I've been thinking.
You know, I think it seems rather evident that I tend to be annoyingly random on here. I sometimes look back at select things I've said and done and either chuckle or wish I had slammed my hand with a hammer afterwards.
But then I look at what I do everywhere else. I notice a very significant difference.
While on the Pavilion, I tend act rather batty, random and nonsensical, whereas elsewhere I act cool, logical, sensical and professional. That includes IMing Pavilion members and non-Pavilion members, especially in the case of greetings, where I'd spout an odd threat or claim with one of you and a simple "Hello" or "Greetings" otherwise (I tend to get all "philosophical conversationalist" with Magus for some reason, though, which is a trait normally associated with conversing with a non-Pavilion person. He is an odd exception).
I really wonder why, though?
I've never taken this into account, honestly. I mean, though I am an administrator, I often find myself not acting like one, or doing the job poorly (which has occured more than once, and is currently in effect). But that's irrelevant in this case.
I believe there are a number of potential reasons for this. One would probably be that I consider the Pavilion to be an involuntary home base of sorts; a place where I can express my bottled whimsy and experiment with people's potential reactions to things. I honestly do feel at home here, but I never thought about what that would entail in terms of expressing myself in this manner.
Another reason might be the fact that Paul is here. He's my very best online friend and a big brother figure to me. We have something of a special connection when conversing everytime we're online, and that leads to very random banter and personal lingo that'd be out of place elsewhere.
Under normal circumstances, I only IM him and no one else. But sometimes I IM others if he isn't online. And apparently I've adapted to our conversations a bit too much, leading to the aforementioned odd random conversations with select Pavilion members, heretofore leading to very awkward situations and personal perceptions. However, that appears to apply only to Pavilion members, as stated prior.
In spite of the above, I'm still not sure why I act the way I do on here. A significant amount of the stuff I say and do here isn't really me, and that emcompasses all of my Pavilion randomness. I express myself with a potentially irregular display of whimsy, I'm pretty sure several people find it annoying and/or frustrating. I'm not sure I can help it, either. The issue of false perception may be the death of me someday.
Ok, I'm done.
You know, I think it seems rather evident that I tend to be annoyingly random on here. I sometimes look back at select things I've said and done and either chuckle or wish I had slammed my hand with a hammer afterwards.
But then I look at what I do everywhere else. I notice a very significant difference.
While on the Pavilion, I tend act rather batty, random and nonsensical, whereas elsewhere I act cool, logical, sensical and professional. That includes IMing Pavilion members and non-Pavilion members, especially in the case of greetings, where I'd spout an odd threat or claim with one of you and a simple "Hello" or "Greetings" otherwise (I tend to get all "philosophical conversationalist" with Magus for some reason, though, which is a trait normally associated with conversing with a non-Pavilion person. He is an odd exception).
I really wonder why, though?
I've never taken this into account, honestly. I mean, though I am an administrator, I often find myself not acting like one, or doing the job poorly (which has occured more than once, and is currently in effect). But that's irrelevant in this case.
I believe there are a number of potential reasons for this. One would probably be that I consider the Pavilion to be an involuntary home base of sorts; a place where I can express my bottled whimsy and experiment with people's potential reactions to things. I honestly do feel at home here, but I never thought about what that would entail in terms of expressing myself in this manner.
Another reason might be the fact that Paul is here. He's my very best online friend and a big brother figure to me. We have something of a special connection when conversing everytime we're online, and that leads to very random banter and personal lingo that'd be out of place elsewhere.
Under normal circumstances, I only IM him and no one else. But sometimes I IM others if he isn't online. And apparently I've adapted to our conversations a bit too much, leading to the aforementioned odd random conversations with select Pavilion members, heretofore leading to very awkward situations and personal perceptions. However, that appears to apply only to Pavilion members, as stated prior.
In spite of the above, I'm still not sure why I act the way I do on here. A significant amount of the stuff I say and do here isn't really me, and that emcompasses all of my Pavilion randomness. I express myself with a potentially irregular display of whimsy, I'm pretty sure several people find it annoying and/or frustrating. I'm not sure I can help it, either. The issue of false perception may be the death of me someday.
Ok, I'm done.
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