allow this to get to you. He no longer feels the pain of this life and that should be of comfort to you. Make this as positive a topic as possible for his memory and allow his spirit to be at peace without regret. I'm sure that's how he wants it. In fact, I wonder if his parents would like to know how influential and respected he was in this community. You might consider giving them a link to this topic in the guestbook. It should come from you.

Panda, make your peace with his death too. You have fond memories and that's what you should think of right now. Let go of the sadness as best you can and remember his sharp wit and fondness for irony and humor. That's what's important. He may have died young but look at it this way: he didn't die before he contributed the best of himself. He gave what he had and he left a profound mark on everyone with whom he was in contact. Not everyone can claim that even if they live to be 100. He was unique.

Blaze must not have seen this topic yet. I know he used to chat with him as well.

[Omnislash024]

Nobody should blame themselves for his passing. Ultimately, whatever he chose, it was his choice.

He was a good guy, didn't know he had so many personal problems though. He was a cool dude and alot of people will miss him here. He is at peace now.

[Sampson]

http://p081.ezboard.com/frpgmakerpavilionboardfrm254.showMessageRange?topicID=66.topic&start=1&stop=20

Ugh..I don't know what to type..

[d2king10]

I remember him, quite sad really. :( RIP Mistafopa...

[Drazus]

If it was cancer, and he did have no hope of survival, he did smart choice of suicide.

When my dad was hospitalized (or Hospicized) from cancer, he looked so horrible. He was hallucinating, his skin was orange, it was awful. He wanted just to die and get it over with.

I normally don't like suicide, but if it was necessary...

[Roneatek]

:(

Ugh, that sucks :(

[Riotsword]

I can't say I remember him all that well. He left after I started to think of this place as my home on the internet. But it's still very sad to hear.

Rest in peace, f0pa.

[Garr123]

F0pa had an entire host of skeletons in his closet, he had a lot of weight to carry. I wish he had told me if that was how he had decided to go out, I'll miss him deeply.

[The Toecutter]

F0pa had an entire host of skeletons in his closet,

Knowing him, they kept him company.


I'm not shocked at this news. I was expecting it would happen long after I last talked to him, given his illness. By March or so, I had already assumed he was dead, either by suicide from the pain of the cancer or by the cancer doing him in. I will miss him greatly.

[Xisthruos]

There was nothing in Mistafopa's behavior which caused me to dislike him. As such, his passing is not received without respect. His posts were always fun to read.

[hitogoroshi]

I think we should keep him as a admin. He deserves it.

[Valkysas]

His staff position will not be removed. ever.

[Armored]

His staff position will not be removed. ever.

:D

[Cutter De Blanc]

Holy ****.:(

[RPG Learner]

R.I.P. Man

[Doyleman]

I just read this. I knew him some.

I suddenly feel like ****. I'm speechless, save for my hoping he found peace.

[simple man]

Only the account remains of our memory's........He shall have my farewells

[altoecko]

(707.) I Won't Claim To Be What I Am Not 12:45 AM - 12:52 AM 03/13/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a head resting on my shoulders
And it's putting pressure on my soul
Ernest Hemingway once said:
"Happiness in intelligent people
is the rarest thing I know."
I can see the truths behind their lies
And the ignorance in their intelligence
"Drugs take away the stings
Of everyday life"
Life is hard,
But compared to what?
I found solace in his caring
And his freedom
His soul was noble
And he gave me a chance
So few people give chances
So few people
There was a crab inside his body
Nipping away at his hope
But he kept smiling
Never once did I see his face
Merely his soul
And it was smiling

Let's hope for my sake you were wrong, and there was an afterlife. I'd like for you to see this topic. You should be proud.

[golly_jollydude]

I never knew him. He sounded like a great guy...:tear
Rest In Peace, Mistafopa...

[Dallas Alvis]

I don't remember any time where " 'Fopa " wasn't unfavorable. Then again, its been a while for me, so...

[simple man]

Hes in the heavens now
he probly could not take the pain the cancer gave him
Ive never known him.Valkysas i hope your friend has a good rest.........

[162]

Oh my goodness! I'm REALLY sorry about your friend! May he find peace in heaven.
:cry

....I can't wait until there's a cure for cancer. A pavilionite made a good and true statement one time: cancer is the physical form of Satan (or something like that). Either way, you have my sincere condolences.

[Valkysas]

Happy Birthday, buddy.

[altoecko]

:(

[Dusk Raven]

Reading this topic was enough to make me a little somber... even though I never knew him. Reading the "update" about what might have happened was a little spooky.

I wonder how many of us, if we died, the pavilion would find out about it....

*Salutes*

[Goufunaki]

:(

[Bon]

Damn, I nearly forgot. Rest in peace, Steven.

[RPGD]

http://the.honoluluadvertiser.com/specials/dispatches/photos/032304pg1_b.jpg

[KumoShinagi]

RIP, friend.

[Mintobrandybuck]

Wow, I'm really wishing I had been around to know him.

R.I.P, Fopa.

[Ms. Porkchop]

When I made Fruples birthday topic I was considering making him one but thought that would be best left to you valk to decided how to go about this.

RIP.

[Fushigi na Renamon]

Thinking of you, Fopa. Happy Birthday.

[Karr Lord of Chaos]

a shame, he was an interesting guy. happy b day mista

[162]

....Happy Birthday, Mr. Mistafopa.

[jacquel]

I don't remember too much, but I do know we chatted a few times and that he was a genuinely intelligent, interesting guy who would have had a lot going for him if something so horrible hadn't happened. RIP.