I don't like to be a bother, and this is not something I would ask for the sake of fun, but I have finally found a name that expresses my true nature and I've been using it wherever possible. So I humbly request the name of Catharsis. I can assure you I will never ask to change it again.
How have I changed? Well the short version is over the last 2 months I've tore down and redefined my views on just about everything, which is evident in the many philosophical ramblings I've lodged here and there in the free forum. Basically I have felt an unusually strong need to know things completely and draw conclusions with certainty. However I found myself taring down every conclusion I drew so I concluded uncertainty, but that also wasn't enough.
In the end I had to split reality into seperate contingencies and achieve a sense of self that works with all of them. This is a big change from the 27 years I've lived as a mere Christian that was overly ideal and had an unshakable faith in an eternal heaven on earth where the self remained intact forever. While surely the most appealing view, it inspires a level of sacrifice that I am no longer comfortable with. My days of knocking on Gods door are at an end, he has never been with me...
I consider myself a global citizen, with a fascination to explore diverse cultures and the adaptability to immerse myself with any of them should the need arise, but I'm really not that spiritual at all, I'm merely a thinker and a dreamer.
One of the greatest held beliefs in nearly every school of newage thought is that the divine split itself into all of us to have fun here and eventually reconcile all of us back to him. In that situation justice is nonexistant and theres no point being some poor martyr when you could be the guy that has it all and does whatever he wants. This was sort of like the devil tempting me to evil, but I found when you strip everything away I don't really care, I'm still the same person underneath.
I passed this trial and got to make some sense of this kill or be killed mentality that affected most of the ancient world. If the reincarnation happens it likely goes back and forth between predator and prey. This led to another profound revelation:
That good and evil are inherently wrong. Eden suggests a time when a perfect God made perfect beings, so the need to divide our basic nature into right and wrong is to say we are inherently wrong. This imperfection lends itself to death, this is an argument we can't win.
For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. So despite the actions of any deity or alien in the past the act of saying everything is one way or another lends itself to delusion, and sure enough has resulted in killing others in the name of some crusade every time. The man who would have only good is consumed by his repressed evil and a mockery is made of all his claims.
Good creates an impossible standard for perfection and evil becomes the equal and opposite reaction to that action. The good recognize their imperfection and await punishment, the evil recognize their perfection and lash out against them.
This was a conclusion I could never deal with before, but it's not as bad as it seems. Perfection is a subjective cruelty we use to measure ourselves. The answer is the way of a child: innocent and playful, neither good nor evil. Growing up makes one a bigot in a world where convergent viewpoints compete for dominance, yet thousands of years later every single of them remains.
The other thing I have a hard time dealing with is the overall way of the world. Most of us work a simple job for a simple wage. Its a simple concept of give and be given to. But rather then merely give to one another and help one another we created an artificial thing thing called money so that some jobs could be better then others. That way a man who scoops poop for a living will make so little he has to borrow from a banker, who merely sits around getting rich off the interest.
This in a nutshell is whats wrong with society. It's been desensitized by money away from the warm experience of helping another human being and receiving help in return.
Our religions pass around the collection plate and where does it go? In their vaults, in their cathedrals, towards their crusades. The Vatican sits rich beyond measure while its people starve on the streets and nothing is done, but what is to be expected when their very doctrine teaches the world is inevitably evil and that God will wipe us out before taking his place among us, a misguided hope at best...
Our celebrities have embraced the idea they are better then everyone else. There is not one rich person to be found among them that will invest in you, believe in you, and really commit themself and their funding to making the world a better place for everyone. As a result we become jaded and only out for ourselves which feeds the very cycle that lead us to becoming jaded in the first place! Now I'm sure some who are rich have decided to balance the universe, but someone threatened them...
Our Kings enjoy the good life. They fight one another at times to create the illusion they are just, but they are all simply part of an upper class that does anything for profit, including war. Their intention is to cultivate a world where there only exist the rich and slaves who serve them. They have banded together forming their own guild. Its called the Illuminati. Wouldn't you do the same if you were rich?
So what is the answer? Its the most basic principle of work: give and someone will give to you. Simply follow it to the letter, and whenever you find someone who does otherwise kill them. In order to cleanse an infected body the germs must be killed. It is that simple. How else can a slave be free of his master?
Unfortunately its too late for such an extreme action, but back in the dark ages I would have wholehearted told everyone I met to put others before themselves, consider all humans equal, and kill every man that tried to rule us and was only out for himself.
Once again its all because of money that we are only out for ourselves and have perverted the simple concept of give and be given to. Money is the root of all evil. All people and all nations do whatever is economically best despite science, despite morals, despite what they really want.
Its a world where people are distanced from one another, lonely and sad, disorganized and unable to rebel. The next step will be taking away their right to bear arms. Finally we will be locked in a world where we become slaves who love their slavery.
Do any of your Gods, religions, celebrities, or kings have any real desire to improve the world? NO.
Our Gods tell us to worship them and give up on the world, it will be destroyed in doomsday. And so many eagerly await for God to wipe out the human race. Jesus healed the people and sought to be crucified by them. Buddha turned his back on the world concluding "All is sorrow" and his monks seek to leave it behind entirely. So rather then improve the world that is what those with religious views seek to do.
Communism has had its chance. While enlightened in theory, its government was corrupted nonetheless. When faced with a secret order of rich person who run the world one concludes it is better to be bought out then attempt a hopeless battle against the world.
Democracy has also had its say. America was born of the very ideas I am talking about here. A people who abandoned their kings and sought to make a completely fair world in a new land. The indians knew how to honor the earth and give and be given to, but rather then learn from them we destroyed them. America today is just as much the slave of money as any other nation.
So what else is there left to try? Whats happening now is that the new world order will have to deal with the backlash of the spiritual people they have controlled throughout history. Islam and terrorism for instance. These are the people who are unhappy with the world and want it to end just as their scriptures tell it will.
I have never understood the way of money. It has kept me lonely, isolated, and unable to plan the kind of job I would have or life I would lead. The cabalist central bankers have a tight reign on this world. When I think about it it feels as though all of humanity has been violated.
It's hard to retain respect for a God that doesn't care about the world, only about spiritual unity with him after the grave. Moreover if the world is corrupt how much easier it will be to leave it behind. Like I said God has never been on my side. Ever.
I don't particularly care for the idea of being a spirit wandering in space. For me church is pointless, work is pointless, justice is pointless, protecting the environment is pointless. Indeed the only things worth doing are the desires of my heart, helping others, and making real connections that go beyond words.
So that is what I will live for. To achieve the satisfaction of emotional Catharsis in all things and the creative joy of exploring life to the fullest. Spiritual pursuits are meaningless, what matters is that I have the right attitude about them. God will have to accept me for who I am because trying to be anything else is a delusion whose corruption is evidence of wrong.
So I leave you with a troubling thought. There are many lonely people in this world riddled with problems and issues and sorrows and suicides. Each of them may have a few nice words for the other, but like the apple that fell on the ground none of them will really become a personal part of each others lives. They all tell them to seek real connections, but none of them will become these connections.
Great things could become of these people, but they were meant to support one another and need one another. They weren't meant to be so self sufficient that they are perfectly happy alone. People like to be needed, especially in intimate relationships, yet not one of them is willing to complete the other.
So society tells us we're wrong, that what we feel is an error in our brain and gives us drugs upon drugs, with side effects that require us to buy more drugs, and drugs that treat those drugs, and paying out a fortune to become the ideal slave that is in love with his slavery. You know I think better just stop here, it's getting a bit too deep.
How have I changed? Well the short version is over the last 2 months I've tore down and redefined my views on just about everything, which is evident in the many philosophical ramblings I've lodged here and there in the free forum. Basically I have felt an unusually strong need to know things completely and draw conclusions with certainty. However I found myself taring down every conclusion I drew so I concluded uncertainty, but that also wasn't enough.
In the end I had to split reality into seperate contingencies and achieve a sense of self that works with all of them. This is a big change from the 27 years I've lived as a mere Christian that was overly ideal and had an unshakable faith in an eternal heaven on earth where the self remained intact forever. While surely the most appealing view, it inspires a level of sacrifice that I am no longer comfortable with. My days of knocking on Gods door are at an end, he has never been with me...
I consider myself a global citizen, with a fascination to explore diverse cultures and the adaptability to immerse myself with any of them should the need arise, but I'm really not that spiritual at all, I'm merely a thinker and a dreamer.
One of the greatest held beliefs in nearly every school of newage thought is that the divine split itself into all of us to have fun here and eventually reconcile all of us back to him. In that situation justice is nonexistant and theres no point being some poor martyr when you could be the guy that has it all and does whatever he wants. This was sort of like the devil tempting me to evil, but I found when you strip everything away I don't really care, I'm still the same person underneath.
I passed this trial and got to make some sense of this kill or be killed mentality that affected most of the ancient world. If the reincarnation happens it likely goes back and forth between predator and prey. This led to another profound revelation:
That good and evil are inherently wrong. Eden suggests a time when a perfect God made perfect beings, so the need to divide our basic nature into right and wrong is to say we are inherently wrong. This imperfection lends itself to death, this is an argument we can't win.
For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. So despite the actions of any deity or alien in the past the act of saying everything is one way or another lends itself to delusion, and sure enough has resulted in killing others in the name of some crusade every time. The man who would have only good is consumed by his repressed evil and a mockery is made of all his claims.
Good creates an impossible standard for perfection and evil becomes the equal and opposite reaction to that action. The good recognize their imperfection and await punishment, the evil recognize their perfection and lash out against them.
This was a conclusion I could never deal with before, but it's not as bad as it seems. Perfection is a subjective cruelty we use to measure ourselves. The answer is the way of a child: innocent and playful, neither good nor evil. Growing up makes one a bigot in a world where convergent viewpoints compete for dominance, yet thousands of years later every single of them remains.
The other thing I have a hard time dealing with is the overall way of the world. Most of us work a simple job for a simple wage. Its a simple concept of give and be given to. But rather then merely give to one another and help one another we created an artificial thing thing called money so that some jobs could be better then others. That way a man who scoops poop for a living will make so little he has to borrow from a banker, who merely sits around getting rich off the interest.
This in a nutshell is whats wrong with society. It's been desensitized by money away from the warm experience of helping another human being and receiving help in return.
Our religions pass around the collection plate and where does it go? In their vaults, in their cathedrals, towards their crusades. The Vatican sits rich beyond measure while its people starve on the streets and nothing is done, but what is to be expected when their very doctrine teaches the world is inevitably evil and that God will wipe us out before taking his place among us, a misguided hope at best...
Our celebrities have embraced the idea they are better then everyone else. There is not one rich person to be found among them that will invest in you, believe in you, and really commit themself and their funding to making the world a better place for everyone. As a result we become jaded and only out for ourselves which feeds the very cycle that lead us to becoming jaded in the first place! Now I'm sure some who are rich have decided to balance the universe, but someone threatened them...
Our Kings enjoy the good life. They fight one another at times to create the illusion they are just, but they are all simply part of an upper class that does anything for profit, including war. Their intention is to cultivate a world where there only exist the rich and slaves who serve them. They have banded together forming their own guild. Its called the Illuminati. Wouldn't you do the same if you were rich?
So what is the answer? Its the most basic principle of work: give and someone will give to you. Simply follow it to the letter, and whenever you find someone who does otherwise kill them. In order to cleanse an infected body the germs must be killed. It is that simple. How else can a slave be free of his master?
Unfortunately its too late for such an extreme action, but back in the dark ages I would have wholehearted told everyone I met to put others before themselves, consider all humans equal, and kill every man that tried to rule us and was only out for himself.
Once again its all because of money that we are only out for ourselves and have perverted the simple concept of give and be given to. Money is the root of all evil. All people and all nations do whatever is economically best despite science, despite morals, despite what they really want.
Its a world where people are distanced from one another, lonely and sad, disorganized and unable to rebel. The next step will be taking away their right to bear arms. Finally we will be locked in a world where we become slaves who love their slavery.
Do any of your Gods, religions, celebrities, or kings have any real desire to improve the world? NO.
Our Gods tell us to worship them and give up on the world, it will be destroyed in doomsday. And so many eagerly await for God to wipe out the human race. Jesus healed the people and sought to be crucified by them. Buddha turned his back on the world concluding "All is sorrow" and his monks seek to leave it behind entirely. So rather then improve the world that is what those with religious views seek to do.
Communism has had its chance. While enlightened in theory, its government was corrupted nonetheless. When faced with a secret order of rich person who run the world one concludes it is better to be bought out then attempt a hopeless battle against the world.
Democracy has also had its say. America was born of the very ideas I am talking about here. A people who abandoned their kings and sought to make a completely fair world in a new land. The indians knew how to honor the earth and give and be given to, but rather then learn from them we destroyed them. America today is just as much the slave of money as any other nation.
So what else is there left to try? Whats happening now is that the new world order will have to deal with the backlash of the spiritual people they have controlled throughout history. Islam and terrorism for instance. These are the people who are unhappy with the world and want it to end just as their scriptures tell it will.
I have never understood the way of money. It has kept me lonely, isolated, and unable to plan the kind of job I would have or life I would lead. The cabalist central bankers have a tight reign on this world. When I think about it it feels as though all of humanity has been violated.
It's hard to retain respect for a God that doesn't care about the world, only about spiritual unity with him after the grave. Moreover if the world is corrupt how much easier it will be to leave it behind. Like I said God has never been on my side. Ever.
I don't particularly care for the idea of being a spirit wandering in space. For me church is pointless, work is pointless, justice is pointless, protecting the environment is pointless. Indeed the only things worth doing are the desires of my heart, helping others, and making real connections that go beyond words.
So that is what I will live for. To achieve the satisfaction of emotional Catharsis in all things and the creative joy of exploring life to the fullest. Spiritual pursuits are meaningless, what matters is that I have the right attitude about them. God will have to accept me for who I am because trying to be anything else is a delusion whose corruption is evidence of wrong.
So I leave you with a troubling thought. There are many lonely people in this world riddled with problems and issues and sorrows and suicides. Each of them may have a few nice words for the other, but like the apple that fell on the ground none of them will really become a personal part of each others lives. They all tell them to seek real connections, but none of them will become these connections.
Great things could become of these people, but they were meant to support one another and need one another. They weren't meant to be so self sufficient that they are perfectly happy alone. People like to be needed, especially in intimate relationships, yet not one of them is willing to complete the other.
So society tells us we're wrong, that what we feel is an error in our brain and gives us drugs upon drugs, with side effects that require us to buy more drugs, and drugs that treat those drugs, and paying out a fortune to become the ideal slave that is in love with his slavery. You know I think better just stop here, it's getting a bit too deep.
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