Alright, my poem topic.

[altoecko]

I kept posting individual topics because I knew you'd guys respond more. But trust me, I'd spam the board if I made a topic for every poem. Mind just humoring me and commenting every now and then? Good or bad, I don't care. I'd just like to know if anyone acctually reads these.

(352.) Dream Of An Angel
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I awoke and stared out into the night.
There was nothing to see but drowned out light.

The dream was quick and the message blunt.
The fox would run and the dog would hunt.

I breathed a breathe and heaved a sigh.
I whiped the sweat away from above my eye.

Not a thought could cross my mind.
The face I saw was one of a kind.

An angel in a silk robe stood staring out.
The feelings overtook me and I let out a simple shout.

"I love you." I spat unto the angel as she looked down on me.
She peered straight through me, I could clearly see.

"Why?" she asked with a smile.
"I do not know." I said with unbridled denile.

But I did and she knew.
She could read me through and through.

I asked her to please come by my side.
But she turned away and quickly went to hide.

Like a dog with smell of meat.
I quickly pounded my feet.

I chased her through the forest, untill my body had no more.
Frightened was I, for the angel I may bore.

She would lose interest and I would cry.
But she gently whispered "If you left I would die."

I shed a tear and pushed on.
She held my hand and supported me untill the moon was gone.

The light bled into my eyes.
And I awoke to see no blue skies.

But the light I saw beaming about, was nothing more than her soft skin.
And to describe the beauty lying next to me, I cannot begin.

[Czechs Mex]

Read it. Pretty good. I like the last couple lines.
I'm curious to see what you could do with a different/no rhyming scheme, Alto.

[pinkymadigan]

Indeed. Free form it. The scheme is too sing-songy and simple.

[altoecko]

(353.) Kisses Are Wine
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My heart to thy heart
My hand to thine
My lips to thy lips
Kisses are wine.
Brewed within rhyme.
Perfected in time.

My head to thy head
My skin to yours
My soul to thy soul
Slowly it pours.
Mixed together with you
As pure as the dew.

My hopes to thy hopes
My dreams to ours
My strength to thy strengths
Your incredible powers.
You have no weakness or flaw
Most perfect being, that I ever saw.

My future to thy future
My tomorrow today
My words thy ears
"I love you" I say.
Now build dreams with me in bed.
Come lie with me and rest our head.

(354.) Why Do I Love You?
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Why do I love you?
Because you smile and I warm.
Because we fight and you cry.
And I do something stupid and hurt you.
So I say I'm sorry.
You get a headache and I tell you I love you.
I ask i I can help and you say no.
I remark and you misunderstand.
Why do I love you?
Because you love me.
Because you hold my hand.
And you make me feel good by just being near.
So I try to be with you at all times.
You get tired of me I sometimes fear.
I ask if this is true and you think I poke fun.
I cry because of the thought that you might leave me behind.
Why do I love you?
Because you let me.
Because you are the greatest thing to happen, ever.
And because you're beautiful.
So I tell you.
You don't believe me.
I tell you more.
I tell you the truth.
Why do I love you?
Because you are perfect.
Because you have no equal before my eyes.
And I see clear beside you.
So I grip tight.
You tell me to get off.
I ask why.
I feel hurt.
Why do I love you?
Because there is nothing better I can do.
Because you in all meaning of the phrase, complete me.
And you love me.
So what if we fight?
You love me right?
I love you.
I can say this with all my being and it's true.

(355.) Transfusion
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No need for a second glance.
You've already played the game, lost your chance.
Glanced about in a daze of confusion.
As if you'd had a bad transfusion.
What's that you say, your bloods gone bad?
The blood I pumped in you is all you had.
I kept you healthy and well.
Made your body run and lifted you from hell.
Well you're the one that walked away.
Didn't leave a letter, didn't have much to say.
You can't live without me you know.
But through your body I no longer flow.
So what if you die?
I'm still healing from you leaving and I cry and I cry.
Serves you right for taking me out.
You deserve your fate, without a doubt.

[Czechs Mex]

yeah! i kind of like those first two, alt. what do you think? you should do more like that (meaning not AABB rhyming sceme) in my opinion. they're less predictable.

[altoecko]

lol Didn't read much of my work before didja? =p Mostly all I write are none AABB.

[Czechs Mex]

maybe it's just the constant tight rhyming at the end of each line i'm thinking of.

[d2king10]

I love them alt. Great work =D Cant wait to see more of your stuff.

[altoecko]

Thanks.

(356.) Blue Hat
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Blue hat on red head.
Arrow shoot, I'll soon be dead.
Heaven's part and doors split.
Light is seen from within the pit.
She walks with her head held high above.
The blue hat hides her true love.
But it shows she cares so much.
That she's willing to chance it all to touch.
She loves her style, she loves her grace.
I love the soul behind that pretty face.
She'll wear it snug, around her brain.
In hopes it will somehow cause the rain.
She lets him wear it when he is down.
Thinking it may somehow cure his frown.
But she hates the way it look.
So back to her head it is soon took.
Girl in blue hat I love you so.
And even if I can't show you enough, I want you to know.


(357.) No Words
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No words can show the way I feel.
But with all my might I shall try.
To glorify your name even if it all be in vain.
I love you and I want everyone to know.
That my love is pure and so is your embrace.
I love you is all I may say.

[pinkymadigan]

You keep saying that, but your rhyme scheme IS usually AABB. That's what we're talking about. I liked the free verse rhyming scheme ones a lot better.

[altoecko]

Yeah I sorta gravitate back to them for the simple poems.

[altoecko]

(358.) Maze Rats
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City sidewalk stretched out as far as I can see.
Millions of people walking to and fro.
But I wonder, do they really have anywhere to go?
I myself am quite lost in this big maze of concrete.

I wonder if they notice me.
As I walk along this paved road to nowhere.
Will I end up somewhere?
But I guess to them I'm just a ghost.

A weary traveller or a beggar for their change.
They could care less for my life, my name.
We're all so different yet so earily the same.
People pass me by and never look.

If I were special, or had some kind of trait.
Do you think they would look at me and release noise of "Ooh" and "Ah!"?
Marvel at my skills and throw change into my hat of straw.
Or would I just be another thing they saw on Mulberry Lane?

I feel lonely as they all move by so fast.
No change to spare, no words to say.
Just mindlessly to and fro they sway.
From sun up to moon down, they all just run the maze.

I am different as you can see.
No home nor love nor things to share.
I have no home, as if anyone care.
No time of day or nice hello.

I wander alone in my house of nothing.
Poor, alone, and so cold.
I think I shall die alone and not that old.
And the people shall just keep walking.

Next time you're in the maze.
Looking for the reward of cheese.
Could you please,
Spare some change or a nice hello?

[Redneck 2000]

Sorry I haven't commented in a while, but that blue hat one was really cool. More visual than the other ones, I think.

The new one is pretty good too. Sorry I can't give more specific criticisms but I'm no poet.

[altoecko]

Hey, it's fine, as long as you comment.


*WARNING* This is a bit raunchy.

(359.) Nine Feet Long
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If I had a dick that was nine feet long!
I'd be king of all men and master of the schlong.
So Genie, that is my wish, give me a dick that's 3 feet thick!
So the Genie did so and did so real quick.
He fell to the ground and couldn't stand.
As he squirmed in pain at the anguish at hand.
A beautiful woman began to walk past.
Blood started flowing to the spot real fast.
He grew pale, and realized what he'd done.
He didn't have enough blood to run that huge ton!
So is the story of the insecure man.
Remember this lesson, if you want a big willy, think out your plan.


(360.) Red Meat
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Joey lived in a happy up-side down.
Nary a face with a face with a right-side-frown.
Joey was a boy who loved his life.
His daddy carved meat with a butchers knife.
Daddy loved Joey very much.
But mommy loved Joey , daddy, and every man she could touch.
Joey went to school with a big ol smile.
Just a little up the road, about a mile.
Smiles were everywhere around.
Except the for the boy who made not a sound.
From a little city miles away.
Driving non-stop it'd take you a day.
Joey went home to find mommy in bed.
Daddy found out and soon she was dead.
Joey understood and so did the town.
They buried mommy in her favorite gown.
She looked pretty, and everyone grinned.
It was ok, mommy had sinned.
The sad little boy told Joey not to cry.
But it was ok, just mommy that die.
The sad little boy was sad and scared.
It was as if no one had cared.
That woman just go killed!
Why were they all so earily thrilled?
New meat was in daddy's shop the next day.
"Red Meat" was all the sign would say.
The sad little boy's parents bought a pound.
To the piece of hair in the meat his eyes were bound.
Was this the woman that had died?
Was this the reason that no one had cried?
Joey ate happily in the butcher store.
Eatign and chewing, more and more!
The sad boy called him sick and a Cannibal.
He knew that word, as he'd seen Hannibal.
Instantly was knife in his back.
Like a cold silent heart attack.
The boy slump slowly to the floor below.
Another word of the boy no one would ever know.
His family was kicked out of town real quick.
But the butcher's shop had new meat, "Red Meat, Extra Thick"

[pinkymadigan]

Much too silly for my tastes.
The maze one was decent, but there is a verse that overstates its point too much. It mentions having no home twice pretty much verbatim. Very redundant.
Sometimes your sense of rhythm is very askew. It bugs me. Too each their own.

[altoecko]

Sorry, I just sorta write how I feel.


(361.) again
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heart beats
again
and again
pumping life from me
going away to far away lands
from my feet to my hands
faster it pumps
again
and again
blood reaches the brain and it tells the rest
make this, see that, do this, here me out
why does it keep pumping
why
again
and again
faster, harder, stronger
it's throughtout my entire body in seconds
giving life to all it touchs
now it's heading back to the source
fresh power from the battery
picking up resources along the way
the rush is incredible
again
and again
i can't take much more of this
this fake high coursing through my body
i gotta let it out
i gotta get out
it goes everywhere inside the boundries
what if it had no boundries
it'd go on forever
again
and again
i'll just let it free
a simple doorway
into the life outside
i'd make thousands
and my life shall reach you in no time
it's already going across the floor
i want you to see it
let me share it
again
and again

[pinkymadigan]

That one is really good. But you did mispell boundaries.

[Redneck 2000]

I liked the schlong one and the red meat ordeal, they were both the kind of dorky little poems I enjoy/would write myself. The heart one is pretty cool too, it gives a good impression.

[altoecko]

(362.) As If It Were
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The world is
Just another outlet for me to scream through.
These feelings are
More blind faith in the dark.
My actions seem
Like I am unhappy.
The truth of me is
That I'm just dissapointed.
Dissapointed in
All those that speal before they think and hurt all others.
I'll try
To help them all out.
But I am
Only a helpless peon.
In a giant game
That sucks us all down.
Into that abyss we call
Sadness.
We shall rise above
That which keep us down.
Let's try to
Stick together.
For once
Let's try.


(363.) Two + Un
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Rain drips down the window leaving trails for others to follow.
They all quickly follow down a path.
None really blaze their own.
Come to think of it, they probably never blaze.
But as I sit there and look out the window.
I see a gray sky and white clouds.
It's quite a beautiful combination of colors.
Beautiful is a color.
It's the color I use to paint you.
Your eyes are the color beautiful.
How do you make this color?
You mix all those things you cannot describe with words.
The kind of things that leave you in awe.
Things that can pull tears from your soul.
....I guess beautiful is beautiful so to say.
Cheesy, I know, but it's true.
It's like that, well, that first time you beat that record and get the gold medal.
Sure it doesn't always mean a whole lot, but damn it feels good.
It's like, God gives you a pat on the back.
Don't believe in God?
Well then I guess it's the first sip of wine from a well deserved break.
The rain is still running down the window.
Sometimes I sit here and I wonder.
Am I the raindrop that makes it's own trail?
Or do I do nothing but ride on the success of others?
I don't really know.
And I wonder what color I am.

[pinkymadigan]

363! Me gusta muy mucho senor! Very nice.

[altoecko]

A little tribute.

(364.) Tribute To The Pixies
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I la la la love you.
Ya ya ya you know it's true.
My monkey gone to heaven, oh so tame.
Mr. Grieves is my Silver name.
I'll cycle on my wave of mutilation.
Oh My Golly I'm Amazed at the mutation.
The Brick Is Red.
The Goes My Gun up to my head.
Hey, Crackity Jones why do I Bleed?
Could it be I'm Dead upon my steed?
Vamos into the Gigantic River Euphrates, Here Comes Your Man.
You're My Velouria, No. 13 Baby, Gouge Away.
Tony's Theme being played on a Cactus in a Bone Machine the other day.
Where is my mind?
And I don't have Something Against You, you're one of a kind.
Are You Black, Or White?
Are you promised to the night?
My Pixie's going to see Doolittle.
To see if my Surfer Rosa's too little.
I tip my hat for one, you know it's true.
Break My Body all for you.

[Caciss]

I read the first fews line, and didn't bother to read the title.

AND I WAS GOING TO YELL AT YOU.

[pinkymadigan]

Ha. Yeah. I would be mad too. :lol
Not bad, just silly.

[Redneck 2000]

It's called "There goes my gun" not "the goes my gone". Other than that... good tribute to the pixies.

[altoecko]

I know, it was a typo, I thought I corrected that.

[altoecko]

(365.) Keep The Peace
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Keep the peace.
Shoot em down.
Maintain control.
Mow the grass.
We are the law.
Kill them all.
Best of all men.
Beat them down.
Power incarnate.
Split the crowd.
We are Gods among men.
Start the purge, begin again.
We have the right.
Deny the truth.
Above you.
Pull em down.
Perfect soldiers from on high.
Kill them all, rain death from the sky.

[altoecko]

(366.) I'm Not Good Enough
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Though I try and though I do.
My actions may not ever be enough for you.
I will kill my body and rape my soul.
Only if it were to make you whole.
I try my hardest, but still fail.
For my hopes are not good enough, and my arms too frail.
So I say these things with love and affection.
I shall try my best to offer my protection.
But it will never be enough to do any good.
But I will not quit, even if I could.

[altoecko]

I DO post too many poems, oh well.

(367.) Goblet
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I drink from the goblet of life and love.
It is made of my soul and of my dreams.
The sweet nectar on which I sip from the edges of this divine cup.
Spill forth from my being and fill the cup to the brim.
It never spill, never break.
No matter the ammount of which I bleed unto.
Holds all within it's small cup.
I drink daily and I drink hard.
Strong whiskey have not strength and Red Wine not class.
Elixer of my aspirations from my imaginations, loves, and creations.
Ruby red in it's tatse and color.
My heart ilk more for every sip.
I scare myself to think that I should drink too much.
What if it were so?
Shall I just wither away into the nothingness of the no ones.
Or burn gloriously untill the final moment when the flame is is blown forever out.
Nay, I shall not think of such things, my goblet is in hand.
No need to poison my own drink.
For an enemy of myself, I do not have the courage to muster.
I offer you this cup made of me.
To drink the sweet cognate of fluids spilt forth unto this world.
Fluids made of days long gone and futures well spent.
A toast to you, I offer oh so humbly.
The brewer of my wine and the keeper of my cellar.
Shall I pour you a glass?
Would you drink of this ambrosia which I offer unto thee?
Or is my mana not of standards set up before I?
I shall have my cup ever ready.
For if you were to be thirsty, you may drink of me.
So I toast to you, my perfect.
May you live forever and never run dry.
Of this sweet sweet potion for which I brew for love.
Even if my glass were to shatter.
I would still raise my cup to you.

[altoecko]

Another to add to the pile....

(368.) By The Window
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I watched you from the window.
And I waited for you throughout those days.
Waited for the time when we could laugh and play again.
Oh those glorious summers.
I watched from the window and waited by the door.
I sat and wanted so badly to hear that knocking on the door.
Then to hear your pretty voice.
Still I wait.
I wait for you to come to my door again.
To release me from this prison.
You left again.
But you say you're not coming back.
Why can't you come back?
Why must I wait longer to see you?
I miss you.
You came to me and I was happy.
But you leave me and I sit in dispair.
You've left me again.
And you're not coming back.
God, it is so lonely by the window.

[altoecko]

I do this for my own enjoyment.

(370.) God's War
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On what grounds is this war faught?
And why isn't peace being saught?
I feel as if I'm the only one who can plainly see.
What is lying oh so close in front of me.

That this war is wrong to all and any.
Any who enter into this fight of futility.
Futility which is so plainly brought forth from the reason.
The reason which none should fight for.

Why would we fight for such petty cause?
I did not break any of our man-made laws.
Because God wills it and it must be so?
God loves peace, or did you not know?

Body counts grow larger by the day.
Day in and day out more of God's Earth is being killed.
Killed for a cause that should not have the right to use his name.
His name which in all words deserves peace.

I do not believe in your God's will if this war was his command.
A clear reignation of this war I do demand!
Or atleast a clear motive that would bring us to this fight.
For the reasons we have now, cannot be right.

I say one thing, and you take it as another.
Another life I do not want to live withouth you.
You are all I live for in this world.
This world which you now war on.

[altoecko]

(372.) Come Live
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I look to the skies.
With the sun in my eyes.
And I see you.

I dive into the ocean.
With the waves stirring in motion.
And I feel you.

I listen to the silence of peace.
With the sound of a million butterflies release.
And I hear you.

I drink of ruby wine.
With the thought that you are mine.
And I taste you.

I sniff of your garden's rose.
With that slight tingle in my nose.
And I smell you.

I run through the rain.
With out a care nor pain.
And I forgive you.

I read this poem outloud.
With your smile I feel proud.
And I speak you.

[altoecko]

(373.) The Big Empty
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Sittin in the big empty.
Nothin but dust and dirt as far as you can see.
Sittin in a lawnchair, drinkin a coke I got for free.
Nothin on my mind but dust and dirt.

Whistlin dixie and tappin my feet.
Leanin back to look at the sky.
Whistlin a tune to a cloud that pass by.
Leanin against you for a little support.

Cryin up a storm with my worries.
Askin you questions about why and when.
Cryin out answers I know nothin about then.
Askin God why I'm here for you.

Prayin for an answer.
Gettin nothin but dust.
Prayin that my bones won't grow old and rust.
Gettin somethin unexpected on this hot empty day.

Rainin down hard on me and my coke.
Smilin at you laughin in the rain.
Rainin a cure-all for our pain.
Smilin with you, in the big empty.

(374.) Stay, Please.
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I'll keep smiling because you really make me feel joy.
I would love to be your toy.

I'll keep loving you, because you're perfect to me.
But I can't keep living with these pains you inflict, can't you see?

I am but a man, neigh God nor Deity.
I can barely handle what you do to me.

I hold my head high but your actions bring it down.
For all I see on you is nary a smile, but always frown.

Love grows old, I know.
But mine is still in make-up, not ready for the show.

But you keep pulling on the curtains announcing the play.
I try and talk you out of it, but you hurt the more you say.

You told me why you do this, why you hurt me so.
And I love you even more, now that I know.

Give me time, try to think.
The way you act now, I'm at my brink.

So I will have patience, love, and time.
But you have to stop saying things in mime.

It truly is eating my soul.
For you are the one thing that made me whole.

And you retract when I hug.
When I am happy, you are never snug.

You want what's best for me, but you say for us.
I'm trying to find a way to stop all this fuss.

But you stab me, and stab again.
I'll keep walking, for you're the best I've ever been.

My shoulder is here with a welcome sign.
I will still proclaim loudly, that you are mine.

You love me, and I love you.
What more than love each other is there to do?

You think of me, and I think of you, my future, yours.
Without you, my wings would be clipped, not an eagle that soars.

Don't leave me my darling, without you I cannot be.
I love you; you love me, what more is there to see?

I am crying as I write out these words, stay.
Every night, I have sat and I pray.

For you to come with me, and be in bliss.
Every shoot in the dark, is always a miss.

Life would end if I had no heart.
Your actions would rip it apart.

Come with me, grow old.
Stay with me, if you are to be so bold.

(375.) Mine
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Beautiful, graceful, stern, and wise.
I cry wolf and you see through my lies.
Caring, sharing, faithful, and divine.
A girl such as you, I happily call mine.

[Rain]

.....Well, I was going to post my poems but they were lost when I restored my computer. So uh...I guess I'll make some more?

And some of your poems are really nice Alto, but a lot of them are kind of cliche'. But some of them are very unique..hm...


Props to you Ecko, Props. :D

[altoecko]

Thank you. It's been a long time since someone commented, really, thanks. It means a lot to me.



(376.) Thine
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And you spill forth unto from thee.
That which I wish were mine.
You call thine self nevermore.
I follow you till I hath no life.
Leadeth me to that which you seek.
Show me unto what I owe these words.
What is the heavenly being that walks before thine eyes?
Shall it be named Heaven, or doth it burn like Hell?
Softest angel like dust.
Or a demeaning shell of a former lust?
I hath and will always unto such forth call you mine own.
If I am to be rejected from before thine eyes.
Then let me bask in ye grandeur of all majesties.
You are mine illumine in thine somber.
Light my path to infinite.
Grasp my hand and ensue.
I promise to thee, safe trek.


(377.) Help Me Lay The Coast
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How wonderful to me it would seem.
If I were to lay out upon this Earth my dream.
And they be more numerous than the sand on the shore.
If I try, of this outcome I am sure.
Shall you help me lay out this coast?
We'll make a mass worth that of a mighty boast.
If you were to only lend me your dreams and aspirations.
Our splendor would conquer that of all nations.


(378.) Teary Gray
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Eyes of Amber
Tears of Gray.
I'll watch you closely
And cry you away.

Flesh of silk
Heart of gold.
The soul is young
But the body old.

Give my love
Take your pain.
Use your key
To release the chain.

Weak in arms
Strong in fight.
Against the day
Defend the night.

I am young
I am old.
To your plantation
I am sold.

Feed the fire
Put it out.
Whisper I love you
Then scream it out.

Stay with me
Don't go.
If I were to lose you
.....I just don't know.


(379.) Black And White
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White clash with black.
Swords drawn prepared to attack.
Certain death is gauranteed.
For the one who hesitates to proceed.
Neck and neck, knife to throat.
Bloody prayers is all it wrote.
Dripping soul down the blade.
Into the flesh the steel invade.
Titans battle and Gods shake.
Thunderous blows form Earthquake.
Slash and mesh.
Tear the flesh.
Battle on until you have no more.
Then release potential from behind the door.
White and black fight away.
Dying slowly into the gray.


(380.) White Ashes
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She is as if the sky were gray
And it started to fall one day
In gentle ashes of white
Until all had fallen into the night
Thus the sky was black
Which she would never see behind her back
For her skin and smile light the way
For the path into today

(381.) Do I enjoy my life?
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If I were to die today.
Would I love my life?
With every bit of being in me.
There is nothing I would change.
I have lived short.
But not in vain.
I have lived in forever.
And in forever I shall stay.
I have loved.
I have lost.
I have been at ease.
If you were to ask me,
"Have you lived your life in vain?
Would you change your life, for it is to inane?"
No would be my answer.
For forever never quits.
And right now I am at ease.

(382.) Unpoetic
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I write what I feel and I feel what I write.
If you don't do this, you're not doing it right.

With a flick of the wrist, and the turn of a phrase.
The page comes alive and it sticks for days.

From Dante to tommorrow.
Let the poems show your happines, lust, or sorrow.

Just release the feelings you have inside.
Don't try and hide.

It's a bright new world, and a brand new day.
Sometimes "I love you" is all you need to say.

Explore different stlyes and try a new life.
Plunge into darkness, light, or a knife.

Anything is possible and all is alright.
Write about the day, dusk, or night.

There is nothing I can say that would be wrong.
All can be interpreted in song.

It is not what you say.
It is how you say it.

Thus nothing is
Unpoetic.

(383.) The 5th Moon
=---------------------------------------------------=
The light broke and the gun consumed.
Up the arm into the mind.
We have lost all control.
It shines brightly in the night sky.
There is nothing that can stop it.
The blade tries but fails and falls short.
The needle pierces but the string is too frail.
Bullet cuts the thread and bends the blade.
6 shots and nothing less.
The preacher watches and laughs away.
No one is near but the smell overuns.
The blade screams in fear and runs in vain.
All is destroyed.
Not even the moon is safe from this hell.
Hellish flames ride on from the gun.
City is in ashes.
The gun is left to die.
Like that faitful day in Augusta.
No matter the weapon.
All shall fall short to the gun.


(384.) Spare My Flower
=---------------------------------------------------=
I speake unto to you,
man in the red coat.
is what they say, true?
that you would slice mine throat
without second thought
of the outcome of the actions.
or can better ways be sought?
maybe we cannot handle those reactions
if it is to be so
spare my love from your blade
I volunteer myself to go
into hell I must invade
if that is the way to save
my lovely flower
that is so brave
rain down on me with the hellish shower

[altoecko]

Poo on all you people. I shall always write and share. I don't care if you want to read it or not. It's here.

(385.) Two Roads
=---------------------------------------------------=
There are two roads that sit before me.
One is welcoming and warm.
The other is too long for me to see.
Far too long to walk, don't you agree?

But if you look far down that road.
You will see another fork.
One is set in quite the mean mode.
The other is a gift to be bestowed.

We could persevere.
Take the long path.
Or shall we cut it easy and take the one so near?
I think I shall take the long frontier.

It shall be hard, this I know.
But I can tell it is worth it.
So down the road I shall go!
Into the wind the my soul will blow.

For the path may be long.
I am curious.
Is it down this path I belong?
What if I am wrong?

It doesn't matter.
Destiny allows, so it must be right.
Life isn't handed on a silver platter.
Break an egg into the batter.

Life is new.
The world is young.
To die with regret of what I never knew.
Is something I could never do.

Try it the hard way sometime.
It may pay off in the end.
Don't die a death that is sublime.
To the top you must climb!

The view from high is worth it all.
Worth the pain it took to get to the top.
So answer your call.
Don't think about the fall.

You'll make it someday.
Just keep treading.
For your safety I shall pray.
To give up, I say neigh!

[Caciss]

Okay.

Everyonce in awhile you dish out like 3 poems in a row that are really really good, and then it's just more "blah" crap for awhile. So, I think that's why I don't read, but hey!

[Rain]

Caciss=wrong.

You seem to have a problem with writing too many poems. Have you ever though about turning your poetry into music? It's just that, with so many poems, you can get really similar and repetitive from poem to poem. But I certainly wouldn't say any of your poems suck.

Unpoetic is a nice, unique poem.

And the two roads.


I think you're a really good poet, but instead of beautifying each work, you just kind of throw out all of your creativity in huge sparsels. I really recommend trying to turn them into songs, or if need be, get someone else to.

Because if you really tried you could have a beautiful way with words.

[Caciss]

Caciss=wrong.

Except it was an opinion.

[Rain]

:p I was just kiddin'

[altoecko]

I just write what I feel.


(386.) Marvel
=---------------------------------------------------=
Hello the man he said to me
Reached his pocket out a sight to see
Marvel at the thing and awe
A thing as him I never saw
Blinked an eye I fell dead
Shot a marvel through my head

(387.) Sly Smirk
=---------------------------------------------------=
With a sly smirk and a small hello
Flames went through me from below
I said a prayer and cried a tear
I knew my end was surely near
Never trust the sly smile
Or from beneath your feet, about a mile
Hell will come up and take your soul
Tear a gap and leave a hole
I saw death and ran away
But he'll catch up to me someday
So I tell this tale to you
Don't trust the smile or your through

[Rain]

You're very good at rhyming schemes :)

I like how not all of your poems are about the same exact thing. It's rare to see that in a poet.

[Redneck 2000]

i'd like to see you in a poet

and by poet i mean naked :lick

[Rain]

You talking to me or Alto? :lick

[Redneck 2000]

buddy holly :lick

[Rain]

I'm mora of a Michael Stipes/Billy Corgon(smashing pumpkins) kinda guy :lick

[Redneck 2000]

it's billy

[Rain]

lol thanks >>;

[John Mora]

I'm mora of a Michael Stipes/Billy Corgon(smashing pumpkins) kinda guy
OH GOODNESS

[Redneck 2000]

good to see my mora love getting spread

[Rain]

:lol I thought I felt some under-the-skin thing going for Mora. Now it's coming out in typos.

*Yawns* It's about time I get under the Mora.

I mean covers.

[altoecko]

Yoink

(388.) Lightning Kisses
=---------------------------------------------------=
A flash of light fills the sky
The quick kiss and short goodbye
Clouds blush from this kiss
Flash of light and a miss
Hits the ground
That rolling sound
You peer out amongst the dark
Looking for that familiar spark
But a figure is standing there
Go outside, do you dare?
Grimly walking through the rain
Shrieks of hell causing pain
Cover your ears to block the shriek
As your fear reaches its peek
Just before the pain erupts in sound
Your heart pumps faster and begins to pound
Light is faster than sound you see?
I'd already gone through your body and back to me
You hear the noise but it's too late
You got the hook and took the bait
I'm a beast of cloud and sky
Lightning kisses mean goodbye.

[Rain]

....Damn, Alto.

That is GOOD. I love it :D Your best yet of what I've seen.

[Czechs Mex]

Not my favorite of yours, but hey, I kind of like it. Especially the last two lines.

[Rain]

Yeah, it all leads into the last couple of lines. It's got a nice lead-up :)

[altoecko]

(389.) After The Son Has Died
=---------------------------------------------------=
After the sun has died.
I come to you in darkest hour.
The Earth is barren with no power.
Rivers form, how much you cried.

I come to you with light in hand and love in heart.
But you cry out and run away.
Why do you close your eyes from the day?
If we are to go on, we must start.

You believe you have the light.
You have no more than faith.
A beast of pain and hate, a wraith.
For it doth not illuminate anything but fright.

My way is wrong you cry and say.
If you are to be so right,
How did I make it through the night
into today?

Blind-folded staring at where the sun once layed.
Remembering all the times you basked in it's glory,
And how you will never forget the story.
Of how you and it once played.

It is not there and never will be.
Come with me to the other side.
Don't run, don't hide.
Come with me and see!

I promise salvation of the grandest type.
No use of media or slander
Come and take a gander
It is more than worth the hype.

But no, you gouge out your eyes and hate my being
You blame it all on me and my crimes against him
But he was never there, never filled you to the brim
You have prevented your own seeing

I wish only to love and help you.
For it is all I have to call my own
But your actions chill me to the bone
My light for you is true

Keep praying for the sun
Maybe he will come back someday
If you have faith and pray
But you will never be done


It's a giant metaphor, sorta like my life.

[altoecko]

(390.) I Will Not Be Denied
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm a blessing and a curse.
A sung song in free verse.
I'm stuck on top of this broken fence.
Leaning between past and present tense.
I'm a bastard and a saint
The sound of me makes mear mortals feint
But I still fall short to the light you shine
Before I die of pain or age I vow to make you mine
Self-inflicted wounds in attempt to release my heart
It hampered me from the start
I fought waves upon waves of my evil deed
Riding gallantly on my crimson steed
But no matter the way to heaven the road is so bloody
I fall into the ground beneath the waves of pain so muddy
Fighting things I can not match with weapons I don't have
All because my motives are cut in two halve.
One side wants peace the other wants you
My reason for war, what should I do?
I'm on my knees and drowning in hate
Why does not the cloud above me dissapate?
Has even God chosen to **** on me today?
Or is this the price that I must pay?
To be in love with something I don't deserve
Being checked and graded on a curve
Still losing at my game called life
Rolled the dice and got a double strife
Could you ever be with me, I once screamed and cried
But no matter God, man, nor demon, I SHALL NOT BE DENIED!
My love will carry me on through the night
To finish this neverending fight
Just so I can hold you in my arms, I will never be trough
All because with all my heart, I love you.

[altoecko]

(391.) I Must Be Dreaming
=---------------------------------------------------=
We all smile and except the prize
We're on T.V. surely there are no lies

Marian cries softly and rocks to sleep
A words of the night are nary a peep

The arm is no longer but an outlet of pain
They take it away to never come back again

I remember my mother and her warm loving hold
As I sleep in this hell that is nothing but cold

Tears roll down my face and I feel alone
The line is dead and no is on the phone

No words can express the pain that I feel
No amount of drugs could ever make it real

The refrigerator wants me and calls out my name
But I know if I respond, I'll never be the same

Mother always said I had to do nothing but smile
Happiness is an emotion I haven't felt in a while

I'm sorry mother that I've let you down so much
I long for your comfort and your warm touch

We touched heaven and soared in the sky
But I saw an angel and he said goodbye

All of my dreams encompassed in this gem
Played out into nothing but a requiem

I have my addiction and that is all I need
But from this hell I shall never be freed

Could you please smile and say hello?
I'm the addict on the floor below

We will call for them and they will come here
But in truth they will never be near

So I will cry myself out of this sad hellish life
To maybe feel momma's hug and an end to this strife

[altoecko]

(392.) Stench
=---------------------------------------------------=
No ammount of washing
Can get the stench of you
Out of my mind

(393.) Ripped Gown
=---------------------------------------------------=
I fell down
I scraped my knee
You ripped your gown
And gave it to me.

(394.) Sunshine Floatin In The Moat
=---------------------------------------------------=
Lollipops and sunshine
Brand new day to call mine
You are my hero
I'm nothing but a zero
I look into the mirror
As fate is getting nearer
I scream
You deem
Me unworthy
For ye
So I fall behind
You're so kind
As you slit my throat
Throw me into the moat
I only hope you're happy


(395.) Because I Care
=---------------------------------------------------=
If I dig my nails in deeper
Do you think I'll find a keeper?
If I cut an inch thicker
Would you love me quicker?
I look into those eyes and I hear you scream
I gasp for breathe and cream
I leave you in a ditch somewhere
Why you ask, because I care.


(396.) The Past
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm different but I'm the same
I have a barcode on my head, that says my name
You killed Jesus, but my hands are covered in blood
I destroyed the dam but you released the flood
You dropped the bomb but I took the blast
I miss you, but you are just the past.


(397.) Am I To Be So Lucky?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Am I to be so lucky
As to have you in my arms
I don't think I am
But here you are.

(398.) The Tide
=---------------------------------------------------=
The elephants march in through the tide
People run and scream in fear
I find a spot and I hide
And I bring you near

Blood makes the water rise
Countless fall at their feet
If I were to die today, would be no surpise
I hope my maker is the one I meet

Hellish noises resound around the town
People try and fight
But they all fall down
This just isn't right

I scream for you to stop it
But you send them marching on

[altoecko]

(399.) I wish
=---------------------------------------------------=
I wish that I could hold you close
with soft skin
and your cute little nose
won't you please, let me in

she loves to kiss me now
I try and she pulls away
I don't know how
why today?

god smiled and gave me a gift
the Earth quaked
creating a rift
so I stood and shaked

I love her more than I can show
and I want you
all to know
that my love is true

we play and roll on the ground
but when you hear me speak
it's like I'm not around
I feel so meak

will you show others your love
or am I
just another lie to get above
why won't you look me in the eye?

please stay with me
it'll be okay
just wait a see
just give me one more day

[altoecko]

(401.) Louder
=---------------------------------------------------=
You ask for so much
I try to comfort you again
You just scream louder


(402.) The Grass Is So Green
=---------------------------------------------------=
The grass is so green
After the storm has come
And washed away my woes
No more bloody blades
To flow gracefully in the wind
The pain washed it all away

The grass died slowly
After every flame
And I couldn't make it better
No more blades to mend
To make me happy

The grass was no more
After you scorched my garden
And no water would quell the flames
No hope was left for me

The ground was slowly cracking
After you pounded my hopes into it
And I gave up my will to fight

The Earth was crumbling
After you began this war

The will to live was gone

[altoecko]

(403.)
=---------------------------------------------------=
Can I do nothing
But wait for you to pardon my sins?
I surrender and you shoot me in the back
Do not shoot the medic, let him heal your wounds
I am a man of peace, let me end this war
Stop shooting me

(404.) Swiftly
=---------------------------------------------------=
Swiftly into the infinity
Do I fall oh so definitivly
Check your feelings at the door
Shed all those things you need no more
Realize that you are nothing without the one
Who covers your eyes from the blinding sun
And warms your heart with every smile
That special person that makes you go the extra mile
They must also come to terms with what you do for love
Of why they really float in the clouds above
It's not the man they pray to
But the love that comes from inside you
You may spill out your entire soul
And not even fill a 4th of their whole
So keep trying and never give up the fight
So that you want fall swiftly into the night

[Redneck 2000]

403 is pretty damn cool. Keep up the fine work.

[altoecko]

(405.) 1 Year
=---------------------------------------------------=
1 year of health
1 year of pain
1 year of loss
1 year of gain
I was wrong
I was right
You dissagreed
We would fight
I say I'm sorry
I say I'm wrong
You comfort my woes
And sing me a song
I hold you close
You love me so dear
I wish I could stay
Forever right here
The waves may be choppy
The storms may rage
But no matter the book
We're on the same page
I would do anything
If it meant to keep you
I say this with ease
Because it is true
You hate me and love me
You love me and care
My soul cries gently
When you are not there
I can't live without
You my prize
For you are the reason
There's hope in my eyes
So stay with me
Through cold nights
Warm days
And the worst of the fights
For those times
When I'm in your arms
After all play
And senseless charms
That is when love
Shines through and through
That is when I look in your eyes
To say I love you

[altoecko]

(406.) My Body Be Raped
=---------------------------------------------------=
I can say no more
I can do no less
My love for you
Is all I can give
Should your heart be consumed in darkness
I would gladly rip out my own
And give it to you.
My body is not important
But your life is
So if you should ill in any way
My body be raped for you today


(407.) Light From Henceforth We Once Knew
=---------------------------------------------------=
Light from henceforth we once knew
How do you shine so brightly like your new?

You've been beaten, battered, and neglected
Tested before God's eyes and rejected

Why do you keep glowing with the light of day?
When no one answers when you pray?

A lesser thing would give up so easily
Yet you go on happy and carefree

I wish to be like you my golden sun
With your beams I wish to be one

So that I may blink and have my worries gone
No more would I feel like a helpless pawn

Just shine bright and warm my brothers
I'd be unlike all the others

So show me how you do it, you light of the day
Won't you please, show me the way?

[altoecko]

(408.) Angels Sight
=---------------------------------------------------=
Before the eyes of angels that once smiled down
We are now cast out of Eden
To the painful Earth from which we came
If you try to appease them
You only anger their ways
They will send fire down
Your flesh will melt beneath the flames
There is no safe hiding
There is no life
Only death
Angels smile so peacefully
While they burn you alive
Don't fight back, just accept the pain
Because now it is your life

(409.) Meadow
=---------------------------------------------------=
Suite and tie
With a glint in his eye
Breezey dress
No underwear
She smiles warmly for him at the door
The meadow is so pretty
Yet it is so empty
He wasn't dressed for work
Nor ready to impress anyone
She was wearing it for him
They kissed softly and closed the door
Piece by piece their clothes hit the floor
He smiled and revered in her beauty
She blushed and held him close
The wind blew gently through the meadow
Innocence had filled it's roots
Let the harvest start

[altoecko]

(410.) Without Lament
=---------------------------------------------------=
I wrote what I meant
Without lament
Of what you might feel
I'm sorry for this whole ordeal

(411.) Brain Surgeon
=---------------------------------------------------=
Penny for your thoughts he said
As he peered into her head
Picking off the maggots with his nails
But being drowned out by her whales


(412.) Love Me, It Is All I Ask
=---------------------------------------------------=
Love me
It is all I ask
Am I wrong?
Or have I asked for too much?

(413.) Learning Of Loss Of Innocence
=---------------------------------------------------=
As the children crowd around the crow
Not a single one of them know
What caused this thing to die today
While I sit back and pray
God why show them death and misery?
You did it to I, and those that came before me.
But they are too young to see such pain
If I tried to explain would not my efforts be in vain?
No child should learn of their fate so early in their age
Not even a man as old as I should have to read this page
Yet you force it upon us as if we need to know
Into the afterlife we all someday go
I ask that you spare these children, just for this time
Letting them keep their innoncence for just another day, is this such a crime?


(414.) It Is A Sin
=---------------------------------------------------=
I saw him out of the corner of my eye
A shadow of a man who I despise
He gave all he had to those in need
Which caught me in surprise
So now I smile at him when I pass him by
You should do the same my friend
When you judge a man too fast
Without ever getting to know
His present, future, or past
You may meet the wrong end
It is a sin to judge one another
Yet we still do it day by day
Are we not headed for the fiery hell?
For we go against what God say
We do nothing but harm our brother

[altoecko]

(415.) But....but....but...
=---------------------------------------------------=
Henceforth all business will be dealt with alone.
We can talk a little on the phone.
Now it is two cups instead of one.
And we'll have 3 times as much fun!
Atleast that's what we say
But....but...but then why do I still cry everyday?
Something is missing, wait, nevermind
Everything is fine, I'll just smile and be kind
This is the way things are supposed to be.
You're better off without me.
But....but....but what shall I do?
I'm not much anymore without you.
I'll just suck it up and smile
There's no need for denile
But...but...but what about the year we shared?
I shared my deepest thoughts and you cared
What about all that stuff?
Wasn't a year enough?
Obviously not, so we'll just move on
It's a new day, a new dawn
The sun is shining and I'm feeling fine!
But....but....but what about this shiver in my spine?
Aren't we the happy teenage flings?
Queen of all queens and king of all kings!
Maybe not, maybe I'm just wrong
We never really had "our" song
I don't know anymore, I know I love you
But I can't say it, those days are through
I'm ashamed for both of us
How we always fight and fuss
We were both wrong, we were both right
I wish we could've both understood, before the events of tonight

[altoecko]

(416.) I'm Horrible
=---------------------------------------------------=
I made her cry again
We're not even together anymore
I'm such a horrible person
She used to hold my hand
Now she doesn't
I hate this
Suicide is the cowards way out
It's hollow in this ghost town
Where everyone hears every pin drop from a mile away
News travels like a virus
Infects every person
Making each one worse
I'm the only cure for this particular virus
But I'm also the cause
Funny how fate laughs at me when I am at my lowest
And laughs harder at my highest

[altoecko]

(417.) THe Pillar
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm walking to the pillar that I can see in the distance
It's not putting up much of a fight or resistance
Soon it will crumble and never rise again
But how long has it really been?
Since this pillar was erected to stand so tall
It hasn't been long at all
Yet now it's crumbling like it's a thousand years old
But for a year it withstood the blinding heat and scorching cold
What has caused it to become so frail
That it would turn mine own cheeks so pale
This pillar that once held the weight of my life
Can now so easyily be carved out by a knife
A pillar of power, of hope, and of my love
That could withstand divine intervention from all high above
Soon it shall fall and no one will care
Besides me, no one will be there
I held up one side and she helped me too
But she left, the pillar is through
I just hope I'm not crushed in the debris
My chances are slim, there's nothing to shield me
So I'll keep pushing in hopes it will stand
Without the help of anyone's hand

(418.) The Ferry
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm speaking without words to the man across the lake
He peers at me
He says there is a utopia under the sea
And asks Is that where I wish to be?
His smile seems so real, yet painfully fake

I pay his toll and he sends the ferry
As it paddles across the blackened water beneath his boat
Water made by countless men who slit their throat
Then walked in the rain but returned to get their coat
How can this man be so merry?

I take a seat at the stern
He smiles at me and offers me some food
I accept as I don't want to be rude
But they only sour my mood
I wasn't ready for this turn.

Just last week I was swimming in the ocean
Me and my love we were swimming into the sun
I was having so much fun
But as soon as we started, we were done
What caused all this commotion?

I had blinked an eye and onto this shore I land
No sight of my love
But so feintly I can hear above
Her voice as if it were the flapping wings of a dove
Why can I no longer hold her hand?

It's not fair I cry out
The man pats me on the back and says to sleep
He does not come off as a lecher or a creep
So I shut my mouth and don't make a peep
Nothing was meant to shout

I'm still on the boat going over this marsh
Where many men have fallen in
And quickly consumed by their countless sin
The ways they pain, we not to begin
I hope this way is not too harsh

I'll reach the otherside soon enough I know
I am so scared and I miss her like I miss the day
No longer can I hear her say
"I love you and it will all be okay."
Where did she go?

[Redneck 2000]

I think the reason people don't post many comments on your poetry is because you make so much of it. It isn't bad at all, but it's a lot to read when you're just skimming topics.

That said, your new ones are pretty good. Your word choice is getting better IMO.

[altoecko]

Yeah, I know I make a ton, but I always feel like writing.

[altoecko]

(419.) Stars Outside
=---------------------------------------------------=
No one ever looks for stars when the sun is out
No one ever looks up when it's day
It burns our eyes and we look away
But there you are
The star in my sky
Such a beauty it makes me want to cry
You shine brighter than the sun
Everyone sees it but me
I wish so badly to see
I'm going blind looking for you
The way life goes
I'll never see an end to my woes
But just for a moment
Kiss me one last time
It would be no crime
My eyes burn and my soul is weak
Don't walk away from my dreams
You're what's keeping me in the seams
I'm blind
But I'll keep looking up to catch a glimpse of you
Then my life could be through

(420.) I Asked To Be
=---------------------------------------------------=
I asked to be killed.
No one killed me.
I begged for forgiveness.
No one was pardoned.
I cryed out for help.
No one came.
I longed to be held.
No one hugged me.
I wanted to be loved.
No one cared.
I begged for your forgiveness
You hugged me.
I cryed out for your help
You pardoned my sins
I longed to be held by you.
You came to me.
I wanted for you to love me.
You left me to die.
I asked for you to kill me.
You loved me instead.

[altoecko]

(421.) Can You Hear Them Sing?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Field of white
Slowly falling notes
Peace with all
I can hear it
In the silence
Can you hear them sing?

(422.) Long Nose
=---------------------------------------------------=
He said to me
With weary eyes and long nose
This is how I came to be
It's just how my life goes

(423.) Triplets Music
=---------------------------------------------------=
Triplets sing and dance
The dog barks hourly
The train comes roaring past
They play the fridge
Suck the vac
Crinkle the paper
Music to my ears.

(424.) Let Me Call You Sweetheart
=---------------------------------------------------=
Let me call you sweetheart.
Run my fingers through your hair
I sleep to dream you
I breathe to love you
Stop choking me
Let me rest
I only wish to be with you
But I can't call you sweetheart
I can't call you baby
You don't call me anything

(425.) I Am ****ing Worthless
=---------------------------------------------------=
I am a liar.
I am a cheat.
I am a hypocrite.
I am mean.
I am hateful.
I am ugly.
I am stupid.
I am blind.
I am lonely.
I am arrogant.
I deserve what I get.
I don't deserve you.
I am unworthy.
I am ****ing worthless.
I am me.

[altoecko]

(426.) Bye
=---------------------------------------------------=
I love you.
I have to go.
I love you.
I'm leaving.
I love you.
Good bye.


(427.) To Be With Me
=---------------------------------------------------=
I don't even know anymore
Let alone care
I feel like I'm talking
But no one's really there
It's as if I'm lonely
You're still my friend
I want to feel loved
It can't be the end
I will write this poem
That you will someday read
When your eyes scan this paper
These words you must heed
If I am lost to you
There would be no will to fight
The only reason I still smile
Are thoughts of holding you tight
I want you to be happy
But I am a selfish man
So I still want you
I'm trying the best I can
If this is the way you want it
I will try my very best
But be warned my sweet
I will treat you like the rest
There is no feeling
To describe the way I feel
It's as if I'm living
But none of it is real
I think I have just lost
All my will to be
The only thing I want
Is for you to be with me

[altoecko]

How about a comment like....what...once a week?

(428.) Have Faith
=---------------------------------------------------=
Red with fury
The swarm is coming across the field
Run away and hide, hurry!
These warning signs you must not yield
Go now before they consume us all
It is coming we can not stop this pain
We are destined to fall
Our actions would only be in vain
We must have faith in our child
For these beasts can not be calmed
By a man who is at all riled
Our valley has been becalmed
Let her bring back the wind
Have faith in her ability
Her spirit will not bend
They will show no pity
She shall calm the beast
For if she fails
They will feast
Upon on countless wails
She will come
She will save us from our end
Render them numb
Have faith in our friend.

[altoecko]

Oh come on people, ONE comment a week. Not even from multiple people. Just one measly comment. lol


Me and a friend of mine named Ashley wrote this together.

(430.) To Love; With Love
=---------------------------------------------------=
I sit by the window, staring at the sun,
Wondering where to go, I fight the urge to run
Thoughts of running quickly, cloud out my simple brain
The thrill of embrace brings on thoughts of pain

Turning away from the glass, my reflection fades,
So confused, I'll go where ever joy cascades
Just for that fleeting feeling I get
That warms me up and makes me forget

I won't remember what I had, that's passed,
Instead I'll love new, I'll love strong, and I'll last
I still miss you don't get me wrong
But it's time for me to say so long.

It's about time to take my feet somewhere new,
I'll stretch these legs, give them something to do,
In a stride of happiness
I'll get away from this loneliness

Slide right across this hardwood floor,
Forget my jacket and on out the door,
There's a blue sky above me,
And a rocky road before me

It's time to smile and time live
A time to love and time to forgive
You did these things and I hated you
But that doesn't mean my love is through

I'm restless, there's so much left undone,
I've so much to say, I've hardly begun,
But the time is gone, I can only sigh
Because I can't stay, this is good-bye

A new begining I will take
My new smile will not be fake
A new life I shall begin
I've unlocked the door for people to come in.

The thoughts run flat through my head,
I can remember everything you ever said,
But now the words don't matter much
I've lost the need for your verbal crutch

I'll find love in a new place
But I will never forget your face
As I peer out the window into the sky
To you my dear, I say goodbye.

[RPGD]

You gotsts a lots of stuffs here. The last one's pretty bittersweet.

Make one about pie and I'll love you forever.

[altoecko]

Your wish has been granted.

(431.) Oh Pie
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oh pie, my ode to thee
How glorious a thing could you come to be?
Apple, pumpkin, lemon, and Cherry!
The more I have the more I merry!
Oh pie I love you so
To my gut you must go
It's like eating heaven in circle form
My tastes buds do loopty loops and swarm
It's almost a sin the way I taste of you
Bite after bite, chew after chew
You just keep getting greater and greater
I feel like I'm smarter than a great debator
You lift me up above the Earth
Eating you and your perfect girth.
I feel like I'm going to explode
Then I just go to the komode
Another pie chef, please!
I can eat a thousand with relative ease!
Oh I love you pie

[RPGD]

YES!!!!!

[altoecko]

I take requests like that all the time, just request something, anyone.

(432.) I'm Meaning To
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm screaming
I'm screaming
At the wall
At the door
At the pain
For no reason

I'm crying
I'm crying
On the bed
On their shoulders
On my dreams
But never on you

I'm leaving
I'm leaving
To a far away place
To a home down the street
To my very own life
I hope I get there

I'm loving
I'm loving
Every moment of this world
Every time the sun rises
Every time you smile at me
I'm in love

I'm meaning
I'm meaning
To right my wrongs
To set things right
To say I'm sorry
But it's so hard

I wrote this next one about 7 months ago.

(433.) The Story Of Jealous Love
=---------------------------------------------------=
It's been a cold winter in hell
So gather round the fire to hear the story I tell
Of love and loss in our little home
Where evil and pain decided to roam
They came to reap the souls in love
To steal the hearts of the flightless dove
The couple was happy and loved one another
She handled him like a newly made mother
He spoiled her with everything he could afford
They had something special and were never bored
But evil reared it's ugly head
His plan and intent was to leave them for dead
But their love was strong and fought him back
Not even their love was enough to stop the next attack
He started to meddle with friends and started a rumor
The boy laughed it off as nothing but bad humor
But sadly the girl took it all to heart
And their love's strength began to tear apart
He stayed loyal and loved her so
She began to make him feel bad and make him think she would go
So he said that he loved her and tried his best
Her feelings of resent kept him from endless nights of rest
Arguments came and people asked questions
The boy answered and the girl gave suggestions
The answers came back to her and she was furious
Of why she was so upset the boy was curious
She told him and he felt bad
But he tried his best, he didn't wat to lose the best and only love he had
He was accused of thing after thing
And the demon watched, laughed, and began to sing
She saw he was hurt and comforted him
But just the next day her anger would brim
So he grew tired and pained from war
As the demon started rumors, faster and more
I would finish the story and say how it end
But I am that boy and I am tired my friend
She still angers and I still fight on
And yes, I would cry the day she is gone
I love her and grow sick from this endless fight
Even so, I will stick with her through this plight!

(434.) Black Feathr Floatign Down
=---------------------------------------------------=
Black feather floating down
You hear me as you pass by
You come over to shine my crown
I look in your eyes and cry.

[altoecko]

(435.) Stay Like This
=---------------------------------------------------=
Stay like this
Please don't go
We'll mesh our faith
In the snow
I hate my world
When you run
Away from me
Are you done?
Hear me out
Feel my plight
Was I wrong
Were you right?
Can I live
without love?
When I die
Below or above?
Stay like this
Please don't go
Here we are
In the glow
Spotlights fade
Curtains draw
You were the best
I ever saw
Could it be
We were meant
For nothing more
Than lament
Stay like this
Please don't go
Nurture our love
Let it grow
Shall we find
A reason to be
Through my eyes
That's you for me
But so long
I bid you farewell
Hope you are
Ever so swell
Now I end
My sweet song
As I say
So long
Stay like this
Please don't go
I hate it
When you go

[Gianna]

Very nice Alto... well done.

[altoecko]

Thanks.

I've been writing this one with a girl named Lindsey for a while now, we just finished it tonight so that's why the numbering is off.


(429.) Warmth Of Hell
=---------------------------------------------------=
It was a Sunday when the rain drops fell
They burned my skin as if they were falling from hell
Such a pain I had never felt before
Since I had watched you from that classroom door

The coffee warm and thoughts askew
Without looking I knew it was you
You caught my eye as I wandered by
The smile you sent me could make me fly

But I knew my hopes were in vain
I still remember all that pain
I don't see how you had the heart
To make the decision that we should part

But you did and now you're gone
It's an old day but a new dawn
The sun shines as birds sing
The tune they play has a familiar ring

Their sounds remind me of yesterday
Never again for that pain I pray
I tell myself I will move on
I'm tired of being your unwilling pawn

But to you I still go
Trudging through the unyielding snow
To the pain I know so well
Just for the warmth I find in your hell

Why do you treat me this way
Are you satisfied with making me pay
The love we had was so strong
Tell me what I did that was so wrong

Why do you treat me this way
Are you satisfied with making me pay
The love we had was so strong
Tell me what I did that was so wrong

Nevermind, it is too late.
I have come to terms with my fate.
I don't want to hear what you have to say,
It would only make me pain another day.

So go away, out of my sight
Staying here would make us fight
We are through, as was your wish
I no longer dream of your soft kiss

I write these words with ease
These burning emotions they somehow freeze
My final thoughts that I now share
To stay, is more than I can bare

I'll never regret being with you
By the way I felt, I knew my love was true
And that is why I do not fear
My own reflection in the mirror

(436.) Sir Lucifane
=---------------------------------------------------=
Sir Lucifane
Why do you care?
I shot you
I shot you
Right in the brain
Sir Lucifane
Could you spare me some change?
Good bye
Good bye
Sir Lucifane


(437.) Colors From The Disdained
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'd never seen those colors
The colors I saw on the floor
The sun hit the building and burned our skin
But it made such a beatiful thing
Our sun died a long time ago
This one is painful
We don't know where it came from
But it burns us so very badly
We can survive it for only a few seconds
Then we die
Painfully
But now, as it's shining through the window
Onto these pains lying on the floor
The colors are so beautiful
How I miss the sunshine

[altoecko]

(438.) Unicorn
=---------------------------------------------------=
Stallion
Stallion
Stallion White
Run so swiftly through the night

Stallion
Stallion
Stallion Black
Your horn drawn out, prepared for attack

Stallion
Stallion
Stallion Red
Like porcelain broken, you are now dead


(439.) Sushi
=---------------------------------------------------=
Thirty-nine I counted mine
How many of you can hold together?
Forty would maybe be too many for this sortie?
We'd hate to lose a man
I ate thirty-eight one man stayed to gaurd the plate
How honorable a soul is he?
I counted the Tuna, only one though his taste had surely won
Poor lone soldier watching him and the enemy die
Best to leave none, with my fingers, the army is now done

[altoecko]

(440.) For Once
=---------------------------------------------------=
For once in my life
I can't
Get it all out in a poem
I'm trying, but it doesn't work
There's too much I want to say
I'm leaving this place
I'm going to my utopia
But I'm also leaving all my friends
All my....all of her
That makes me sad
But my future is coming
My glorious, glorious future!
As it was written in the great prophecies!
My mother has lived her whole life
Just to make me and my brother happy
To make us succeed
So that one day,
When she's a little old lady in a retirement home
She can say to passerby's
"Did you know my son is a doctor, and the the other is a Lawyer?"
And she'll be so proud.
It makes my soul smile
But I could very well be leaving
The love of my life
I....don't know
She says I don't love her if I don't stay
But I know she's just scared
I'm scared that she just wants to go back out....
Only because she thinks it'll make me stay
Then there's my father
He's a lonely shell of a man
He gave into his pleasures and they consumed him
Then he lost it all
Everything
I want to make him happy
And proud
So I have to go become a successful person
I want to find someone
Spoil them to the core
Find my queen
Treat her like she deserves to be treated
My mother raised me that way
To treat women with respect
I very well may have found my queen
But at such a horrible time....
It could've worked too
But she got scared
I was mean
Wrong
Me
She couldn't take it and now....
I'm scared
No matter what I choose it will forever change my life
In a VERY
VERY big way
I will always think what could have been
What could have happened
I'm so lost
I wanna just sit and hold her
Tell her I love her
Hope that everything just gets better
But it never will
This isn't even a poem
...It's just me rambling on about my life
Like an idiot
I'm a loser
But that's nothing to cry about
I'll just bite my lip
Go to work
Pick her up tommorrow night
And live my life like it should be lived
Good night Mitchell
Good luck

[altoecko]

(443.) The Greatest Fight Ever Fought
=----------------------------------------------------=
The crowd is silent and his thoughts are askew
He looks through the stadium for a glimpse of you
But you're not there just like he knew

The other man enters the arena head first
His anticipation is not apparent but he's about to burst
For this poor man's blood he desperately thirst.

With his eyes so amber peering from his tiny head
He pictures what he'd look like if he were dead
All he can see is red

He raises his hand and awakens the crowd
They scream louder, they're getting so loud
Ego's high and he's awfully proud

The bell rings and they both rush in
Like a bowling ball to the pin
They crash into each other once again

Who the ball and who the *****?
Who's pride and fame shall make them rich?
Neither, they both pulled a switch

Dodge left, dodge right
No matter of care, all thoughts on the fight
One wife sleeps alone tonight

Crash with a left
Right to the cleft
To his beauty he's now a theft

They both connect to the cheek
Both crumble to the ground frail and weak
Neither say a word, the crowd does not speak

Both lay cold on the floor
Paramedics rush through the door
Neither is breathing anymore

Greatest fight in all history
Surrounded in all this misery
Who won is still a mystery.

I laid cold and numb
I thought I was so dumb
Laying their sucking my thumb

My head got light as air
I let loose of all my care
No one was there

The greatest fight I ever fought
There were no tickets to be bought
Just all this pain that I was brought

I gave it my all
I answered the call
To hell I shall now fall

The knife hurt as it pierced my skin
Thanks to the pills my blood was thin
I leave all of nothing to my next of kin

[altoecko]

(444.) My Sweet Child
=----------------------------------------------------=
Will your eyes be green?
What shall you be named?
I'm sure you will be beautiful
I'll have all your pictures framed
You'll make your mother so proud
My sweet child
I want to hear you cry outloud

Will you cry on your first day of school?
What will be your dream?
An astronaut, a firefighter, maybe a doctor.
In my eyes you can do all of these it would seem
I hope you make lots of friends
My sweet child
I hope your happiness never ends

Will you fall in love?
What will be her name?
I bet you'll love her dearly
She'll feel the same
Maybe go to prom with your sweartheart?
My sweet child
I can't wait for your life to start

Will you get a second chance?
What did I do?
You were so close to me
How could we lose you?
You cannot go
My sweet child
I didn't even get to say hello

[altoecko]

(445.) Butterfly
=----------------------------------------------------=
The butterfly flys to the flower
He smells of ebon rose
Gently to the lilac
With vibrant blue of ocean hue
The butterfly flaps his wings
Across the world a small gust blows
Even the tiniest of wings
Can move mountains
So don't stop flying

(446.) En vain
=----------------------------------------------------=
Si je vous serai obligé à aimer
Je ne souhaite pas faire si en vain
Je ne veux rien dans le retour
Mais votre bonheur

(447.) It's A Sign They Say
=----------------------------------------------------=
It's a sign they say
The fire will come and purge us all
Hell will rise and Earth will fall
But certainly not today

So why my sweet,
Do you confess to be afraid of tommorrow?
When today there should be not this sorrow.
Do not admit defeat!

I see that sign
A sign that you are scared
That the purging scythe will come and none are spared
Now is not the time to resign

When horsemen ride and take your soul
When Jesus cries
After the red sun dies
Oh how the red tide will roll

As if we feel God's wrath
When you let me down
I will see no white wedding gown
For you blazed the path

Hell will come as I stand my ground
As evil brings my life pain
When your tears are more rampant than the rain
All you'll hear is my love's sound

(448.)Untitled
=----------------------------------------------------=
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(449.) All Your Rules
=----------------------------------------------------=
I hate you and all your rules
Stupid laws set before your time
Things you can't begin to comprehend
Why do you have so much faith in them
I can't say they're wrong
I can say they dont fit us
Stop this madness

(450.)As I Recall
=----------------------------------------------------=
As I recall,
There was one window high on the wall shining light
Rain would always fall down it just right
When the sun was out the room was bright

As I recall,
The judge skated gracefully across the room
On his canvas high above the rest he loom
But on that day when you took the coins he surely met his doom

As I recall,
I chased her for half an hour
I had to muster all my power
I had to have this flower

As I recall,
I climbed up into the tree
They laughed and giggled as they peered on in glee
But already the virus had contracted deep within me

As I recall,
She lived in that small house
A female she could never be, she never once wore a blouse
Worked and toiled away and was quite as a mouse

As I recall,
Through the door that creaked each time
After turning the knob to hear that wonderful chime
She would offer me a Reeses Cup and ask for her for me to ryhme.

As I recall,
He lay their convulsing, soul overflowing
As the ground was being buried under all the snowing
I would never again see his eyes glowing

As I recall,
It was my fault they were married
The burden of me and my brother she carried
Under all that weight she was almost buried

As I recall,
I slept under the oak
Like a hapless little bloke
Then into the house with my anger in hand, the door broke

As I recall,
He screamed at me through tears in his sad eyes
The guilt thrown on me made even me despise
The person I was under those starry skies

As I recall,
The horse galloped up with him on it's back
He said he was a Doctor and reached into his sack
He pulled out a flower and started his attack

As I recall,
Mother was crying
We were all afraid that he was dying
So I started crying

As I recall,
You hugged him and ignored my sad face
Warmed him with your embrace
The loneliness I felt I could not brace

As I recall,
I loved you and wrote you a poem about our past
I wrote it oh so very fast
You cried in happiness but the happiness did not last

As I recall,
Oh some 400 ago
I said that I would lasso
A moon for you for you to show

As I recall,
I never did catch the moon
I spoke my words far too soon
You left before the sun eve hit noon

As I recall,
All these memories for fun
Not a single one
Will claim my battle won

As I recall,
I love you
But that's not enough
For you.

(451.) Yesterday Is Gone
=----------------------------------------------------=
All those happy places
My friends familiar faces
They're all gone
My mother is so far away
Happend only but yesterday
Now she's gone
My love I loved so very dear
She is now miles from near
Everyone is gone
So sad but I wear a mask that lies
Wear it only in my families eyes
My happiness is gone
It's useless they'll all move on
Find a new day, see the new dawn
Yesterday is gone
Today is all I have to grasp
Every day in airless hell I gasp
The air I breathed is gone
She'll find a new love
Who believes in her God above
My faith is gone
The devil dare not be real
I sold my soul I made the deal
My wish is gone
Every ounce of energy
Sucked out every pore in me
My soul is gone
Fate laughs last as I trudge on new land
He knows my hell like the back of his hand
My hopes are gone
Tommorrow may be better for you
I know the way my life works, this is nothing new
I'm gone

(452.) My Being Loathes All
=----------------------------------------------------=
Every inch of my being loathes all
all that you are in ever way that it
it makes me want to scream and
and attack anything that moves in
in my line of site this miserable state that
that I'm in I blame soley on all of you
you that feel you are so innocent
I hate you

(453.) Oh I
=----------------------------------------------------=
I'd kill myself but it wouldn't help
I whine so much these days I make myself sick
I rely on small little glimpses of happiness from phone calls
Phones calls that are from someone who lies to me
Lies to my face
I am so very pathetic
I despise who I am
I refuse to cry even though I'm sure if I did I would feel so much better
I want to cry
I won't let myself
My happiness says it always has time to talk
Yet it doesn't have the decency to call me
I hate that I rely so heavily on so little
I wish ever so more that something would kill me
But everyday I come home
Lay in bed and hate myself
I despise the scum that kill themselves
I may hate myself but I shall not become a hypocrite
You all take lightly what I say
I really did sell my soul you know
I have it on paper
According to you all I'm going to hell anyways
So I sold my soul, what for you may ask?
I can't tell you
All I can say is that the devil is not real
Mark my words
Oh I hate this life I live

(454.) AP
=----------------------------------------------------=
AP, AP, land of you and me
King Kong climbing a tower like a tree
Books piled high
The room's not easy on the eye
AP adds 10 points to my grade
That shall be of great aid
Sneed is a nerd
You heard the word
AP is weird to me!

(455.) Slightest Clue Of Beauty
=----------------------------------------------------=
Beauty wanes as it gathers
Make-up applied only covers so much
So much put-on you can't see them
Who they're lying to I haven't the
Slightest clue

(456.) Sociology
=----------------------------------------------------=
Interested in every single act
Steimer wants to know what we think
He questions what and ponders why
Sister of my hearts desire
Ask for me to speak for society
A burden far too big

(457.) Red Leaves
=----------------------------------------------------=
Red leaves cascade off of all
As hapless men climb helplessly up the wall
They dig their nails in as the flesh tears
Slowly sliding down in a trail of blood the temper flares
Grabbing helplessly at their left remains
Without a look of interest the climber feigns
He looks up and sees his nails still dug in
As he tries to climb again
Life laughs as we all fall down
With nary a smile and barely a frown
I laugh and try with all my might
In hopes I scale it before the night
Life is a wall that tears out our climb
Where you could lose it all in the drop of a dime
Keep climbing and you may live
Into the pain you must not give

(458.) Sadly I Am Here
=----------------------------------------------------=
Sadly I am here
What I dreamed as my worst fear
It is now my life

(459.) Like a Monkey
=----------------------------------------------------=
Brown and furry flinging poo
The sly monkey is cute too
Swing from branches, hang from trees
Hugging each other, like the birds and the bees
This is weird, short, and stupid
Like a monkey

(460.) Eyes Wide Like The Sage
=----------------------------------------------------=
Eyes wide like the sage
It sees all through time and age
It peers right through me

(461.) Plaything
=----------------------------------------------------=
Designed explicitly for your enjoyment
A toy of unfathomable expense
Play thing men pay no respect
I feel sorry for her
My pity does her no good
Sadly I must tread on

[altoecko]

(462.) Translating Brain Waves
=----------------------------------------------------=
Wave lengths on the human mind
Fluxuating differently
Mingling coherently
Each ineraction one of a kind
You say you miss me
I tell you I love you
You say that's through
How can this be?
Time stands still it would seem
Brain patterns feel misunderstood
It did not come accross as it should
Always a nightmare never a dream
Hoping
Waiting
For a correct
Translating

(463.) Jack And Jill
=----------------------------------------------------=
Jack and Jill went up the hill
To shoot the needle, take the pill
Panic set in
The race begin
Their mind was gone
You shoulda sawn
Slighty slipping outta sight
The sight I saw just wasn't right
Jack and Jill died on that day
Having fun as some would say
But then death ain't that much fun
The war on drugs can never be won
Just another casuality
Put into ryhme for you and me

(464.) The Moose
=----------------------------------------------------=
The moose, is loose
Tearing across the small town
Relative of the Caribou though I think they never knew
Poor canadians being trampled by the hooves
A few were hit by antlers

(465.) A Strong Man Would Describe Him Right
=----------------------------------------------------=
He stands from where I be,
Six foot two, maybe three
He smiles as if he knows,
Everythign that no one shows
It takes me by surprise
To look into his eyes
And be afraid
As if I can't let him in for he'd much rather invade
So peaceful and heart-warming on the outside
But so much anger and contempt he hide
He shakes my hand and squeezes tight
A strong man would describe him right
I wonder what he fears?

[altoecko]

(466.) Gotta Be Me
=----------------------------------------------------=
Dim the lights put the feel down low
Make the music start playing help the body flow
We'll start to groove, let the music hit the air
Release all of your troubles, let free of every care
People love to party, everyone loves to feel free
So you're the only person, you gotta be
Oh I gotta be
I gotta be me
Ain't no body
Just gotta
Gotta be me
Got no troubles, I'm just carefree

(467.) Slightly Looks Of Love
=----------------------------------------------------=
Pure sweet red wine
Dripping slowly from the mouth
It slightly looks of blood
Slightly looks of love
I am confused
But my feelings never really mattered
It'll be okay

(468.) her
=----------------------------------------------------=
Small, naive unto the world around
her
A world of pain and people
People who wish to harm
her
in ways unmentionable
Blonde hair bright as the sun
Smile illuminates
her
Bright White teeth shining
Mouths saying nothing about
her
She came from a place where everyone loved
her
Prettier than all the other girls
This new world so big and cruel
Thinking that no one wants
her
She leaves the world with a gunshot
It goes straight through
her


(469.) A Lie
=----------------------------------------------------=
These tears do my sadness no justice
They show not how deep this ravine in my soul was carved
How long I have fallen
How sad I have become
There are no tears
Just a happy face
A lie


(470.) Be My Watch
=----------------------------------------------------=
shine inside of me
where of white-gray stray shine
earily through dismal life
shutter unto as if you were no more
feel the beacon which you shine
keep me from the cliffs
guide me to the port


(471.) Aurora Borealis
=---------------------------------------------------=
Aurora cried gently from her throne on high
With her hand she whisped the sky

As the tears rolled down her hand
The tears were seen across the land

She wheeped as her eyes filled to the brink
Cold air to freeze and kink

And so the tears were left in the sky for her to see
Reminder of the sadness in which she be

I saw these lights one faithful day
The lights made by a God they say

Rainbow where the rain is not
Wind where it is never hot

Aurora cried so much that she made these lights
A reminder for her, Borealis

(472.) I know I'm young, but I do love her
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Is it so wrong for me?
To think far off into the future
About maybe someday getting married
To her
I know I'm young, but I do love her
With all my heart
If she moved on
I'd be heartbroken
If I moved on
I'd feel like I cheated on her
So I'm here
Waiting
Hoping
For her to maybe accept me back
She's 400 miles away
Every day I worry more and more
I know she wouldn't go out with anyone without telling me
But I still worry
I worry that my best friend
whom I care for an awful lot
Will go out with her
Then I would hate them both
With every inch of my being
I would hate them
But I would still love her
This makes me sad.

(473.) Except in her arms
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I want to move back to my home
This is not my home
I don't have a home
I don't feel comfy anywhere anymore
Except in her arms

(474.) Cry
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CRY
CRY GOD DAMN YOU
LET IT ALL OUT FOR ****ING ONCE
CRY
You're not a tough guy
You're not strong
You can barely hold on to this life
You're killing yourself
****ING CRY
DO IT
I DEMAND YOU CRY
You love someone who doesn't love you the same way
The only reason she still loves you in anyway
Is because she would feel responsible if you were sad
Look what you've done
CRY YOU SON OF A *****
BALL LIKE A BABY
JUST CRY PLEASE
You're worthless
You contemplate suicide because you're so miserable
You're the scum on your own shoe
Practice what you preach you bastard
CRY
NOW
FOR HER
Why
Oh why
Can't I cry?

(475.)To My Life So Closely To A Prayer, I Say Amen
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What will become of my hopes
Of my dreams
These shattered things that lay accross the floor
Nothing more for them it seems
Silent cries into the night
Cries that have no tears
I've had it all bottled up
The ammount of oppression reaches years
I scream but no noise is made
Waiting for a phone call that will never be
My existence seems so god awful sad
How can this hopeless wreck possibley be me?
Thoughts spin through my head of them
Her and him kissing
Thoughts of things that never happened
Who am I, the one that no one's missing
Would she lie to me?
I trust her with all my heart
But if she did lie to my hopes
My skin would surely part
The great red sea would spill forth
Drowning out my screams of denile
Based on a falsehood happiness
That relies souly on her smile
No wonder she wants nothing to do with me
I put so much pressure on her way
She wrote a poem for me
About how I love her only if I stay
I could not stay, am I such a monster?
That cannot even please the only one I love
The only one I've ever cared about
So, I pray to her God above
No one answers
I want to cry
No tears come out
I think I want to die
To punish myself
For breaking the heart of my maiden fair
Who did nothing wrong
The only thing she did was care
Am I reading to much into every action?
Every little thing that anyone does
All for some sneaking suspiscion
That arose from a because
I know he likes her
Would he possibley be that mean?
So cold-hearted and calous
To knock away the pillar on which I lean
I don't think she would lie to me
So I'll believe her once again
But if she's lying
To my life so closely to a prayer, I say amen

[altoecko]

(476.) My Daily Wages
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I apologize
All this sin
That I have committed
Take from me Oh Lord
My daily wages
Of life and of happiness
I shall pay you back in full
Though I may die

(477.)Et tu, Brutus?
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Et tu, Brutus?
He said to me
For a second I felt sorry for him
For a second

[altoecko]

(479.) Promises
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I

I made a promise, one that I may never keep
But I will not give up on even when my soul it weep
I promised a lot, a lot more than I had
Promises made and broken, my soul would go bad
I was not meant to be here
On this Earth so blue clear
My place in time has been faded
By my actions always so jaded
I think maybe I am to blame
For my lives sad shame
My mother toiled so long for me
All this time I could see
She did it for me and my brother
She took the hand of another
One she did not want to own
All because her blood was thicker than her bone
She accepted that ring and said she do
With each sad sigh I saw, she try to tell me "It's all for you"
I think my brother realized this, far before I
Far before I could even get the tears to cry
I now break my promise, to my mother that I love
While all the while, cursing at some God above
I am in love I claim, think this alleviates
And so my actions leave me bewildered and my hesitates
I want to be loved, it is all I ever needed
No signs I ever read was headed

II

I wear a button
It says that "
I
<3
Her"
In so simplest of terms
I gave her a button that read"
I
<3
Him"
In such complex words
I often think the button has so many meanings
Is it for my mother?
Is it for my love?
Is it for someone I don't even know?
I often show this button
To me and only me
I often read the button
For to remind myself
Of a promise I once made

III

Promises, so fleeting in their lives
Lives that were only breathed of dreams
Hope for futures that may never be
We place so much on these short-breathed fantasies
If we do not keep our dreams and make them come true
We have failed more than we could ever hope to recover from
I promised that I would always wait
I always shall

IV

Worry not my love
My promise born from my love
Is, and shall always

[altoecko]

(480.) You'll Catch It 09/15/05 12:24 A.M.
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Don't look at me
You'll catch it
This sin that I now soak my soul in
It is made of my blood
They say if I drink his
All shall be healed
I tried this
His blood I did cough up
I have sinned
Forgive me oh one I do not know
For I am a vial being
Not worthy of your praise
Not worthy of your stare
I love you
I am so sorry
These words that I now say to you
My soul is not worthy
For one such pure as yours
Don't look at me
You'll catch it

(481.) Bewilder All Logic Say 09/15/05 5:18 P.M.
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Two hearts intwine on summer day
Bewilder all logic say
When one give up on love
And the other stay

(482.)Please Mother, Once More 09/15/05 11:22 P.M.
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"Please mother,
Once more"
The little girl pleaded to the ballerina
So the mother twirled
The daughter clapped
She was so happy
"Please mother,
once more"
She thought as she danced across the stage
Kicking high and dancing gracefully
All for her little angel
She came home from the thrilling avent
With no one to greet her at the door
Two messages left on her machine
One message from the bastard
The bastard who left them high and dry
Sends a check once monthly
Thinking this heals all his sins
They went to the movies
Shall be back so shortly
The second message from an angel
Said the car had twirled accross the road
Kicking high and not so gracefully
Bastard and child were killed instantly
"Please mother,
Once more"
She thought as she picked up the knife
"I'm sorry my dear
Not tonight
Mother is tired"

[altoecko]

(483.) Secretos 09/21/05 12:01 A.M.
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Poetry is to me
As your native tongue is to you
You breathe it
As it comes so naturally to you
It comes just as easily to me
But it is hard to breathe
With all these things inside my soul
They are not always beautiful
They are far from kind
So sometimes I hide them
In hopes that you
Nor I
Will understand
What deep secrets that I
Me
My
Hide
Por favor no diga mis secretos
A los que no entienden

(484.) Moss Green 09/22/05 3:30 P.M.
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Moss Green
Moss Green
Don't be so mean,
Do you know what I mean?
Moss Green
Moss Green
You say I took your only Black-eyed Pea
It looks like you have many if you ask me
Moss Green
Moss Green
You hoop an you holla
Said I cost you too many a dolla
Father
Father!
Have you heard?
Moss Green claims to have found the word!
Father
Father!
Forgive him for he has sinned
He thinks he has your religion pinned
Moss Green
Moss Green
I am sorry I took your Pea
But it ended up in my mouth by chance you see
Moss Green
Moss Green
Don't be so mean,
Do you know what I mean?
Black fists gave a black eye
Bitter anger leads to a bitter goodbye
Father
Father!
Come here in a hurry!
He's got the shovel ready bury!
Moss Green
Moss Green
What have you done?
You have ruined all yo own fun
Moss Green
Moss Green
You have never won
You know she was not yo only one
She was to delicate for such brutal blows
I am not alone in this, for the Father knows.
Moss Green
Moss Green
Don't be so mean,
Do you know what I mean?
She came running to me, you see
Told me of all the things you came to be
Moss Green
Moss Green
Why did you kill that innocent Pea?
Why did you do this to me?
Father
Father!
Have you heard?
Moss Green claims to have found the word!
The word of Christ, I don't think
The word of Satan seems to be kink
Father
Father.
Moss Green done shot himself
And he done took our Black-Eyed Pea.

[altoecko]

(485.) Meshed Pearl 10/02/05 3:11 A.M.
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An angel with weblike annex
Walked benevolently accross the marble
Her reflection shone in the pearls meshed
Beauty, no other word can describe such ardent piety
My heart weeped with every step she took farther away
When she reached Elysium, quietus
I could not but follow
Slowly I meshed the pearl
I raised the equalizer to my temple
I prayed a solemn prayer
Shot a single marvel
Soon, my angel with pearl white skin
Soon

(486.) Dragged Through The Mud 10/03/05 2:44 P.M.
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Resonating sonata
Reverberates my mind
White washed mind
Dragged through the mud
I loved that girl
With her big smile
I loved that girl
With her moist lips
I, who am nothing but my sins
I, who have nothing but the hopes of my father
Love that girl
The music beats slowly
Duwap
Bebop
Please don't stop
Her innocence is apparant
She turns that crimson hue
So sweet
So delectable
Swinging from that tree over yonder
The light hits her white dress so nice
She's not smiling
Neither am I.
I, who had nothing but my love
Go unrequited.


(487.)Begone Ye Beast! 10/03/05 2:50 P.M.
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Unnatural beast
Begone ye abomination
Dare naught spread your wings here!
I see your flight
It fear me not
Yellow coward flying so
I see you sign your name in his book
My name is clean
Yours is dirty with your sin
Begone foul beast
God shows no pity on you.

(488.) 10/03/05 2:53 P.M.
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Father in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done
Thine eyes shall never see
Lands promised unto me
Present gone unopened remain
No white wings
No light but flame
Thine hell is here
Without her
Without you
Father in heaven
Please forgive me
For I have sinned
The ways I shant begin
Thy name in blood
Wrote out on my chest
You died to me that day
Faith, it means naught
In the eyes of man
Thy kingdom come
Thy kingdom go
Thine true love
With skin soft as snow
Thy wrath I feel
Know it real
Faith, is no more.

[altoecko]

(489.) Hang Mine Head? 10/13/05 7:43 P.M.
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Hang mine head?
Neigh thine stare thy head on.
Mince mine words?
Neigh thine tell thy true.
Thine God views me whole
Thine ligh from soul
Shall blind you
Doth thou know mine God too?
Art thou not prideful for such a wonderous thing?
Why dost thou not sing?
All his glory, all his might!
His true guiding light!
Vanity may be thine sin
Thine love mine God even when
Thy walk before me
Lecherous creatures of sin you see
Mine head is high
Peering toward mine God in the sky

(490.) Devil With Those Blue Eyes 10/16/05 11:55 P.M.
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You there
Don't think I didn't see
I saw you glancing
Were you looking at me?

Those big blue starry eyes
They're staring stright through my soul
I can tell by you're off-cheek smile
Staring so hard into my whole

I cringe and look away
You're too beautiful and delicate
So graceful and soft
There be no duplicate

Please don't look at me
With those big sad sights
They're shining beacons
Blinding me from my nights

From my dreams
I still see them looking at me
You must be satan the way you peer
Why do I still wish for we?

You burn too badly
For me to gaze
Into those passionate blue eyes
I could be lost for days

Please look away
Spare me from this guilt
Those accusing portals
You tore down the home we built

I want you so bad
I'd sign away my life
But I know what you would do
How you think to fix our strife

You will hurt me no more
I will only hurt myself
Climbing over my dead body
To reach your high shelf

To smell you so sweetly
To feel you so mine
Those big blue eyes
Look away, they are too divine

(491.) God Laughs At Him 10/17/05 11:17 P.M. 2nd - 11:43 P.M.
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God laughs callously at those who tread on his ground
A lone man scribbles out his final words in ash
His love letter to God
God shall never read it
Ever since a small child he loved God
He followed his every word
Always there in church
Always there in prayer
The war is for God he told himself
Against those who oppose his word
God laughed so loudly at the poor man
If only he had known
"If your leaders say to you,
"Look, the kingdom is in the sky,"
then the birds of the sky will precede you.
If they say to you,
“It is in the sea,”
then the fish will precede you.
Rather,
the kingdom is inside of you,
and it is outside of you.
When you come to know yourselves,
then you will become known,
and you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the living Father.
But if you will not know yourselves,
you dwell in poverty,
and it is you who are that poverty."
His final words in ashes
A solemn revelation
Into a sky with no kingdom


(492.) Tatter Box Of Hopes And Dreams 10/17/05 11:24 P.M.
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It is a simple White box
Holding more than time itself
Encompessing my hopes
My time
My dreams
Do not take my white box
Full of my shattered mind
It's a shell of my former life
The only thing I was allowed to keep
She took the rest
He took what she left
They took what they left
I hid my white box of sorrows
My white box of tattered souls
It has but a simple inscription upon it's hull
"To my darling future,
if you are to someday read these words
Please forgive me"
I read these mirrors every night
I close my eyes and pray to myself
If I am to listen
May God hear my cry
Please, let me keep my White Box
With her smell inside
Her picture inside
Our love inside
They took it all
I hid my box
I bide my time
Crying myself to sleep

[altoecko]

Yup....same old same old, no comments, nothing new. Just poems...

(493.) Oh Sweetheart 10/31/05 11:38 P.M.
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Oh sweetheart,
I fell and tripped and scraped my knee
You bent down and decided to help me
I laughed and said I was okay
You never listened anyway
Oh sweetheart,
Oh sweetheart,
Sometimes I see myself with you
Other times I know it can't be true
You still talk to me and say hello
Sometimes I know you don't know
How much it means to hear
Those words I hold oh so dear
Oh sweetheart,
Oh sweetheart,
I have a plan for you and me
We'll escape over the balconey
The ballroom will provide the light
I'll have a rope and we'll take flight
Down the wall into the tree
Won't you please escape with me?
Oh sweetheart,
My sweetheart,
You cried and said so long with tears
We've been apart it's felt for years
I'd cry too but I'm all dry
I gave my tears away when you said goodbye
I fell and scrapped up my knee
Big boys don't cry you see
I'll be fine no don't you mind
But thank you for being so kind
Oh sweetheart,
Oh sweetheart,
No more I can't keep up with you
I escaped and you never knew
You said goodbye my sweet dear
That's why I asked you get away from here
You stayed and said we're far apart
I only left because you broke my heart
I trusted you and you let me down
That's why I always never frown
Big boys don't cry can't you see
That's why "I love you" means so much to me
Oh sweetheart,
My sweetheart.

(494.) Would You Have Me Back? 10/31/05 11:48 P.M.
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If I had a million dollars
And I gave it all to you,
Would you have me back?

If I was chizeled and on GQ
and I did it all for you,
Would you have me back?

If I won a Nobel
For a poem I wrote called "Kassi My Bell",
Would you have me back?

If I ruled the world
made everyone bow to me but you,
Would you have me back?

If I fought the devil and won
In my final moments before I'm done,
Would you have me back?

If I bought you a thousand roses
that could illuminate a million noses,
Would you have me back?

If went to college and got a PhD
learned every doctorate you asked of me,
Would you have me back?

If I cried a little at the perfect time
right after the wedding bells chime,
Would you have me back?

If I lived my life just for you
made all yours wishes come true,
Would you have my back?

If I'm me, and I buy you a dozen roses,
I make all my money and spend it on you,
I'd sit awake at night and train,
Study everyday to be smart-enough,
Lived my life as I do now.
Would you have me back?

(495.) 10/31/05 11:57 P.M.
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A single apple
Temptation is her age
Ripe for the picking from the tree
Juicily moist within my mouth
Crimson red and ready to run
It may be poison, it may be pleasure
I take no bite
I eat no food
I wait for whatever scraps
You may feed me

[Gloom]

Hey, I'd comment but poetry is honestly lost on me. :|

[altoecko]

So, nothing that catches your imagination at all?

[Gloom]

It's not you, Alto.. I just don't "get" poetry. :(

I've always felt like I've been missing something as I don't ever catch hidden meanings or sybolism.

[Shard]

I've felt the same as Glueme regarding poetry. I liken it to jazz, it's very self-serving, and most poetry is meant for other poets, not for the casual audience. To "get it" you have to immerse yourself in it. Catullus, arguably one of the greatest poets that ever lived, wrote for an audience who lived and breathed poetry, but reading it now, you'd have to have a background in Latin and Greek literature to get the slightest inkling about deciphering his metaphors. But I'd argue that's true of all the "high" arts, producers of art are always going to get more out of consuming it, than just pure consumers would. Hell, you can see the same trend in the sub-group of avid RPGM2 users.

[altoecko]

I understand and I see whatcha mean. If you ever want me to try and explain a poem to you I'd be glad to give it a crack.

(496.) Because You Allow 11/03/05 6:00 P.M.
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I care
Because you allow
For me to show you
Why
When you stop
Wanting to hear my heart
It will stop speaking

(497.) 1776 11/08/05 5:25 P.M.
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I won't stop writing poems
Not untill I write atleast 1776
Why that number?
Emily Dickinson
She wrote 1775 poems
That we know of
I'll beat her though!
I'll write a lot more than her!
I shall win in the end!
Poems tend to mesh together
When you write so many...
I want to try and convey
Every emotion I can
Write with every style
I can comprehend
In every language
The site will translate.
I'll beat her someday
I'll be in the history books
You'll read about me in English
You'll buy my books
My time will come
Wait and see
1776 here I come!


(498.) On Sunday Morning Last 11/08/05 7:08 P.M.
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On sunday morning last
I saw a beauty
Who's allure was unsurpast
Only by her duty

Her onus to my heart
Made from the promises to me
That we shall never part
So I wait and see

It's been so long today
Since mine eyes saw the seraph so fair
For more of her love I pray
But to act I do not dare

So I wait for her to arrive
To sate my soul to revive.

(499.) Across A Blue Moon Lake
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Across a blue moon lake
A rose petal
Nary a thought in this quake
Ripples sent throughout
A blue ray
It shines down on my face
The thorn began to pray
Help my love home
Bring my red hope
Back to me
Like two cans tied between by rope
I whispered out a message
Please reach her ear
Please let me know
Her voice is all I want to hear
The mirror turned on
It spoke of fire
Samson ripped his arms out
To pull the two spire
Soon they will fall
Let the can shake
My hope lay dormant
Never again to wake
Never again to call
The shape was broken in to fear
I wept
The mirror said move
My rose wilted
Half a rose
Crimson in its sage
The moon never again arose
The blue eclipse lasts so long

[altoecko]

(501.) Bloom, My Baby
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Bloom,
My baby.
Newborn baby
Bloom like it's a new day
Spring is here
Your eyes are open
The world is anew
Just bloom
Cheeks so red and soft
Rose petals dripping dew like tears
Welcome to the world my darling
My darling baby boy
Sunrise on the horizon
A smile on that sweet face
I loved your mother
Enjoyed the cold winter holding close
She loves you
Gentle breezes through the fields
Cold chilled through bone
Flowers wilt in winter
Your mother would have loved you so much
Bloom my sweet child
Spring is here

(502.) Cassette One 11/28/05 11:57 P.M.
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Insert cassette one
Begin to play when I say
Let me hear my woes

I record my thoughts
My distant, illforgotten
Shell of my own mind

In hopes to find me
Hidden in a backward track
On side one, part B

I apologize
If the quaility is poor
Adjust your tracking

For can no words be
More clear than when I speak them
With my own half-smile


(503.) Same Old Heart, In This Broken New Body 11/29/05 12:06 A.M.
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You know me
With my strap on shoes
My quirky smile
I smile for you
Don't be scared
It's just me
With my taped glasses
Strange tails
Corny jokes
And an odd optimism
That's right
Your first poem
Written by me
For you
I hope you enjoy it
Silence is golden they often say
I think really,
it's only worth it's weight
In silver
Same old me
New to you
I'm surprised
This old heart
In this broken new body
Wants to be your friend
Wants for you to depend on it
To lean into the Christmas tree
I'm not making this sappy
Or romantic
Just asking a small favor
Care to hold my hand?
If that's a bit too much
How about just dinner and a movie?
Or whatever
Tickles your fancy


(504.) Trully, a Place of God 11/29/05 12:13 A.M.
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A single pink chair
Sat in the middle of the field
Like it really care
A children's chair like that of kindergarden days
An American monkey bar
The emptied pool
Burgendy broken car
Putt-Putt with crochet
Played tether ball
Trully, a place of God
Graffitti on the wall
Soccer balls and podiums
Volleyball courts filled with sand
Basketball goals on each end
Won over by slight of hand
With hopskotch in the middle
Flags flown high
But not tonight
Only things you see, illuminated by sky
No one's been here for a while
Bras hung from shelves
Panty hose drapped from door
Printer by the dryer
The golfballs on the floor
Scored a hole in one on Cross
Reconstructed where I walked
I held onto my cell phone
Into which I talked
Came around the corner
Felt I'll call it a day
Life so new cut short
Next to the place where people pray
I buried him under willow
Out in their backyard
The shovel broke the will
Of the ground so hard
Small cross made of sticks
Mark where he rest
Bought a pomegranate
Well, you know the rest

(505.) Thoughts On My Life 11/29/05 9:34 P.M.
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****
That about sums it up.

(506.) Chlorophyll 11/29/05 9:58 P.M.
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Chlorophyll is the green coloration in leaves.
Photo-****ing-synthesis
Chlorophyll as a Photoreceptor
Traps this most elusive of all powers
THE SUN

(507.) Sexy Toaster 11/29/05 10:01 P.M.
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With your garter belt
Your sleek silver side of sex
Get out of my dreams

And into my pants
I am gonna make you toast
DING! The bread is done


(508.) Let Down 12/03/05 4:55 P.M.
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I often run away from things that I don't understand
Now is the time when I must make my stand
Against these woes
That no one knows
I put my faith in others
In my sisters and my brothers
So often have I been let down
By a simple smile or frown
I apolgize that I am so easyily won
That I give up, that I am done
But man can only fight so long
Under the opression inflicted by the wrong
I still hold my head high
My dreams in the sky
Dreams that have no foundation but on me
Me, that is weak, but no one see
I, whom grows stronger with every burden taken
Is far too often at times mistaken
I should not have let anyone in
No talking should begin
No, nothing, with anyone
No fun.
I should travel with no crutch but mine
No burden crippling my spine
Know nothing
About something
I live
I give
That I so graciously hold out my open arms to recieve
Because it is something in which I believe
Faith leads me only to these nights
When I sit alone with my fears and frights
Thinking of all the injustice inflicted on my soul
That I stabbed with my own goal
Am I sad?
No, it's not that bad
I'm still happy being misunderstood
I'd just like to translate for someone if I could
So that I would not be alone
With no one on the phone
But me

[altoecko]

(509.) Maroon Vomit 12/09/05 4:34 P.M.
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"I want to look pretty when I die"
She said to me with vomit on her lips
Maroon vomit
That reminded me of Bugs bunny


(510.) The Devil 12/10/05 3:54 P.M.
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I met the devil last night
In dream
He's a kind old man
With a warm smile
Six foot seven
Maybe more
Short white hair
Broad shoulders and large hands
I went to a gas station
To buy a dozen donuts
Had to get two Strawberry glazed
Two guys walked up and warned of the police inside
They'll take my $20
She bared her breasts and they moved on
My teacher was there and I broke my leg
I didn't realize it at first
I was at home
I had dropped her off at some time
I don't remember
I was asleep
As I walked outside to say hello
They bickered in the front yard
A woman stepped out of the car in the road
I thought she'd be okay
She was hit
I ran inside to call the police
I did
His wife commented on my lack of help
I ran outside to console her
Found only her fake legs
A pacemaker
5 magnets
A small pink child's helmet lay mere inches from the site
Back inside, a car began to drive through the house
He went onto the leather couch
I picked it up and sent them in the right direction
Through the kitchen
Out the backdoor
I hate that road
Mom cried
The house was burning down
I went outside to check
To try and find her again
I think maybe wolves
Had beaten us to the body
But no,
There she was
Standing upright
In white gown
A smile on her face
I remember her now
She was there when I was down
I had broken my soul
She was there to nurse me
I do not know her name
Her legs were real
Her eyes were bright
A red pick-up truck on the side of the road
The miracle healer walked out
Told me all things are possible
Through the lord
Six foot seven,
Maybe more
She called for me to dance with her
I heard a loud ringing
They told me to go around
That spot be her grave
I looked and saw only blood stained grass
One eye, 2 magnets
She threw down a lighter
It lit and bounced
She told me to walk through it
I tried but the lighter bounced lower
The gate had closed
She asked the man to help light and throw again
Tears were in my eyes
"Only you can do it"
He said with compassion in his voice
She reached for the lighter
She picked up a gun
The police came to investigate
The vehicular homicide that I called in
Two bullets hit their driver
He dove out of the car and shot her down
He started shooting at me
Two bullets went into my stomach
I dropped the gun I had and ran
She stood up and killed him
And 2 other police
The wolves began to chase me
The policeman shot them down
Then shot himself
I believe in miracles

[altoecko]

Really, I still don't quite know why I post these here. =\


(511.) Rearrival of My Health 12/10/05 11:16 P.M.
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Conflicting with Jesus and his followers
Who're all just appeasers of self-wallowers
I myself found a real rival in myself
I am hoping for the rearrival of my health
But to no avail I still pain
It's not close to hell but I feel the same
Don't have no cancer, no reason for a life
Just dashed my dreaming dancer of that wondrous strife
I apologize, I've said far too much
Let me restrategize and lose my touch
On reality and all this stuff
But in sobriety life is far too rough
I'll still be sick and march on again
My death will be quick and red my friend
Seeya be on the otherside of tommorrow
Maybe I'll be free to hide from my sorrow

(512.) Two Sleepers
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Two
They are frail
Sleeping by themselves
He comes
He watches
Gaurding the sleepers
If they ever woke
The world may end
Or true love may be made
Who knows?
Not I, who come to bedside
each night
Longing to kiss lips
Lips that lost their color
Lips that beg for embrace
One will love me
The other lust me
To end the world
Far too much burden
I apologize
True love
I apologzie
To be alone
It must be so
So I come long night
After long night
I love you
You have two faces
To save us all
I best not take a chance
I can never kiss you
I'll gaurd you but never act
I apologize

(513.) Soldiers On Yonder Hill
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So they froze there
Soldiers preparing on yonder hill
For battle with an enemy
That not single one can kill

(514.) Fell the Mother 12/15/05
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Mid all the chaos I stopped to watch him
How sadly he cried
Over the body of his fallen mother
His fallen mother who by my hands died

(515.) Syrupcide 12/15/05
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Blood feckled the faces of the man
Each mask more deranged than the last
Like syrup on a pancake, it filled every pore
Drowned out in a red tide
He just kept laughing,
Till he bled no more.

(516.) Uneven Floor 12/15/05
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A dash of spastic color mixed with lonliness
Shined on the uneven floor of the classroom

(517.)"Drive Me" 12/15/05
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Mall parking lot with doe blue eyes
Called vexingly
"Drive me."
This I did with heavy foot
light tires
hard wall

(518.) Pretty Doll 12/15/05
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She is from China
My last was from Mexico
I wish she were real

(519.)Smug Santa 12/15/05
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You crossed me off your list so smugly
What, you think you're Santa Claus?

(520.) Christmas Exchange 12/15/05
=---------------------------------------------------=
Pivot heater warming the room slowly
Frail and so insecure
I'm sure I overstayed my welcome
I hope she liked her present
Undergarments stacked neatly on the bed
The cello sounded so out of tune
It's always such a long drive home
Everything's a little longer,
When you're alone.

(521.) Bind 12/15/05
=---------------------------------------------------=
I didn't shake his hand to finalize the deal
I signed my name instead
My blood pailed tje silk white page
Atleast the contract is binding


(522.)Sunshine In My Head 12/26/05 12:03 A.M.
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They all want what's in my head
The sunshine shining down that I spread
It's in my head
In my head
In my head
How bright the sun shines down
Turning you a right side frown
All that sunshine in my head
Makes me wish that I was dead
It's in my head
In my head
In my head
Magna Carta signed my rights
I quit my fights
Cus I got the power of the sun
I am one
With that sunshine shining in my head
It's all about the joy that I spread
It's in my head
In my head
In my head
The flings they come and go
Sometimes they never know
That the light that I shine
It's all mine
It's all mine
So why should I be sad?
I did nothing bad
But shine on
Beat the dawn
With that sunshine shining in my head
It will wake you from your bed
It's in my head
In my head
In my head
I feel as if I cheat
With this power you can't beat
I shine on
I shine on
For the new dawn
Crowd you out
Make you shout
Make you want what I have lead
All this sunshine in my head
Make you wish that you were dead
With all the joy that I spread
It's in my head
In my head
In my head
I'm sorry that I bled
It's this sunshine bleeding in my head
Spreading over all I touch
You know the such
I cannot feel a thing
It has no affect all that pain that you bring
I give up but it fights on
Makes me beat out your dawn
All this sun
I am one
With this sun
Wish I were done
With sunshine in my head
Makes me wish it were dead
It's in my head
In my head
In my head

(523.) Silent Gray 12/27/05 3:42 A.M.
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Silent gray
I whispered I love you
To a girl who didn't care
She left
I knew I'd lost
The gray sky spoke a thousand words
Not a single one I understood
I was in hell
No reality
Could possibley show
The sadness
In every word
All one thousand sad words
Etched into the clouds
Who would soon be no more

(524.) I Couldn't Watch 12/27/05 3:46 A.M.
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With frozen tears on her face
I couldn't watch anymore
He wanted embrace
She walked out the door

(525.) God Is On Your Side 12/27/05 3:48 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
You deemed me unworthy
For the beauty you beheld
As deity you waved your hand
Soon I was forgotten
God is on your side

(526.) Little One Left Behind 12/27/05 3:58 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Hush little one
I'm still here
Be still my dear
He has not won

I need love too
I'm a human being
These eyes aren't seeing
That you are you

I see a dark
That can't light
So I have no sight
I still carry her mark

It's hardest on
The one who's left behind
With a one of a kind
Black dawn

It's okay to cry
Just be patient and forgive
Try not to relive
Their reasons why

(527.) Chaos 12/29/05 4:29 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Let the world be torn asunder
By the power bestowed in my unworthy hand
I call forth power beyond power
From darkest dark to light that shines brilliant
Combine your force within this anger I now hold
Unbind your thoughts and give unto me
Together our power shall spread apart all that we see
Forgive not those who think they are good
No good shall come from those that think it should
Purification of all land
From this power in my hand
Chaos shall reign supreme

(528.) Me For Me 01/06/06 5:53 P.M.
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I once fell in love
With someone from long ago
I am still in love
With someone who could care less
I'm in love
With someone who doesn't know what love is
I hope I can find someone to love
Who loves me for me

(529.) That Feeling 01/06/06 5:59 P.M.
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I'm taken aback
I shift uncomfy
What do I say?
You look with your doubtful eyes
I don't know what to do
Neither do you
You're so beautiful
You make me forget how to breathe
No words
Descibre
That feeling

(530.) Fridge 01/06/06 6:13 P.M.
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(531.) Have I Strown This Far? 01/08/06 3:34 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Really, have I strown this far?
Looking back to see the path behind me
A sleepless night lit by only the feintest star
I pray for something, to someone, I don't know

I do believe, I shall go on
The road is so dauntless
When you're walking into the dawn
With no tommorrow

(532.)I Am Who I Am 01/08/06 3:38 A.M.
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Who Am I?

I am the Red headed romanticist
Who
Loves the world

I am the glasses wearing poet
Who
Wishes only to help

I am the miracle birthed boy
Who
Was supposed to be a girl named Autumn Michelle.

I am the female loving hopeless
Who
Has no one to hold.

I am striving to be the hero
Who
Anyone can call on in a pinch.

I am the wise-cracking asshole
Who
Means no harm to anyone.

I am the Agnostic fool
Who
Wishes he could find an answer.

I am the second son of my mother and only son of my Father
Who
I love very dearly.

I am the student striving to go to Emory
Who
Wants to study poetry and the human psyche.

I am the special person
Who
Is told that he is smart.

I am the idiot
Who
Believes them.

I am the child loving person
Who
Wants nothing more than on to call his own.

I am the man
Who
Would be happy with nothing to his name, if he had someone to hold.

I am the sickly boy
Who
Missed so much school when he was younger.

I am the fisherman
Who
Throws himself out there everyday, hoping for a bite.

I am the one
Who
Wrote this very poem.

I am the idiot
Who
Though that was funny.

I am the one
Who
Will now call it quits.

(533.) i seem to have let go 01/08/06 3:56 A.M.
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holding dear to what i have so little of
i seem to have let go

(534.) Edible 01/08/06 3:58 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
It's bitter when I bite into it
But delicious when I throw it away

(535.) So Little 01/08/06 3:59 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
To say so much with so little
I am told it is a gift
To hear I love you
Is the only gift I need

[altoecko]

(536.) Sun Just Out of Reach 01/09/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Like fingers reaching for a sun just out of reach
The forest sits and listens to the preacher preach

(537.) Yesterday's Labor 01/09/06
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Scratches on the table hint at yesterday's labor
I wonder who put them there

(538.)Translate 01/16/06 2:11 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Translate
What I now write
Into words that you can read
Since obviously
We're not speaking the same language

(539.) Moved 01/16/06 2:12 A.M.
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The mountains moved
Their grass blew gently in the wind
Slain by forceful blow
I recieve no reward but my own death


(540.) My Parents 1/18/06 12:46 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oh father, my father
Won't you teach me how to die?
For when my time comes
I will not recieve a second try.

Oh mother, my mother
Won't you teach me how to care?
For when I'm holding her hand
I'll know she's really there.

Oh parents, my parents
I am nothing but a reflection of you
So when I look in the mirror
I know what sins that you can do.

My mother, oh my father
Look what you have done!
You brought forth this being
Upon the will of everyone

Hopeful father, caring mother
I shall always know
That I carry with me all your dreams
No matter where I go

So father, so mother
Won't you please forgive
That when I am on my own
It is not your life I live

[altoecko]

(541.) Just Nothing 1/29/06 4:44 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Please forgive this state of mind
It's just a little mood of mine
Not knowing what to think
No depression's sink
Not happy, not sad
Not that good, not that bad
Not apathetic
Not apologetic
Just nothing

(542.) Who Are We? 1/29/06 11:29 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I am you.
You are I.
Who are we?
Emerald eyes tell me of hurt and trouble.
Black tears stain a pretty face
Porcelain skin hides that hard silver
I shall not give up
Cast aside and defeaten.
I shall not fall
For,
I am in love with an idea
An idea you must be a part of
Seventeen hours, thirty-four minutes, and ten seconds
If I am you,
Who are you?

(543.)It's Disarming 3:02 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's something in your eyes
It's disarming
There's something in your smile
And it's harming
All that I am.

(544.)Black Heart 02/10/06 8:36 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
As if stone
No words escape the mouth
Gravity pulls these words back
My feelings gravitate around my heart
My actions flare up from simple reactions
Black hole formed
Density at it's core
Worth more than any words
Nothing escapes it's pull

(545.)I Moved The Stars 02/10/06 8:42 P.M.
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Raised arms part heavens
Bringing eyes closer to climax
A flash of luminious hopes
Spelling out the meaning of love
Simple actions bring such cataclysmic emotions
Crafted from pure dreams
These vessels of life and death
Holes in heaven
Giving peeks to what I'll never achieve
Against all odds
Raised arms bring love to life
Eyes enlightened by what they want
One man moved the stars
You were unimpressed

(546.) Harmonic 02/10/06 8:49 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
A deaf man sings a song
The blindman paints
A symphony I wrote for you
Played on broken glass
No noise was heard
No show was played
Everyone kept moving
You walked away
The standing ovation
Deafened me

[Fruple]

All of your poems are amazing... how can you think of them all? You should publish these and make a book :thumbs .

[Owl of Parliament]

Yes, hang in there man, keep posting them.

[altoecko]

Thanks for acctually commenting you two. =) It's glad to hear some feedback.

(547.)Mortalitity 02/15/06 8:07 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
As my own soul oozed from me
I did not question my mortalitity.


(548.) Perfection Over the Fence 02/17/05 6:36 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Perfection is a place you will never see
It's right over the fence covered in shade by tree
You stand on tip toe in hopes to see even a glimpse of the grass
Stop straining your kneck

(549.) You Want What I Have? 02/19/06 2:56 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
You want anger like my anger?
Fury that could burn through every soul?
From your stomach I shall rip out every death
Every life
That you ****ing repent for
You lie to yourself and to God
Each Jewel I will place on a necklace
You can swallow it again
Will it make you whole?
Full of anger, with fire in your eyes
Will you be satisfied?
No
No forgiveness
Now
Nor ever
You want sadness like you see in my eyes?
Sadness so disarming you cry at every glance
Everything you see reminds you
Reminds me
What I, no we, have done
Our hands are sullied my child
I have born you unto a world of hate
A world that I thought you would change
You changed the world
You stole his life
You stole my dreams
Our hands are bloodied with my sins
Your eyes are sad with your crimes
My anger burns only in my chest
I have failed no one but me
Perhaps you want love like my love?
Love that burns everything I touch
Love that scarred my eyes and heart
Drenched in sadness
I still give out my love
He made me
I made him
Life is so cruel
I give my love to you
I have nothing but my love
Each Jewel on my necklace, I placed for you
Wear it round your kneck
let them know my child
You carry so much on your shoulders
Please
Change my world once more

[altoecko]

Crap, double post. May I get a delete here?

[altoecko]

No, you may not Mitchell.

So, any of you know this girl?

(550.) The Girl With The Stylish Hair 02/21/06 7:50 P.M.
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Smile babe, you already won.
Wear your hair down and fear the sun.
Shake your hips and feel the feel.
Nostalgia and all that jazz can be real
You've got a timid look and a sad face
It may burn but it's still a warm embrace
Feel the needle pierce the skin
Loves on your side and you're bound to win
Cut the cool and quit the hate
Keep on reelin, forget the bait
Silver sleek and hope in hand
Drag the C, you're the coolest cat in all the land
Place accents on thing you can't say
You'll always get your way
Don't you shed your wings or molt your lips
Remember hun, it's all in the hips
Shake the fury and make the scene
To me it's never obscene
When angels tred in human skin
Longing for a feeling to be akin
With love and sweat, my blood and tears
Keep on shaking, it may take years
Dance, dance, dance and never stop!
Even when tempo drop
Smile babe, I like the way you are
Feigned by no scar
Place where flight once stood
Who cares what's misunderstood?
Molars shining like a new dime
An affinity for his wisdom is no crime
Three by three we stack for now
Perhaps old man winter will know how?
Short in stature and quick in speak
Perhaps that's why their knees are weak
Wearing heels for the snow day
Clap your hands say way!
Vancouver where the hope's alive
Shake the hip to the jive
Expo 86 and 2 for a dollar
With a hint of thrift store on a designer collar
Tea em in tea with Donatello and Michalangelo
Spoon God, what does he know?
But what could I possibley do for heaven's touch
I've got my music but that ain't much
Keep shaking baby, the world's starting
Soon you will be parting
Hair or sea
It's all the same to me
I know I'm not worthy to even hold your hand
But I know your secrets and I've heard the band
You've got something girl, and I've seen you wear it infront the glass
I've seen you dance and let hours pass
Show me someday why I'm not ready to be on Heaven's arming?
There's something about you girl, it's disarming
I'll write my song
You'll sing along
But I know you won't mean it

[altoecko]

No, we don't Mitch.

(551.) She Was Ready 02/25/06 3:36 A.M.
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She came to me and she was ready.
She was ready to give everything away.
Tears still dripping from her eyes
Voice still cracked with sadness
She was ready
Her love was so strong that it would give up itself
The man she loved was working for her
For me
She could not stand this burden
This distance
She came to me and she was ready
Beauty at her age is uncommon
She was a rare pearl to find
Beautiful even with her makeup running and her love in hand
She came to me and she was ready
To sacrfice her happiness
For mine
I knew at that moment what loves was
Love was self-detrimental
Self-sacrifisal
Unselfish
But at the same time caring only for it's self
It is a sacrifice made from it's dreams
She came to me and she was ready
her wedding ring in hand showing doubt
Showing guilt melting away the saphires
Perhaps the saphires were guilt
Hardened as a reminder to her everyday
"This man loves you" they would say
I helped him ask her that day
His heart racing and his mind not there
Thinking he was going to die
Then she just started to cry
On one knee
But not without permission from me
Which he had and will always have
But on that day, she was ready
She would not let him bear this stress any longer
She would not move her baby from his friends
Life shall be perfect for my son!
I told her to calm down
I knew she was not thinking straight
Or so I thought
She probably was thinking more clear in those moments
Than I could ever hope for
My mother came to me
With wedding ring in hand
Her husband a thousand miles away
Crying great rivers of love that would drown any man
She came to me
She was ready
I told her I loved her
I held her in embrace like the way she held me
When I was sick
When I was sad
After I had a nightmare
When anything in life had gone bad
I told her it would be alright
That he loved her too much
To just let her go
But she was ready
On that faithful day
When I decided to move away
I still lie to my friends
About why I decided to move in the end
She deserved to be with the one she loved
She had sacrificed her whole life for me
Me and my brother
A single mother and my cheating father
She raised us to be proud
To wear our badges of honor on our shirts
But to never brag outloud
She worked 2 jobs and pulled double shifts
Just so we could have Christmas
She sacrificed her happiness for us
For so long
For too long
Going from one man to another
Really anyone showing her a promising future
For her sons
But she was ready
To throw it all away
To make me happy
but I now knew what love meant
Love was making others happy
At the cost of your own
So I moved away from my friends
I started a brand new life
My mother lives with the man she loves
The man that loves her
She is happy
Through love,
I am happy

(552.) Heaven's Tounge 02/28/06 12:06 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oh Heaven's golden light
with subtle tounge
Open mouth
What Beauty have you spit on us?

(553.) Coffee & Cigarrettes 03/07/06 11:49 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
We'll drink champagne from our coffee!
To paris in the 1920s we shall toast
With perfect resonance around the world
Free energy from the nectar of the God's
I feel so divorced from the world
The opera keeps on playing
Such sweet music to my tired ears
I'd say it was the healer
The tree hugger
Drug dealing bastard
but no, the DJ keeps the beta going
Perhaps,
The world stopped spinning,
May I get off?
No rest for resting
No hope for the hopeful
So far away
Brazil
Brazil
I'm coming home
After my coffee break
To moulin rouge and the late 70s
No thank you, I don't like cigarrettes
They'll kill you you know
Besides, no smoking in the lobby
How much longer do we have to drink champagne?
2 minutes?
I think I'll take a nap
Wake me up when the opera's over

[altoecko]

(554.) Why in the Spring? 03/12/06 12:26 A.M.
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I'm not saying you don't love him
I'm not saying he doesn't love you
I'm saying you're getting married in the spring
You just met in the winter
Teenage love is not a lie
But it has no foundation
Those with no legs cannot stand
On their own two feet
He may be your crutch
She may be your pillar of light
Or some other philosophical bull****
You just met him
You cannot claim love at first sight
untill you are much older
Older than you are now
You have to go through love
Many times
Before you can even claim you know what it is
Even then you'll be wrong
I waited 7 god damn months
7 months
Do you know how long that is?
When since week one you have been yearning
To SCREAM it at her
but I waited
Till I meant it in every god damn way I could find
It hurts much more to hear it
and be lied to
Then to never hear it at all
Please,
make sure you mean it before you say it
Please,
think before you act
I am not saying you're not in love
I am not saying you're lying
I am saying you are stupid
That I am stupid
That there is no one whoever was
or ever will be
Who was smart enough to claim any knowledge
in something called love
Distinguish between love and hormones
Distinguish fast
It may be your downfall
You just met in the winter
Why get married in the spring?

(555.) Choose 03/13/06 12:56 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm loved, this I know
Why can't I like these?
It's so obvious that they want
Want what I am
I throw myself at those that don't
Don't want what I give
But all I give is myself

(556.) Firefly 03/13/06 12:58 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Love eludes me, like firefly
I have my jar in hand
One leaf and two twigs
Holes poked in top
So that I won't suffocate
Love that is so elusive
One warm summer night
I caught love
Flashing brightly full of dreams
I didn't know,
I was so young
So young and so full of hope
Hope fors futures
Futures with love
I should have let it go
Caught it again
But it's light blinked twice
I shed one tear, no more, no less
Love left
This place
This world
It left me

(557.) 1000 Candles 03/13/06 1:05 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oh the lights
Jay look at the hues
It is so hard to imagine
My flower is in those lights
1000 candles burning
All at once
I hope my flower
Isn't ablaze

(558.) Relationship 03/13/06 1:08 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
1, I count sadly
2, there is hope
3, is too many

[altoecko]

(559.) Equality 03/18/06 12:35 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
One life for another
One arm for one arm
One symbol drawn in blood
He burns the man alive
The children ate slowly at it's flesh
Newborn children with ravenous eyes
One heart, one soul
I give for you
You would kill your own son
To live
I drew one symbol on the ground
5 symbols on my body
My new body
He would have his life
I would have my faith
He is new
I am old
Life has begun once more
In tragedy

(560.) Dayku? 03/21/06 1:06 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Just like those old days
With sunshine full of love
Days we never had

(561.) Feint Glow 03/26/06 3:36 A.M.
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There's a feint glow over the arena
I think it's love
Whatever it may be
I want to catch it

(562.)so Apologetic 03/26/06 3:41 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I should not be so apologetic
Over something as grand a gift as this
Then why do I say sorry,
After every "I love you."?

[altoecko]

(563.) 17 Years of Life 03/26/06 4:03 A.M.
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What if I worry for tommorrow,
but party for today?
I set my plans on golden pillars
yet act them out on paper hopes
Ripping holes in things unrippable
Repairing holes in things unhurt
Dreaming dreams in other languages
Languages I don't know
thinking about life and all that implies
While I waste it away
17 years in,
Already behind
It's time
To catch up

(564.) Morning Air 03/28/06 6:31 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Good morning time,
Good morning space.
Good morning world,
and the human race.

Dawn is an instance,
One tiny little spot
Keeping pace with life
Not once was it caught.

I woke up early
I thought to myself
If this trully were reality
Would it realize itself?

Street lights fading
Let me know the cause
The cause for my distant longing
Is brought forth inside my flaws

Moon stays out past it's bedtime
Stealing a bit of light from our daytime
But it won't be out a longtime
Just long enough to live a lifetime

The day that I shall die
That is the day on which I shall realize
The thing for which I long
Was right before my eyes

All this thinking
Has left my mind in wreck
Thought of my insignificance
I am but tiny speck

When mist clears from the ground
I hope the world is still here
For if it were to vanish before I said goodbye
The world would drown beneath my tear

The new day is my canvas
I have come to paint
The only thing I hope for
Is that I show restraint

Who is it that I wake for?
What reason do I live?
Through all my years of exisistence
An answer life will not give

I have come to realize
That things are not always fair
But I have accepted this
As I breathe in morning air

[altoecko]

(565.)I'm Really In Love, With Nothing 04/26/06 3:00 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Please, stop.
you're not in love
Please stop,
neither was I
Please stop claiming that you're in love
There is no way that me
nor you
nor anyone in our day
in our age
or life
could ever understand
what the fuh...
What are you doing?
I hate what you do,
but I have no right
for I don't know what hate
is.
it's just you hormones
open your eyes,
close your legs.
you don't know love
Please stop,
I love you.
and you're breaking my heart


(566.) Valant Knight 04/26/06 3:05 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Knight in shining armor
Man of steel
beneath the flesh
beneath the steel
I recieve no solice
in your empty words
In your empty eyes,
the only things of you
visible beneath that armor
Armor I want to
penetrate
keep being valant
knight
A knight who saves us all
I found your *****
let me repair it
you ignore me and save the world
I'm you,
listen to my words.

(567.) I Can't Believe the Truth 05/01/06 12:53 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Do you know where they grow?
The ones who seem to know.
No longer live.

It would seem
We're living in a dream
Cut short

By the new day
Which shines as if to say "Hurray!"
Optimism wasted

Wasted perhaps on my callous youth
Which askes for far too much truth
None of which I believe

Please, just go ahead and lie
The truth would be too much for me to try
To some how understand

I'd lie to myself if it made it easier to live
So many lies so little to give
Too bad I gave up

[altoecko]

(568.)I Walk In Valleys Where Gardens Grow 04/26/06
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I walk in valleys where gardens grow
And gardens how they grow
All the while I'll always know
You will never show
That you will love
and that I will care
and that we will sometimes be together
but still I know
that I will walk through the valleys where the gardens grow
oh the gardens grow
with vines so high
and roses so full of pain
I know that I will always walk in the valley
oh the valley where the garden grows
the rain runs down the mountain
drowning us beneath
but always after bodies wash away
the garden grows
the garden grows

(569.) I Will Lick You Like Flames 05/02/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
And I will lick you like flames
Flames escaping from a lost hope
a forgotten dream
my embers will burn holes in your heart
I will use every bit of this oxygen you call
life
my tounge will quell whatever fears that your soul
may
could
will
ever have
I see you, sitting to the side dejected and alone
may I comfort you?
my cat will wander the streets in front of my home
she will not come home lest I bring her
must I bring you home?
I worry, we all know I worry
to worry about something so carefree
I drown myself in idiocy
suicidal thoughts and a caring friend
these are the only things that keep you sane
but my fire shall burn bright
I met a harlet
she showed her love to me
she showered me with it
All she wanted was a good time
Should I feel bad to deliver?
There was an irate look that her voice often took
She, not knowing what she wants from life
Wanted me
if only for an instance
Quickly she changed her mind and was less than kind
She still calls me though
Is she calling for help?
Confusing the hell out of me
Then there is another,
she invites me to her home
She shares her stories
She lays on my arm
She speaks of other men
other boys
other passion
I back away and don't know what to do
the cards all said I would be rewarded
that my work with all these fickle matters
will bring me someone to make happy
let's hope they make me happy too
should I stay alone,
and bring home my cat,
but once a week?
who will be my air?
where shall I burn?
I would love to comfort you
show you the world is grand
may I warm your heart
warm it with what little love I have
do you already have a flame?
should I just fade out?
No
I see you across from me
I see your sweet smile
of insecurity
not knowing what to think of me
and it warms my day
you add coal to my cold fire
I want you to sit next to me
take warmth in my love when you are cold
take comfort in my passion when you are lonely
the wind outside is chilling
my furnace burns strong
but weak
I shall bottle up my fire
my love
were you to let me in
I would shower you in flames of gold
gold that midas himself would be jealous of
flames that satan himself would fall to
love that would burn hell
love that would light earth and sky
love that I have little of
but save it all for
someone
someone who needs to keep warm
come,
sit by the fire with me
let me set your soul ablaze

(570.)Cherry Lozenges 05/04/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Her whole world is cherry Lozenges
Melting down for short satisfactions

(571.)No One But A Stranger 05/04/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
No one loves them
No one cares
But me and a stranger

(572.) Say, 05/04/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Say,
Who is in those sheepish shoes?
Why are black men singin the blues?
For two dollars I get a quarter
The rest is nothing but disorder
It's the pretensious few
Who look down their noses into mirrors, accusing you

Say,
Who's right?

[altoecko]

(573.)No War Today 05/05/06 3:43 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Tears ran down a pretty face
Words fell out a wretched mouth
The feelings shared were nothing more than sadness
No war today, no war tommorrow.

(574.) Sea of Regrets 05/08/06 10:21 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm nothing but a sailor
In a sea of regrets
Wearing a life jacket of dreams
No ammount of hope,
is going to fix the hole in the boat

(575.) Fickle Life 05/16/06 11:36 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oh, fickle life, what do I want from you?
Oh fickle me, what do you want of yourself?
These questions will go unanswered
Unless I answer them.
For a world I love so much
So much I find to hate
So much I plan to fix
So little time

(576.) Oh Hopeless Inhibitions 05/31/06 8:00 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oh shadow on the window
Are you a reflection of me?
Oh darkness on my shoulder
Do you oppress or set me free?

With severed hands and open arms
I clap to you for your trangressions
With my empty hopes and foolish dreams
I melt away all of my agressions

If people were naught but wishes
I would keep them for a rainy day
If the world would ever have me
I do believe I'd send it away

Wading through the mellow hours
Drifting through the countless days
I sway in motion with the water
Floating wherever it sways

Oh callous aspirations
What am I living for?
Oh hopeless inhibitions
Do you not hold me anymore?

I would dream of nowhere
If I could share it with you
But I think of somewhere
And I know not what to do

(577.) Billaird Balls 06/01/06 11:50 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Contemplating the thought patterns of billaird balls
I glanced across the memorabelia on the walls
None of her words made any sense
I haven't seen my mind since

(578.) Your New Life 06/06/06 5:35 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I come in peace
I leave in pieces
Cliched ryhmes
It never ceases

I've come for love
I've come for you
Clear the way
And let me through

I wrote a poem
It contained words
To let you know
Which side I'm leaning towards

I haven't come to love you
I only come to free
I don't want to hold you
You're not for me

My soul says to love you
My heart says to love you
My mind says to love you
I say save you

Save you from this
This life you made for yourself
This detrimental thing
That does not involve myself

I want no part in your new life
To go through that again
I want no part in your new life
So come to me my friend

I apologize
I only want to help


(579.) Huddled Over Trashcans 06/06/06 11:58 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I miss the warmth
The warmth of sorrys
The immersion in healing flames
That no matter how soddened with tears
Will always blot away the sadness
I don't miss anyone
I just miss an emotion
An emoton that will catch me when I fall
From any height
No one offers me the warmth anymore
To make one's own fire
is like burning the money
that keeps you warm and alive
in a trashcan
to stay warm and alive
No one should experience such a squalor
Yet I live it everyday
Smiling with a warm smile
Despite my kiln being cold
No ammount of layers
Can keep you warm on the outside
When you're numb and cold
On the inside
Hell,
I live you
Life,
I love you
Love,
I am in your hell

(580.) Love Is My Religion 06/07/06 5:12 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Love is my religion
Art is my bible
I walk in utopia
Watering the flowers
For the others who come after
I hobble in inferno
Building bridges over abysses
For those who fall behind me
These poems are my prayers
Each soul is my church
I cull where I implore
I have faith in love
Because it has faith in me

[altoecko]

(581.) A Questionare 06/21/06 11:15 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Would you give your life for theirs?
Would you happily live your life with this person?
Are they your best friend?
Are you safe in their arms?
Do they make you smile with everything they do?
Do you laugh at the stupidest little jokes they make?
Have you laid next to them and been happy just to be there?
Have you found yourself thinking of them when they're not around?
Does your chest flutter when they're near?
Does the day seem greater, and the night more starry by their side?
Can you honestly say they're your happiness?
Can you let them in on your darkest secrets?
Could you die today, and have no regret bigger than spending more time with them?
Could you cry in front of them?
Would you be honored if they cried in front of you?
Are your sleeves their hankerchiefs?
Do you miss them when they're not there?
Have you memorized their smell?
Does the will to write them ANYTHING, eat you up inside?
Can you remember things about them, even if they only told you once?
Could the world stop from your passion alone?
Is it all mutual?
Answer these questions, then answer your own.
Then maybe you can claim that you're in love.
Untill then, maybe even after then, you've got nothing but a dream
Craft this dream, cull this dream
Someday it will bloom to be love

(582.) The First Of many 06/22/06 7:40 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Rest your head with me
I'll light the stars ablaze
Just for you to see

Let me kiss your skin
Every inch I like more
I know not where to begin

It's a beautiful day
With the sun in hand
I will light your way

Follow closesly by my side
Let me show your affection
I shall wear you with pride

I'll paint you with desire
Use you as my canvas
You will feel the warmth of my fire

(583.)God of Land & Sky 06/24/06 12:31 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm a god of land and sky
The Earth's my lover and I'll tell you why
It rumbles fire down in it's core
I'm the one it rumbles for
Mountains high and rivers low
They grow and flow, for reasons only I know
Traversed the land from coast to coast
Of worldly matters, I know the most
Seen the sky black and blue
Hell I'm the one that makes the hue
Take my hand and you will see
Just why this planet was made for me
From each human, every race
I have crafted each and every face
You disbelieve me now
But soon, soon my dear, you will see how
Follow closesly behind my step
Of the things we see, I am very hep
Trends in weather?
I'll have you know I am the trendsetter
With vibrant wings and slow hands
You will see how I have formed the lands
Look into my eyes
You'll hear naught but truths, you'll see no lies
Thoughts of the new day
They bend on knee to pray
I will bring them a tommorrow
But first, free my sorrow
You seem to be the only one
Who cares...

[altoecko]

(584.) Firefly For Show 06/26/06 1:18 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Like a firefly flashing in hopes of finding a companion
I show the world my dreams in hopes of finding you

(585.) A World Based on Love 06/26/06 1:21 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Come, we will build the world together
A world based soley on love
Will surely someday fall
Lets be there to catch it

(586.) You Know Your Way Around The Stars 06/26/06 1:24 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Perhaps if you lead the way,
I could get lost in your eyes

(587.) Autumn Leaves 06/26/06 1:28 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Red leaves fall from autumn trees
Sad tears roll down a pretty face
The sky is orange with anticipation
My arms are open with comfort

(588.) Puzzle Piece 06/26/06 1:33 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a certain spot on your shoulder
Where I fit so perfectly
There's so many places where you fit just right
So my little puzzle piece,
Are you complete?

(589.) Why Not Walk On Water? 06/26/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Treading softly on the reflection of our amour
The pool of passion never once gives way

(590.) Trust Me 06/26/06 1:47 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Your words,
My ears.
My dreams,
Your fears.
Your eyes,
My relief.
My heart,
Your belief.

[Fruple]

Those are really nice. How could you manage to make those so close together? I can barely make one a week.

[altoecko]

When I feel inspired I just write untill I can't write anymore.

(592.) Fall 07/05/06 7:39 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I expect no reward,
I want you to feel no remorse
Your happiness,
is all I want.
So,
when I fall
fall in love
fall in combat
Fall for you
Do not worry
I fell not in vain

(593.) City In My Mind 07/05/06 7:57 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I view skies of Gray
Dark towers with green lights
Towers breaking through the sky
Lightning breaking through the ground
Ruby eyes dotting each street corner
Ruby fires dotting every soul
Fueled by love
Fueled by hate
Murderous creatures
Loving paladins
They roam this city
This city in my mind
Warring for affection
Warring for revenge
Shall I grant them their wishes
In this city with it's cracked streets
It's broken streetlights
Skyscrapers scraping nothing but their agitation
Down with the monotany!
Down with the change!
Let's live life
Not just watch as it goes by
In my city
In my brain
I sneak away
To sooth the pain
Within this city
inside my mind
I am not special
Here is more of my kind
Clouds curtain the world
The world from the sun
Gray skies overshadow
That life has begun
Why is something so dark,
so beautiful and reassurring
In this world of bright skies
And lions roaring
In this city
Inside my brain
As the rain
Runs down cracked window pane
Let me walk the streets with you
Show you my home

(594.) Thin Line
=---------------------------------------------------=
Joy, you come to me when I am at my lowest.
You mock me at my highest
Sorrow, you mock me when I am at my lowest.
You come to me when I am at my highest.
Deep lashes do you leave in your wake
Hard callous scars mark where you walk
Scars of the flesh and of the spirit
One I show with pride
The other I boast with envy
I walk this fine line between you
This gray space in time
This gray space in me
Either side is deep oceans
Oceans I would gladly drown in
My choices in the clouds
My dreams in my hands
I would gladly drown in these regrets


(595.) I Would Not Walk 07/09/06 7:37 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I would not walk,
In fear I leave you mind
I could not talk,
For I do not want to dull you
Should I breathe,
Or fear that I may take your air
Can I grieve,
I do not want to drown you in my tears
I shall not spread my wings,
So that I may still walk through your door
I shall bow to you as I would to kings,
Just so I could be closer to your floor
I Dare not think,
For fear that I may forget
Shall I not swim than sink,
So that I may be your stepping stone
I will not, no, I can not die,
For who will be there to catch you when you fall
But how will I, no, how can I,
Live when you are not with me


(596.) That Smell 07/11/06 1:59 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm not sure what it was
There was just something
Something about the way he held it in his fingers
I could tell he could not live without it
But wanted to throw it away for good
It was in his eyes too
A pure love
A purer hatred
Was it addiction?
Or purely habit?
I'm not sure
So I go to buy him more


(597.) Whole Truths 07/11/06 2:04 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
In life I live half-lifes
In lies I tell whole truths
On either side of coin I flip,
I shall always lose to you

[altoecko]

(598.) A Degree In You 07/18/06 11:27 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Come, take off that etamine.
You know you're my amphetamine
Drive my brain
Stop driving me insane
I can't fight this afinity
Help me find infinity
This love is estoric
Come with me, we'll make it historic
Speak to me of theory
Speak untill you're weary
I will devour every letter
Each word tastes even better
Teach me of your world and ways
I have endless, countless days
Study of only one subject will do
I need a degree in you

[Fruple]

Good analogys.

[Redneck 2000]

(598.) A Degree In You 07/18/06 11:27 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Come, take off that etamine.
You know you're my amphetamine
Drive my brain
Stop driving me insane
I can't fight this afinity
Help me find infinity
This love is estoric
Come with me, we'll make it historic
Speak to me of theory
Speak untill you're weary
I will devour every letter
Each word tastes even better
Teach me of your world and ways
I have endless, countless days
Study of only one subject will do
I need a degree in you
that's pleasantly corny, and some good writing, but the "etamine/amphetamine" rhyme is so forced it's a little painful to think about. if you ditched that and put a different part at the beginning then it would be good.

[altoecko]

Sadly I wrote the whole poem off those two lines, I recently found out what etamine meant and wanted to try and use it. I heard the word amphetamine used in a Bob Dylan song recently and it made me want to use it in a poem too. So they sortof came together in the poem, rather lacklusterly I may say, but they came together none the less. It's always nice to have people comment, thanks to all of you for posting in here.

(599.) Sacrificial Bonds
=---------------------------------------------------=
Sacrificial bonds we tie
In hopes of being together
While stripping away our own self
We gladly clothe our love with shed life
When they do the same
Trully,
We shall never be naked
When we have love

(601.) Sun In My Hand
=---------------------------------------------------=
I would hold the sun in my hands
If it did not burn me so cruelly
I sit in it's warm light
I bathe in it's rivers of rays
But it scars me
I drink too much from it's goblet
And I shall surely die
I cannot live without it's warmth
Though someday I will die by it's light
Fly too close and your wings will surely melt
I hold your love in my hand
And it burns me.

(602.) God's In My Engine
=---------------------------------------------------=
God is in the asphault.
I drive him everyday
God was in the dinosaurs
Who fell into tar they say
Dinosaurs died so long ago
Yet we use them still today
So technically God's in the oil too
I have the holy spirit in my engine, hurray!

(603.) Love Is Blind
=---------------------------------------------------=
Love is blind,
That doesn't matter
All it needs to do,
is read the brail on my heart

(604.) Close By
=---------------------------------------------------=
I second guess myself
She has done nothing wrong
But I seem to hurt her
Temptations of the flesh overtake my judgement
I can tell she doesn't like that
She likes the heat of the moment
In the moment
But never before
Surely not after
My mother says to wait
But I've hurt enough
She opened up to me
Shared some of her most inner secrets
I'm such a horrible person
I would take this trust she gives me
And turn on her
But I will not betray her
She's special,
But she's not for me
I didn't know that at the time
I feel so horrible
God, I rarely speak to you
But please, oh please,
Let her not hate me
I can't keep her close
But let me keep her close by

(605.) Would You Birth A God?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Would you birth a god?
Smother it in hatred
And unleash it on the world.
Would you birth a god?
Lavish it in love
And give it to the world.
I ask you,
I implore you,
I adore you,
hold my love in your womb.
Deluge it with whatever emotion
you deem fitting
All I ask
is that you acknowledge it
Abort it
Force it
Be it
Just,
Love me

[Alex]

I'm going to be the guy that skips the entire thread to ask a question that's probably already been asked-

Have you written any songs?

[altoecko]

Quite a few, why do you ask?

[Alex]

Just wanted to see some.

[altoecko]

(606.) Ethereal Soul 08/13/06 5:48 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oh ethereal soul
How can I keep you in?
When you're not even real.

(607.) Take What You Will 08/13/06 5:52 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Provoke my thoughts
Probe my mind
Stab your needle anywhere
Take any fluid you want
My brain is nothing
My feelings mean naught
My heart is black and useless
Please, just leave me my dignity
Because you've already taken my soul.

(608.) I Sure Hope 08/13/06 5:55 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I sure hope there's a heaven
I think there's a hell
Not as if it matters
To me

(609.) The Coward's Way? 08/13/06 5:58 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I know you're only trying to help
But just let me feel sorry for myself
Let me fester in my own brooding sadness
Stop trying to fix me
I'm not broken
Just wishing I were

(610.) Brittle Bones 08/21/06 10:06 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Well these bones are too brittle
I still can't believe they won't break
Well these tears sting too bad
Why don't my eyes just melt?
My raionale is too frail
Will my world crumble?
My beliefs are too weak
Can God still love me?

(611.) Carbonation 08/21/06 10:08 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Live life in a bottle
Uncork and run over
I'll fizz till I'm gone
No carbonation to explode

(612.) Atleast I Asked 08/21/06 10:09 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I asked God why,
Not once did he ever answer me.

(613.) An Ideal 08/21/06 10:10 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm only in love with an ideal
An idealistic view that someday I'll find love
Someday on my journeys
During one day in my campaign to make the world a better place
I'll meet a girl who I'll love at first sight
Who I'll one day marry
Settle down with
be happy
But I already know I won't believe myself
And I'll just ignore the notion of love
The only notion I look forward to

(614.) Mirror Land 09/10/06 7:54 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Please, let me follow you through that window
The mirror in the corner
a window to exotic lands
Dreams come true, hopes become material
And I hold my future in my hands.
You take it from my grasp
You go back to your land of fantasy
You leave me behind
I can not follow
I can only watch you walk away
Holding my future in your deliquecent hands
Carry them softly,
I look forward to our tommorrow.

(615.) Marble Floor 09/10/06 7:58 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
You traverse the marble slates
That spread the width of my mind
You tempt me
With your silver wings of silk
Oh you harlette of disdaine colors
I love the way you wear your personality
You've got something about you,
And I love the way you flaunt it
The endless halls within my mind
lead all to the end
The end of you,
please guide me to the entrance
I want to go again

(616.) Sweet Fruit 09/17/06 5:55 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Sweet fruit from a tree just out of reach
I long for the sweet offspring as a delicate girl tries to preach
I think how beautiful she must trully be
Beneath all those words she's thrown at me
I love her despite her best efforts to drive me away
She could scream to her God almighty every day
But in those moments when she's just herself
And not another vessel for a religion taken off a generic shelf
She is beautiful, this I know
Blind, but not with the love I show
My glasses are useless, my words are frail
Her skin is soft, her texture pale
I'll show her my affection tonight,
but of that temptatious fruit I will never bite
I'll always listen to you sermon,
but will you?

(617.) I Long TO Kiss Her 09/17/06 6:00 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Soft pillows on the bed
heads entwined by love

(618.) Inside The Outside 09/17/06 6:01 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Inside of me is a lover
Outside a fighter
Inside I will cry
Outside shed not a tear
Inside I fel empowered
Outside I empower
Inside I am quiet
Outside I won't shut-up
Inside I love you
Outside I'll stay your friend
Inside I have an image
Outside a canvas
Inside I have a plan
Outside is the world

(619.) I'll Change You World 09/17/06 6:03 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'll change you world
I'll change your ways
I'll change your people
I'll change you,
just as much
As she changes me

[Fruple]

I like them. Take What You Will was really good, all in all. And I really like how you use nice, big words. Most poetry I read is kind of dull, considering it was written by people my age.

[altoecko]

(620.) In The Dark 09/17/06 6:05 A.M
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oh I was blind
oh we were free
But I open my eyes
and despise what they see
Honey we're together
but only in the dark
And my eyes can't adjust
by the light of a spark

(621.) I Miss You Mom 09/20/06
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Though we are far apart
I am there for you
Though the world is between us
I love you
No matter how far apart we ar
I'll miss you

(622.) Together 09/20/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Please,
Listen
I speak only the truth
I,
the son of my mother
Love you,
the daughter of the world
But you think I'm lying
You say love is not enough
I say it's all we have
Surely we can make it be enough
But not alone,
it will never be enough alone
I listen to your meaningless stories
I laugh,
I have told you of your beauty
You tell me my opinion counts for something
But that you hate me
Yet you feel at peace in my embrace
I saw you stare at me,
When they said to tell someone you loved them
Trust me,
I can't promise I won't eventually hurt you,
but I can promise that I will make you the happiest girl in the world.
If you only trust me,
not even trust me.
Trust in love
we will make it enough
Together

(622.) Pessimistic Children 09/20/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Small children listened to their parents
Their parents were filled with hate
Hate for all the men who came before them
Hate that the children now spread
against each other
children listen to your parents
Parents listen to your words
Your children live on those words
And happiness can not live on hateful words
only sadness lives on such little hope

(623.) I Moved The Stars 09/24/06 9:44 P.M. 2nd 09/27/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
I move the stars for no one,
Because no one ever looks up.

I change the world for no one
Because you never look around

I bled out my soul on paper
Paper that you will never read.

But it means nothing
Since you paid me no mind

I'm going to use all my might
To spell out my love in the stars

But no one will ever read it
Because I don't love you

Because you're too blind with hatred
To look up

(625.) It Felt Horriblely Good 09/24/06 10:25 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'll be honest with you,
I loved holding her hand
it made me feel at peace with the world
She smiled at me too
She smiled all day that day
But I was with someone else
And I felt horrible for it.

(626.) I'll Save Your World 09/29/06
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She calls me when the world is dying
In public she says she loves me no mor
In private she says she never did
But when the world is ending, she loves me
She always loved me and she misses me
But i save the world, and life goes on
I'm nothing but a regret
I love being there for you
I've always loved you
Since the first time i said it I meant it forever
I asked the world what love was
And I made sure I meant it by every definition
By the lake's, the ocean's, the mountain's, and the people's
I'll always love you
I'll always be there
But the world someday will die
Long after I'm gone
Will you speak your mind,
or your heart?
The world is dying once again
You call crying once more
I will save your world
But please stop destroying mine

(627.) Goodnight Kiss 09/29/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
It's been 3 years
3 long years
But you miss me
I miss you too
I didn't get my goodnight kiss
I danced with you for hours under the stars
but fate was cruel
And you let us behind in our small world
I left our small world
I found you in my travels
You have seen the world,
but I can't see mine
without a good night kiss

(628.) I Bathe In Sun Rays 09/29/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
I bathe in sun rays but stay pale
I wear boots for wading when the water's not there
I wear shirts I made myself for people I'll never meet
I sacrificed my future so you can forget the past
I love the world through all the hate
An optimist amongst the pessmism
I'll change the hate to love
I'll love those that hate
For my children, for all those who come after
Have faith in one another, world is cruel
The world will be beautiful when it's your turn to run it
I'll leave a full tank of hope,
rule safely with love
The world will hate you,
it's up to you to love

(629.) I'm Not So Sad 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
I know it seem like I am in misery
But you do mean so much to me
We fight all the time
For no reason, for no rhyme
I would feel so lost without you
I want nothing new
Please stay with me, it's all I need
Without you, I could not proceed
Please, just say you love me
That's all I need, you'll see

(630.) Speak True 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
When yesterday my love did leave
I cried so many tears from my eyes
The feeling so betrayed inside
Her crying words turned to spies

After careful contemplation
I have come to an end
With a kiss sealed envelope
My love once again I will send

Carefully selected verbs and nouns
To her ears my heart shall bleed
If only I had the way
I would ride to her on ivory steed

Als I know of the truth
My words will mean naught
Upon recieving my love
She will detest me on the spot

I am a firm believer in one law
When I speak my true emotions with no less
Then things will work out in the end
Perhaps not how I want, but always for the best

(631.) Just Friends 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're puzzling me to pieces
Pieces I can't place
I have no need for love right now
Arts bring smiles to my face

I shall watch every movie
I shall listen to every song
Actors play their parts
Young then but now long gone

I want your friendship
Please stop giving me your love
I don't want to hurt you
But I cannot make you my dove

I did not lead you on
I just gave you a smile
Passing compliments here and there
I would die for you and have my body dragged a mile

No love, please don't make me break your heart
Your joy is what I want, no, need
But being with me is not meant to be
Listen to my words and take heed

(632.) Celestial Might 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Love does not come easy for us humans
Yet we pray to God for safe passage

(633.) Dr. To The Wife Of Bath 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
My dear madame new of your escapades
Leaves me rather wonderous of your spades

Perhaps you are sick and do not know it
Your sickness makes you wordly, I'll show it

I could examine you for a small fee
To be sure you caught nothing in gallalee

You can afford such a simple check
Perhaps that is more than a mole upon your neck

Though the check is simple, the price is not
My dear, my services must be bought

(634.) Her Scent Linger 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Can they smell it on me?
The smell of where she once was
I feel them search me over with their eyes
But do they see me?
Can they truly see who I am?
Or merely who they want to see?
I let them see what they want me to be
Because at times it's who I want to be
Beneath the skin
Under the mask
I'm here
Happy
Deep in thought
But happy
Where others find fear
I make my bed in comfort
Her scent still lingered on me
They may not smell it
but I do
And I smell their fear
Worry not, I mean no ill chance
I mean only hope for you

(635.) Climax 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
I move them to climax of ecstacy
I spell my love in stars you shall never read

(636.) Plant Carefully Your Seeds 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Teenage love rarely lasts
It's not true love lest you mean it later
After they've broken every dream you gave them
And spat on every thought you've spoken
You still love them.
Stop looking for love in those who know not the meaning
Stop falling if you don't know what will catch you
Even if you somehow find love
It will not always be mutual
But go not unrequited in love
You will give till you are not but bone
They will never wear your flesh as a prideful sign
And you shall never touch their's
Choose where you sow the seeds of love
It is a fickle tree
You need warm adoration shining down
Their touch to grow in
And their love to fee from
You have only so many seeds
Only so many trees can never grow
Before you've nothing left to care for
But yourself
Lonliness is no feast
It is only empty promises
Promises that taste of sadness
Stop trying for love
When all there is to feel is hormones

(637.) Freckled Face 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
As her world came crumbling down
It was crashing down too fast to evacuate
Despite her years of preparing
No amount of time would make the world wait

In all the worries that freckled her face
She was so beautiful
No make-up woul hide her sadness
But no lying could cover up my love so plentiful

(638.) Five Men (Incomplete) 10/21/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Five men stood before the door
I lost count of the stones on the floor
There were more who passed away
But that is neither this nor that way
Love, hope, trust, faith, and death
Each one could easyily be on their last breath
Love was a kind old man who lost his mind
But amongst the five he was the most one of a kind
Hope was young and full of himself
He was fading fast for cancer took his good health
Trust was shy and quite the recluse
For life had slowly tied his neck in a noose
Faith was ignorant, but kind at heart
From trusts side he would never part
Death was tall and the most confident
For the others to the grave he could have sent
Love knew more than all the rest
but his mind and soul were in unrest
Hope would not surrender to the world
Despite mankind being quite unfurled
Trust could not confide in his fellow man
Because he saw the world, and after that no man can
Faith saw the world in simple terms
In black and white his beliefs were firm
Death smiled and spoke unto the men
"Oh my brothers I remember when
The world was young
The words were sung
And we all got along.
But now that beauty is gone, I miss her song."
Beauty was the mother of them all
Of all that stood and those still to fall
Death betrayed no one
Faith picked fights with everyone
Trust was sad and frail
For hope would always try and often fail
Love stopped speaking legibley
But his words were clear to me
Or so I hope
Perhaps he asked a maiden to elope?
We're never sure what he means
Did he just ask for magic beans?
Senile in his old age
But still as wise as any sage
The men say and spoke of care
The boy who was no longer there
Who's sweet innocence warmed their soul
And made the day that much more whole
Death was frightening to those who knew him not
But his friends were calm and not distraught
Death was no one to be feared
He only guided those who needed to be steered
I find comfort in the thought of him
A light where the soul is dim
Gaurding those who lose their way
He brings hope I would say
Yet he still strikes dissent into everyone
If you took time to know him, this would not be done

[altoecko]

(639.) Perhaps My Thoughts Will Return 10/22/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm feeling rather empty,
Not sure what to write
Nothing feels right
Perhaps my thought are gone

(640.) Wearing Make-up 10/22/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Something poetic?
Is that all I need to say?
My heart flutters like fireflies on a summer night
It's ********
just covering up the simple,
In a beautiful way
I'd much rather just say "I'm heart-broken"
but that's not pretty enough
I'm feeling like god himself has groped my insides
the divine feeling of being punished
Just can't be described by "I'm heart broken"
No, fate itself has proverbially ****ed my innards
I just want the pain to stop
This melancholy drifting does me no good
Dolling it up with words does me no better
But I find consolance in those words
Those life jacket like words
Keeping my head barely above depression
I'm sinking
I'm drowning
I'm just sad
Why won't she just let me on the boat?

(641.) This is a bad poem 10/22/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Boo said the ghost of christmas past
They all cried out as the apirition flew fast
Down main street he dissapeared
Fat with food, choking be the only thing he feared
Eat and eat was all he knew
Choked to death becase he didn't chew

Chew his food he did not
So soon to life he said adieu

(642.) Words Fail 10/22/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Why should I lie by saying words?
Words cannot describe this emotion
That it is better to speak
than to keep this feeling inside me
But what is this emotion?
It's not love
It's not friendship
It's wanting to warm you when you're cold
It's wanting to dry your tears
It's wanting to make you happy
So, ****ing happy
But not being able to show it
Because I'm too scared you'll ask
What I call it
And you know not the word

(643.) God's Art 10/25/06
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God's brush sroke
He has painted the very sun into the sky
With small swirls wind awaken the leaves
dancing with each other
with their crimson colors
such as embers round flame
When all the leaves have floated away
when the trees are barren with despair
A simple stroke and blossoms burst with life
One slash of paint strikes down all that stand in God's way
God is an artist
He paints in vibrant love
what is the color of love?
it is the color of the soul
The color of the unknown
to express the enigma
which defines life
with artful care
God will paint us the world
God will manifest us with celestial brush
You say life is ugly
I say it is beautiful
Let us not judge the art of God
Merely admire the picture

(644.) Hold Out, I'm Coming 10/25/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
One room
Two souls
Countless nights of hunger
Poverty makes no friends
Hunger makes only grumbles
Jobs worked to the bone
They're both so tiny
I want to save them
Carry them to a better life
But I'm too young
too inexperienced in the world
worlds apart from me
I hide hope under the milk carton
Hope in the form of a $50 bill
I've no need for it
I have a want
But that is overcome by their need
By my love
Ride out the storm
I'll come save you
Just give me time to mature
When the time comes
I will save you
I will by the God damn grace of my hands
Save you
I will carry you on my back through the flames of hell
To safety
For I love you
I don't want to take you to bed
I want to take you home
You are my family
not of blood
But of love
2 souls
1 love
Countless reasons to hold out

(645.) Topic: Shoes 11/01/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
Walking in ruby slippers
She glides gracefully across the screen
Color temptress of the world
We rest in black and white
But dream in vibrant hues
Our dreams manifest into Gods
beasts
and loves
You were there
he was too
and you were in love

(646.) Topic: Food 11/01/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
If the world was made of gumdrops
the world would be melting
If the world was made of chicken
It'd be half-cooked
If the world was made of Skittles
the blue would kill the red
If the world was made of food
We'd eat it all too fast

(647.) Topic: Hate 11/01/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're blind
Blind with hate
blind with eyes of glass
That shattered and you put them back in
But they're cracked
And the shards keep cutting you
Blind with pain
caused by your own carelessness
Blind because you won't wear the glass
Glasses we made
So what if the remind you of me
Did you learn nothing?

(648.) Topic: Stupidity 11/01/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're just stupid
Backwards
Stupid, you are not just
Look both ways before you cross the street
Don't just trust the word of the blindman
Somethings you just ca't hear
Only when you see both sides,
Look both ways,
Can you be safe
be smart
Don't just blindly cross the road

(649.) Topic: Class 11/01/06
=---------------------------------------------------=
I am in a class all my own
My father could be rich
but he's too stingy
my mother could be poor
if she didn't keep fighting to keep her head afloat
I am too poor to buy these nice things I own
But so rich in experience
I can achieve my goals
my clothes are second hand
from a first hand
My money is my own
worked for in days short and sweet
I live my life for art
for the culture
I am rich in this culture
But poor to you
So when I retire a millionare of taste
And you retire with more money than you know what to do with
Good luck spending it on something besides short spurts of happiness
I've got my dreams
I'll survive on them
And not spend a penny

[altoecko]

(650.) The World Is Full Of Bodies 11/13/06 10:45 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
We are building up too many bodies.
And not digging enough graves
We are following in his teachings
But forgetting how he saves

I pray that you will love me
Even if the world seems it will end
I pray you won't forget me
When you find out it's all pretend

I'd have to say you're wrong
In believing the world is kind
But please continue in song
It seems to ease your mind

The world is full of so much pain in every sight
Won't you stay by my side, and help me wrong every right?

[altoecko]

I've been published 27 times, I even have my own book. I really appreciate your comment, I get so few of them these days.

[Chad]

And here I was still thinking you were doing AABB.

[altoecko]

(651.) Looking In The Mirror 11/28/06 11:45 A.M.
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She was beautiful
Laced with expectations
Slowly the realization of her life
Came flooding in
She was still beautiful
But she was empty

(652.) Meditate 11/28/06 11:47 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Silence
Breathe in
Dissmiss the thoughts
You will see them later
Breathe out
You hear the noise
Breathe in
Ignore it
Spine straight
Breathe out
Rinse
Repeat
Now,
look at the world
with a clear mind

[neobi]

I've been glancing around through some of your poems. Some are good, some are short and reference-less to an outside reader. Perhaps some are better for personal use than public. Posting a picture, or even abstract of something that may match the mood to the poem may help.

Here I'll share one of mine with you...I'll make another topic though as not to intrude. ;-)

[Tex Ritter]

You seem like you have a very limited vocabulary. The language is kind of uninteresting and flaccid to me.

[altoecko]

These poems were short little ones I didn't like all too much. I use big words when I view them neccessary. I didn't think big words were needed to say a woman realized she was empty on the inside. Here, I'll revise it anyways. I hope you enjoy the new version:

(651.) Looking In The Mirror 11/28/06 11:45 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
She was beautiful
Laced with expectations
She unraveled
The eidetic soul she saw
When she peered in her reflection
Made her feel hollow
A sculptured face
With perfect delineation
Was all too insulting
When her mind consumated
Her soul was barren
And no beauty could make up for that

[Tex Ritter]

I actually like that a lot more.
Eidetic might be a tad awkward.
But yeah.

[altoecko]

(653.) Start.......Finish 12/05/06 10:07 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Where do my rights end?
And yours begin?
Does your religion pick up,
right where mine left off?
For I have no religion,
and I suppose yours is now mine
For it is based off absolution,
no?
Fact is overcome by religion!
but does your religion overule my liberty?
I want to be free,
just as much as you.
You got to choose your religion,
now let me choose mine
you've had your turn

(654.) I Envision Endless Fields 12/10/06 11:22 P.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I yearn to walk alongside mountains
And traverse men's watery graves
Notepad in my palm
And loud speakers in my ears
Tellng me of long lost loves
Absolute truths
along with whatever else
makes the world turn
I'd eat mana scraped from the dew
Then write a few verses about how I miss you
I'll act out one man plays
For no audience
Letting my imagination run
Stopping to allow my brain to catch up
Then explore some more
Pretend I'm an aeroplane
Arms spread wide
Running through an endless field

but I'm sitting here
peering over logic's grave
Keyboard under my fingers
And loud speakers sitting in sight
Telling me of New York
and grasping at the unattainable
along with whatever else
tickles my fancy
Eating food barely passable
As itself
Writing out what I'd like to do
if I had someone to miss
Acting out a one-man play
With God as my audience
My brain is racing
And my imagination can't keep up
There's nothing new to see
Pretending I'm lonely
Heart open wide to welcome
And not having a hard time
filling the role

[Fruple]

I just love your poems!! I know I've said that before, but all of the poems that I write and most that I hear can't even compare to what you write. I like how your poems make you think. Not many poems I read have good language and make you think. Very, very good.

[altoecko]

Once again, thank you. =D

(655.) Believing In God 12/14/06 11:06 P.M.
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I never stopped believing in God you see
it was him who stopped believing in me

He'd always be there rooting from the stands
Clapping thunder such as hands

I would tell him of my day
He would always listen to every word I say

Then one day he stopped being there
And I looked everywhere

God was just gone
I didn't know how to go on

I'm still looking for his face
As I miss his warm embrace

Trully this is a place of God
Why would man live his life based on fraud?

Maybe he was just an imaginary friend
Only God will know in the end

(656.) You Lied To Me 12/18/06 1:00 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
You lied to me
As I rested there,
passing away
Gasping for breathes that just weren't there
I stared up at you
There was no sympathy in your eyes
And that hurt worse than dying

(657.) Reflectors 12/18/06 1:06 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
Each reflector on the road passed by quickly
In a never ending numbing pattern
Every one reminded me of another memory long past
So I drove a little faster

(658.) He Offered Me Two Drinks, I Accepted The First 12/18/06 1:09 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I sipped from a dark cup
It spilled over the sides with malice
Tasted such as hell
And it made me want more

(659.) I'm Tired 12/18/06 1:27 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm tired of waking up
And having the world come crashing down on me

I'm tired looking up
And having God spit in my eye

I'm tired of going up
And having my wings burned off

I'm tired of climbing up
And being kicked right back down

I'm tired of showing up
And having no one care

I'm tired of throwing up
And realizing there's nothing in my stomach

I'm tired of growing up
And realizing more about the world

I'm tired of sitting up
And feeling the weight of your guilt push against me

I'm tired of filling up
And knowing I'll never be full

I'm tired of sticking up
And being attacked from both sides

I'm tired of thinking up
And never having my ideas appreciated

I'm tired of putting up
And not seeing an end to the torment in sight

I'm tired of building up
And never reaching my goals

I'm tired of setting up
And having you knock it all down

I'm tired of waking up
And I'm going to bed.

[altoecko]

(660.) Gaurdian 01/03/07 1:56 A.M. - 2:01 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm not sure why she does it
Or if she really does
Sometimes her words are so empty
Yet she still puts her heart into them
In hopes that somehow blood will course through them
And bring the words right off the screen
She's just bleeding all over nothing
Making sacrifices to a God she doesn't believe in
Who may not even exist
But she's trying
And I admire her for that
The amount of faces I see
That smile back at her
Astounds me
Once we had a conversation
Where her words weren't empty
And I think she thought I was one of them
One of the downtrodden orphans of life she took under her wings
She realized something in me,
I'm not sure what.
But she saw it
And her words to me are empty
I fear at times,
that I am what she shields the world from
That great evil we all tremble before
No one's trembling before me
But so many tremble after

(661.) To My Daughter, 01/03/07 2:02 A.M. - 2:03 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
when you arrive I will make you a crown of stars
And teach you that you are queen of all you see
But you must never touch
Without permission

(662.) To My Son, 01/03/07 2:03 A.M. - 2:06 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
when you arrive I will make you a blanket from my dreams
And you will keep warm when you are young
Tie it round your neck to show you are a hero when you are older
And you will sleep with it till you grow old
But you must mend it with your own dreams
Make sure it still keeps you warm
Someday it will warm your son

(663.) Which Girl Shall It Be? 01/03/07 2:07 A.M. - 2:08 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I realized,
As I looked over all the one-of-a-kind designs
They were all the same
With little variances between them
I still couldn't find the one I was looking for
So I kept browsing

(664.) For Future Reference 01/03/07 2:09 A.M. - 2:12 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I apologize,
You don't deserve what I've done
But I have done it
And that can never
ever
be undone
This should not be a poem,
but I'm keeping it here
so one day
when I'm older
I'll read it
And apologize
once more

(665.) Old And Decrepid 01/03/07 2:13 A.M. - 2:16 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I want my mind to grow older than my body
So that I may still talk
when I can no longer move
Tell them not to do what I have done
Tell them how to live their lives
Tell them of all the world I saw
And still be able to realize I'm not talking to anyone

(666.) How Stereotypical 01/03/07 ? - ?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Is it wrong of me,
to want to be him?
Just to prove them all wrong....

(667.) She May Never Read Of This, Let Us Hope She Does 01/03/07 2:20 A.M. - 2:25 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I am entranced with the thought of you
But repulsed by the touch
So I become a cur
And treat you odiously
How far I trully have fallen

[altoecko]

(668.) The Home I Shall Build 01/15/07 ? - 10:43 PM
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I am only as big as my smallest insecurity
So I will take off this armor
And go out into the world to show my weakness
I will take advice from anyone willing to give it
I will try anything once
Take nothing more than I need
Leave with nothing less than gained knowledge
Teach me of your world
I will teach you of mine
Show me where the Earth ends
Then we shall find where it begins together
I'm not here to impress
Merely to watch the world
I'll take my time
Not yours
Never shall I live on borrowed time
Borrowed life
or borrowed money
Make my own world
Live in it
And welcome anyone who wants to come in
From my own depths will I build this home
A home of love
of dreams
of lessons
of life
of me

[altoecko]

(669.) Soft Flesh 01/18/07 6:58 PM - 7:00 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Her flesh was softer than mine
Her words more callous
Freckles dotted her nose
I so longed to connect each one with my finger
She wouldn't allow me to touch her
So I never asked to

(670.) Continued At A Later Date 01/18/07 7:01 PM - 7:02 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Would you be so kind as to move?
I seem to be late to work
We won't be going anywhere if I can't drive
Walk with me, we will talk
You sit there
I stand here
We'll continue our lecture later

(671.) 01/18/07 7:06 PM - 7:07 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I love you,
I always will
My words aren't near as strong
As my actions
But my actions would scare you
And you don't want to read my words
So I'll write them for me
Because I know how much they mean

(672.) Falling Stars 01/25/06 2:56 AM - 2:56 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I keep jumping from falling star
to falling star
Because I'm having too much fun
Always crashing down

(673.) Consolidating The Library 02/06/07 11:25 PM 11:31 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Three thousand little lifetimes
Spread out over eight minuscule days
Building up like bodies after the bombing
Each one told me a different tale
From being born to multiply
To dying to see tomorrow
I didn't hear every speech
I closed their mouth from time to time
I can't handle all those worlds
Just all the world
Give me time
Give me reason
And I'll tell you
The season
In which I'll die
But only if you listen
To a lifetime

(674.) Him There 11:32 - 11:3
=---------------------------------------------------=
He screamed some more
His fist raised
He looked into my eyes
I never flinched
never blinked
He rubbed his hand in pain afterwards
I just stared at him
Calm
With all those words in my eyes
That would shatter his soul if I spoke them
And he knew
He saw something in my eyes
And he knew
He would never make that mistake again
And I knew
I was better than him

[Caciss]

(674.) Him There 11:32 - 11:3
=---------------------------------------------------=
He screamed some more
His fist raised
He looked into my eyes
I never flinched
never blinked
He rubbed his hand in pain afterwards
I just stared at him
Calm
With all those words in my eyes
That would shatter his soul if I spoke them
And he knew
He saw something in my eyes
And he knew
He would never make that mistake again
And I knew
I was better than him

This supposed to be about you and me playing SC, isn't it?

ISN'T IT!?

[altoecko]

Nope, not even close.

[Caciss]

Oh okay then nevermind

[altoecko]

(675.) Smarter 02/09/07 1:37 A.M. - 1:44 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I calmly shared my words with him
He wanted to scream so badly
But he cared too much of what random people thought
He didn't want to make a spectacle of himself
Just last week he preached to me about not caring
About how others viewed him
I apparently don't know my father
I'm the closest person to him
But he swears I don't know him
I've spoken to his ex-wives
His mother
His siblings
His daughter
My brother who might as well be his first child
And they all agree with me
But ofcourse,
None of us know him
He is the universally misunderstood
Martyr for his beliefs
He's playing his film
From a projector onto the wall
But he's putting a stain glass window
Inbetween the two
Apparently it's our fault
For not getting to know him
"I AM SMARTER THAN YOU."
He screams at me
I'm nearly 18 years younger
Than he was when he first made all those mistakes
It's not as if I learned his lesson
Just today either
I knew when I was 5
"Mom, I will never be my father, or my brother."
I remember saying that to her
I remember her smiling
He's more experienced
but sometimes experience doesn't mean
a thing
if you don't know how to use it
I know for a fact he'd make the same choices
As he did back then
if he could
But he's too old
too unattractive
too hated
To have the same power
So he claims he's learned his lesson
"I'll never make those mistakes again."
He didn't view them as mistakes
I know he still doesn't
I know sometime you're going to read this
And you're going to hate every word
Well, I'm enjoying every second of your agony
Why am I so malicious?
Because you're so heartless in things
You only say half the things you do
Out of worry of us knowing the truth of who you are
Just last week he preached to me about not caring
We've been over this
I've been over the facts
And I'm smarter than you

(676.) It Was Planted On My Birthday 02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Will my memory out live the trees?
Will my children tell my tales to theirs?
Or will I die out a mortal?
Living my short life
And nothing more
I want not the popularity of history
Or the glory of a memory
I just want some man to be happier
Some odd lifetimes down the line
Thanks to the toil of my mind
The sweat of my soul
Give me not your fame
Only let me give you my legacy

(677.) Rippling Kisses 02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I kisser her,
In a moment of love
There was no one there
No memories besides our own
I will never forget the look in her eyes
But there's nothing else
Her taste rests in my soul
Like a stone resting at the bottom of a lake
Skipped across the surface
Leaving no trace of the interaction
But sending ripples in my soul

(678.) <02/14/07
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There's a certain aspect to them
An endless well of life constantly flowing
But it's hidden away
like a brook deep within caverns
No man will wash in it's youthful ambrosia
For it's a river inside of his temple
It's not private
Just not in public
You'll never drink from the eternal though
Because you won't get to know him

(679.) <02/14/07
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He looks so goofy
lip synching
Words from the cords

(680.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
They're holding hands
Exchanging words
Parting ways
Holding more hands

(681.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Playing sad songs on no instrument
That make depressing sounds
Take lessons
Teach yourself
Just for the love of happiness
Play a cheerier song

(682.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Won't you please believe me
Trist is earned
But you never gave me a chance for any
No, you won't believe me will you.

(683.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I sat in fire
To see if it burned
I listened to what others said
But I just had to feel it
for myself
And it burned

I stayed beneath the water
to see if my lungs would collapse
if what they said was true
They were right
and I choked out the last bit
of water

I fell in love
to see what it was like
I listened to what others said
nothing said twice
no definitions
it was glorious
but it ended
and what they said came true
and my heart collapsed
and it burned

(684.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
She stood between me and my reflection
a warm smile
porcelain skin
forceful touch would crack her spirit
And that body could barely hold in such a grand soul
She was a god draped in humanity
Each inch worth more than my whole
Dancing around the room
out of my sight
leaving me forelorn
i saw myself
every useless inch
the meaningless whole
rough hands
weathered eyes
and an unworthy love
I spoke out
"Thank you,
for being you,
and loving me."

(685.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I don't think you're beautiful
I think you're pretty
But not beautiful

I don't think you're amazing
I think you're interesting
But not amazing

I don't think I want to be your lover
I think I'd like to be your friend
But not your lover

(686.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Love is an excuse for logic to fail
Teenagers use it all the time
Rarely anyone knows it's true meaning
And those who do
are ficional

(687.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Sad sons played
for an apathetic crowd
That claims to see God
In oil stains,
grilled cheese,
cracked glass,
and their own reflection

(688.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
he came back
full of false truths
and he filled the rest
full of hope

(689.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're smarter than that
You're chasing love,
but you know better
You've got your entire life in front of you
But you have a different boy every week
Tasting of their lust
I've been down to the water
I've been drunk off that sweet river
With her godlike taste on my lips
But the river from which you sip,
is poisoned by lust
You're better than this
You're beautiful
You know who you are
And you know better.

(690.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
he was speaking in a language
that only men such as him spoke
And he translated it over again in his head
And again
A language of numbers
That explain all of life
I read what he wrote
And he translated again
Into his own language
That none of us knew

(691.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a place beyond your side
And far beyond mine.
Where neither matters
And gardens grow
Meet me there
We will disscuss the world
And smell the flowers

(692.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Fear not the sleeping dreamers
They will wake and ther dreams melt away
Take not lightly the man who dreams waking
He dreams with both eyes open to the world
He will never awake to falsities
Only live to the fruition of his dreams


(693.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I will walk on pathways made of stars
Peering over lakes of black
And breathing in false air
I'm in the dead city
Someday they'll walk on me

[Pagerron]

687 is an intriguing one. I think of the different random reports I see on TV every now and then of people claiming to see images of Jesus or Mary in cinnamon buns and such. Who are the sad sons?

I really like 676 "It Was Planted on My Birthday"
Yeah, to leave a legacy to those after us. To make a mark here somehow. Nice. That one really made me think. I mean, we must be here for some reason.

[altoecko]

The sad sons are the sons of Christ.

(694.) My Privilege 02/26/07 12:09 AM - 12:12 AM
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I shall eat a single apple
And call it dinner
I never heated the food I said I would
More important things to attend to

I will do what I want with my life
And call it my right
It's my world after-all
Isn't it?

I'm not sure what my life is anymore.
But I'll call it a privilege
Treat it as such
And take it for granted

[altoecko]

(695.) It Was So Depressing 10:14 PM - 10:17 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Death walked slowly towards us
She reached out her hand for me
I grabbed it
But it was already cold
The look in her eyes told me to pull
Please in the name of everything I hold dear
Pull
I did
But she didn't move
Her wings crumpled beneath the blows
Mine too weak from battle to help
And I pulled
And pulled
And kissed her
And held her to my chest
So she could hear my life still coursing
And I cried to death
"Take me instead, please oh please, take me instead."
Her hands were cold
Her cheeks were cold
Her heart was silent
But her eyes begged me to keep trying

[altoecko]

(696.) Impress The World? 03/01/07 12:54 AM - 12:57 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
She pointed out that I commented on my own speech
As if constantly writing notes for my autobiography
And questioned herself,
perhaps he is trying to impress someone?
no, you have impressed everyone you could ever want to
Then why?
Because I would rather impress myself
and make my mother proud
Than impress the world
And she is proud no matter what I do,
so that leaves only one thing left
Impress myself

(697.) Open Flames I Share With You 03/01/07 12:57 AM - 1:00 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Our joy is an open flame
and all others are a hearth
waiting to accommodate
Our sorrow is a never ending glass of water
and others basins waiting to be filled
Share in your burden so that your glass may not break
but do not drown others so that theirs may
Warm others hearts with your happiness
but do not smother them with your flames

(698.) The World Is Too Much With Us? 1:00 AM - 1:07 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
He said the World is too much with us
And I believe him
For I want all the world to be with me
She said we are our own infinite
That she was part of it
And all was an extension of her
but human logic is flawed in this way
I believe that there is a limit
To infinite
There is a number
that is the highest we can ever achieve
and it is one less
than the lowest
I told her of the religion
Where we are all one
She said she hated religion
I love religion
I want true religion
For in true religion,
I find true life
She called it nothing more than Death Insurance
I call it reassurance
but I shall never know true religion
until it is too late
so I shall work backwards
I will find true life
And then find true religion
But true life for me
is so different for others
Thus their true religion must also be different
I think I speak of spiritual humanism
Least that is what my fore-fathers named it
I call it truth
I want not to hamper anyone's happiness
Ghandi said be the change you wish to see in the world
I live my life on this
I do not impose on others
what I believe to be true
As I said
True life for me
is not true life for all
Truly then,
the world IS too much with us

[Pagerron]

RE: 697

Sharing our sorrow with others to ease our burdens a bit and sharing our joys without being overbearing. A good poem about being able to do that without excess. Nice one.

Would you say that for you, altoecko, joy and happiness are the same thing?

RE: 695

When Death reached out her hand, and you grabbed it, and her wings crumpled beneath the blows while yours were too weak from battle, what does that mean? Were you both angels fighting in a spiritual battle of sorts?

I really like the imagery in this one. I can picture Death all cold. Her eyes staring into yours hoping for you to press on. So Death dies. That's a mind-blower.

[altoecko]

For the first question I'd have to point you to a much wiser man than I, for I agree with what he said. From Khalil Gibran's The Prophet:

"Then a woman said, "Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow."

And he answered:

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.

And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.

And how else can it be?

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?

And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."

But I say unto you, they are inseparable.

Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.

Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.

When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall. "

For the latter questions, I actually meant that Death was walking towards me an my love who I was holding in my arms. I wrote it after seeing a picture of two fairies trying to run away with broken wings while one was pretty much being dragged behind. The entire time an omninous man in a black cloak seemed to be slowly walking behind them. Looking back on the poem I understand where the confusion lies. I think I'd like to leave the poem as it is, open to interpretation. I enjoyed how you saw the picture.

[Pagerron]

Oh, wow. I totally misread that. I guess I just bypassed the pronoun "us" and assumed that Death was a female in the poem. That's something. I totally see now what you were writing about and it makes a lot more sense than what I thought it was. :) Cool, well, I enjoy reading your poetry altoecko.

[altoecko]

I'm glad someone does. :)

(699.) My Sentence 03/05/07 10:15 PM - 10:20 PM
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I have recieved my sentence
I shall die someday
and go to hell
or be reborn lower on the chain
or cease to be
or many other possible things
each one more depressing than the last
unless I repent
accept blindly what others offer me
drink from cups stained with many lips
poisoned with human greed
but based in human purity
how am I suppose to know the amount of poison?
drink
and know that someday I will die
a second death
or abstain
and die only once

[altoecko]

(702.)I'm Too Cocky 03/06/07
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You watch me
Label me as weird
As if your opinions
Would somehow cure me
of this wretched disease
you've diagnosed me with
Each and every part of me
I have poured my blood and tears into
crafted from diamonds in my soul
it is a tower of me
you may strike it's walls
but I will mend your scars
to you it looks like a shack
to me it is a home
Just because
you don't udnerstand
the paint splattered on a canvas
doesn't make it any less
than someone's soul
portrayed forever
I am my soul
I show you my soul
Show some gratitude
It's my gift to you

(703.) 300 12:28 PM - 12:32 PM 03/10/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Any man struck down by injustice
Will go out in a blaze of glory
Brighter than any star
Warmer than any hell
It will burn into the memories of all who witness it
And echo in every ear that hears it's tale
They die, so that you may live
Remember them

[altoecko]

(704.) Ye Of Little Faith 03/11/07 8:17 PM - 8:20 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Countless reasons
Why I ride no zephyr
or follow no rivulet
But only a few
For why I am carried by a tornado
Or lead by an ocean
I shall be guided by your wind
And ride on your river
I have a single reason
It is love

(705.) Monsters Here 03/11/07 8:25 PM - 8:28 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a monster at my door
Who's tapping ever gently
There's a monster in my room
Who's sleeping ever lightly
There's a monster in my soul
Who's living ever shortly
There's a glimmer in their eyes
That's begging for forgiveness

(706.) Anywhere 8:30 PM - 8:34 PM 03/11/07
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He stands at the alter
Looking at the door
The crowd is silent
And she's crying somewhere
Anywhere
But there
He never shows sadness
Only understanding
That he was not good enough
He leaves his love on her doorstep
And departs for somewhere
Anywhere
But there

[truekid]

i like the thematic rhythm (air-water~) within the lines in "ye of little faith", and i really liked your line breaks and contextual interaction of the repeated text in "anywhere".

i seriously think those two are my favorite of what you've posted in this thread so far... which may be more an indicator of how much i appreciate form supporting function than anything else, lol.

to note, you do a lot of free-form stuff and it doesn't pique my interest as well, especially since i don't see the words used in a way that's new/inventive very much. i was going to say "cliched", but when i thought about it, i reckon that's not the right word... you've got reasonable diversity of phrasing and subject. it's more just that you don't tend to surprise me with where you're going, or how you're getting there. so when i see you add a little bit of form to it, give yourself a few hurdles you have to jump over with your wordings, it grabs my attention much more.

[altoecko]

Surprisingly the most common complaint of my poetry is that it rhymes too much. Oh well, here what do you think of these poems:
(I had to make this a picture, notepad doesn't transfer well to vBulletin)

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v54/Altoecko/Emotes/Poem709.jpg

(710.) Simple Math 3:35 PM - 3:40 PM
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Two Two
Times
Three Three Three
Equals
Six Six Six Six Six Six

Three Three Three
Times
Three Three Three
Equals
Nine nine nine nine nine nine nine nine nine

And

Two Two
Times
Two Two
Equals
Four Four Four Four

But

One
Times
One
Equals
One

One
Plus
One
Equals
Two Two

And

Two Two
Plus
Two Two
Equals
Four Four Four Four

But


Plus

Equals



And others I've written:

(707.) I Won't Claim To Be What I Am Not 12:45 AM - 12:52 AM 03/13/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a head resting on my shoulders
And it's putting pressure on my soul
Ernest Hemingway once said:
"Happiness in intelligent people
is the rarest thing I know."
I can see the truths behind their lies
And the ignorance in their intelligence
"Drugs take away the stings
Of everyday life"
Life is hard,
But compared to what?
I found solace in his caring
And his freedom
His soul was noble
And he gave me a chance
So few people give chances
So few people
There was a crab inside his body
Nipping away at his hope
But he kept smiling
Never once did I see his face
Merely his soul
And it was smiling


(708.) Gin 11:05 PM - 11:09 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Her face was always pretty
But her love wasn't always clean
She spread a lot of loving
But she was always mean
My old friend Gin kept old men warm
And left some young men out in the storm
Always enticing us to get drunk on pretend
She was just my friend
Never my lust
She never once gained my trust
I saw what she did to other men
Oh cruel woman
My old friend gin

[altoecko]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v54/Altoecko/Crests/ThanksGhandi.jpg

(712.) Grave Sleeping 12:15 AM - 12:15 AM 03/21/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I will lie in my grave
And think of all the things
That I could have been
And cherish all the things I had become


(713.) Read Red Book
=---------------------------------------------------=
Read red book
Bring back black
You're pink with love
And I'm green with envy

(714.) Goodbye Father
=---------------------------------------------------=
Short, simple
No love
Just a handshake
Goodbye father

(715.) The World Is Cold
=---------------------------------------------------=
Hold my hand
I can't feel the world again
And I'm scared

(716.) Not The Movies
=---------------------------------------------------=
A little boy fishes for stars
A lion roared
And the credits rolled on

(717.) Gods Game
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're young
too young for such affairs
surely you realize
that love is a game of the Gods
where lives hang not only in the balance
but also on the scales
Your weight is too much
for you still have your whole life before you
It's not weighing you down
merely lifting you up
You bet your fate when you claim love
fulfill your lust if you must
But stop playing with the Gods
Stay at the base of the mountain
and keep living
you're young still

(718.) On The Limb
=---------------------------------------------------=
I looked out the window
At the autumn trees outside
They were ablaze with sunshine
And battling away the dark clouds

There on a limb
I saw your eyes
The color of your Iris
The jade sea of hope

Once again I could not focus
I was lost in your eyes again

(719.) Days Thoughts
=---------------------------------------------------=
She spread out peanut butter
Chopped 3 bananas
Put the loaves together
And remembered the day

(720.) Blood or Milk?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Should I drink of milk?
Or of blood?
They offer both
I'll drink of milk today
And blood tomorrow

(721.) Drunk On Sobriety
=---------------------------------------------------=
I walked barefoot on fallen petals
and felt your soft skin on my arm
hand's intwined much the same
as our fates
I picked you a flower
And smelled of your perfume
I was drunk off our love
And high off your scent
Then you left
And I stopped picking flowers
I was sober on logic
And grounded by isolation

(722.) Never Be Whole Again?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Here, take a piece of me with you
let it warm you when you are cold
Let it cry when you are sad
It will comfort youw when the world is cruel
It will love you even when you're filled with hate
It will be there when they all leave
It will care when nothing matters
But remember,
without you here
I can never be whole

(723.) Highscores
=---------------------------------------------------=
Pieces fit together perfectly
Clearing the screen
No highscores
But i still put in my name

(724.) Schools of Thought 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I have hope in people
But I realize we make mistakes
I suppose that makes me a realist
I know that nothing last forever
And things that do
never seem to be beneficial
I must be a pessimist
But I know if we work together
if we all strive towards perfection
Then we can achieve something worth having
we just need faith in each other
Optimism must be the school I am taught in
Stop classifying
We're all different,
in the same ways
That doesn't mean we're insignificant
It means we are human

(725.) Nature is Natural, Okay John Stuart Mill? 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
The river never runs just how you want it to
The sky is rarely your perfect shade of blue
Every atom doesn't bond in just the right way
Black just isn't black enough
Perfection is what we strive for
nature is what we settle for

(726.) Someday We'll Get There 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Nothing is perfect
Not your God
Not my God
and certainly not us
But that doesn't mean we can't try to achieve it


(727.) You're Worth Something To Me 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Religion seems to be the natural way of man
to destroy his own ego
"I am unimportant
so I give unto the lord
all that I am."
I am ignorant
but I refuse to give up
who I am.
Pride is not the issue at hand
More so self-worth

(728.) Oh, I Never Realized 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
So, I'm pessmistic?
Thank you pot,
This kettle will takes your words to heart.

(729.) Take Take Take 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Just because you like it
Doesn't mean I will
Just because you need it to live
Doesn't mean you should take it from me
I will gladly give all I have
if you only ask
But realize that what I have
is for everyone
You can have as much as you need
But please think of others

[altoecko]

There's a disease inside of me
Correction
I am a walking cesspool of diseases
Not because I am frivolous in my partners
Because my father was
Probably becaue my mother was uncareful
But I finally,
don't blame them
I sit here and accept
that blaming them won't make it go away
oh I realized that long ago
but never accepted
I'm not going to heaven
I'm not going to hell
I will not cease to be
I will not be reborn
I will live forever
In every little thing I touch
In every word I scratch out
God damnit I will
but
but
my name
I will attach it to these works
And I will be vain
Accepting this praise
I wish I could use the excuse of being
merely human
but pinning blame
will do me no good
I forgive anyone
who earnestly asks for my forgiveness
A lot of good that will do them
My words are useless
my thoughts worth no more
than another man's
my pains no greater than any other's
For we are better than this
and we shall learn
and correct ourselves
work towards the future
Start taking responsibility
Accept the sins of those before us
Stand strong
Heads held high
We shall walk into the future
I am a walking cesspool of hope
Correction
I have hope in us.

[altoecko]

(730.) Such Heavy Hearts
=---------------------------------------------------=
She spoke
Of pain unincumbered by thought
I felt her words
And buckled under their weight

(731.) Lucidity
=---------------------------------------------------=
I want to close my eyes
Then bleed into your memories
Touch each finer to my thumb
Recounting every moment
Anchoring every thought
To an emotion
An emotion I no longer feel
But in my dreams

(733.) The Wall 04/12/07 10:27 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
She
standing such as a rock
battered by the sea
Held her ground

He
Beating away at the wall
that imprisoned his people
Was cracking her defenses

I watched them debate
over trivial matters
That spawned more
more
more
personal attacks

The wall fell
and crushed all those that fought it

(734.) Grim Fate We Have Here No? 04/12/07 10:29 PM - 10:35 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Black empty eyes
Light red makeup spewing forth from the darkness
skin
or lack thereof
pale as bone
soft as wind
skinny fingers
grasped firmly
a scythe
edge curved
leading to
sharpness
accuracy
division
splitting even the atoms around it
long legs
to carry the weight of the world
as far as it need go
from
heaven
to
Earth
from
end
to
end
He reaped
Not souls
but will
men lost
in their own
self-defeatings
self-acctualizations
egos
he showed them
what lie
just beyond the door
then told them they'd never make it
out
in
anywhere
they were stuck in that quagmire
of life
patterns repeated
souls to free themselves
and the grim man
was not a reaper
but a preacher

[Perversion]

I've gotta take some time to read through some of these....I like post #166, in reference to what we talked about.

I like what I've read so far of your stuff. It'll just take me a while to get through the backlog.

[Misty]

Altoecko is the Pavvie Poet. :)

I'm sorry I didn't get to comment on your poetry earlier, Alto. I'll say now what I've thought in my heart a long time ago....your poetry is outstanding. Long have I admired your poetic expressiveness. I know I should have left feedback in the past....I apologize for not doing so.

Anyways, keep up the awesome poetry, and never stop writing.

.....or else I'll kill you.

:D

[altoecko]

Thank you, both of you. It helps to know people read these. =D

[altoecko]

(735.) Happiness is a Choice 04/16/07 1:31 AM
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"Happiness is a choice."
(A.) But
(B.) which
(C.) one
(D.) is
(E.) it?

(736.) I'm Too Young For This **** 1:34 - 1:35 AM
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I broke it
I picked it up
and it crumbled between my fingers
it's ashes shifted through my palm
I just stared in disbelief
I have destroyed beauty
is there no greater crime?
I'm not ready for this
responsibility
she trusted me
I'm too young for love

[altoecko]

(737.) Teacher's Bed 04/11/07
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He taught us of his ways
And he spoke in a gentle tone
His thirst for knowledge
Was beaten only by his love
of teaching
As if every new thought
Spawned seven more
That he had to share
It was like a virus
On his death bed
he spoke gently
as he asked us questions
"Teacher even when you are frail and dying
you thirst for more?"
There is always more to learn.
As teachers,
our ultimate hope
is that students will continue learning
Always.

(738.) This Poem Is Horrible 04/11/07
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The method of our teachers
Working towards the goal
They must treat some as equals
And others as superiors

The method of the students
Working towards the goal
They must treat some as equals
And others as superiors

Never look down your nose
For you'll see nothing but
a mirror

(739.) Believe in Yourself 04/11/07
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Your religion
It seems to be the natural law
Am I right?
It destroys your ego
I've seen it countless times
I climbed the mountain of Maslow's needs
And I held my hand out to you
I pulled up
But your religion dragged you down
You say you are worthless
Give your life unto the lord
Believe in what you want
But please,
Believe in yourself


The rest of these are written from whatever words my friends gave me to write about. The words are the title if you can't tell.

(740.) Statistics 04/16/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I've collected all the data
Found your Z*
Calculated the standard deviation
made clear the true population proportion
Alpha is at .01
And I can tell you with
a 99% confidence interval
You suck

(741.) Horse 04/16/07
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You say you're a stallion
Long mane like black beauty
Hung like a horse
Well,
I talked to your ex
You're a coward
Your beauty is weathered
and dissapears when you get close
And you're hung like
a pony

(742.) Crap 04/16/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
You smell of it
You wreak of it
You open your mouth and excrete it
You are it
You live it
Breathe it
****ing sleep in that ****
Yet you have a point
But I'll just be ignorant
Smell you
Instead of getting
To know you

(743.) Expectations 04/16/07
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If I don't dress nicely,
why should I expect you to?
You get back what you put in.
That's why I don't expect a goddess
I'm undeserving of beauty
But is it wrong of me to dream?

(744.) Tree 04/16/07
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it dropped a thousand acorns
that all rolled down the hill
not every one made it
but the few that did
hated their father
for leaving them at the bottom
of life

(745.) School 04/16/07
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Each day we came
Each day we prayed
To all the Gods
of the modern age
Hail logic!
Hail Science!
Trully God is here!
And we are studying in him
Nay
We are becoming him

(746.) Peanut 04/16/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
she shriveled up
in the corner
scared
and ashamed
to see the outside world
when society boiled her for reality
she was too
small
and frail
She just hid in the corner

(747.) Truth 04/16/07
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You speak a thousand lies
But you know them as truths
I speak a thousand truths
But you know them as a lie
Who's the liar here?

(748.) I Give Up 04/16/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
The flag has flown
The wounds fresh
Filled with salt
Morale is low
My head is lower than hell
The pain greater than God
And I'm done
So why the **** do you keep attacking?

(749.) Calculate 04/16/07
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Cold
Scanning
This has all been done before
So he tries something
He tallies the choices
And pulls the trigger

[altoecko]

(750.) Washing Feet 04/19/07 10:03 PM - 10:05 PM
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There's a river in my heart
And it's running dry
No one comes to drink of it
No one really cares
Trash lines the banks
Washed up from upstream
It all leads to the ocean
Where it's just lost
Lost on all those other hearts
Who could care less
But someone comes by every so often
Picks up the bottles
Dips in their feet
And thanks God for me being there
My rapids still go strong
Just so I can wash your feet

[altoecko]

(751.) Wink Away 04/23/07 12:15 AM - 12:16 AM
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Ah, it would seem the heavens parted
lowered to us an angel
Who winked
And somehow melted away our worries
Push on

(752.) A Single Idea 04/23/07 12:15 AM - 12:37 AM
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He came
With an idea
He planted it firmly in fertile ground
He cut a piece of his heart
And wrapped it round the seed
Others came to water it
To mend it's leaves
To marvel in it's beauty
They hung their ornaments on it's branches
From the moment it was strong enough to bare them
They took comfort in it's shade
and ran their fingers along it's trunk
feeling every indention
Speaking of every carving they made
But who's tree was it?
The man's surely!
He provided it's womb
it's fetus
it's birth
no no no
The first people surely!
They made sure it grew right
protected it from the weather
shielded it from the axe of fate
guarded it from the world
no no no
It was those that came later!
Sure,
the others grew the idea
but they left it to be tended by those after
who swung from it's branches
long before those of the modern age
who first carved their names upon it's coat
who made sure the tree kept growing
But what about those now?
They helped the hope grow back
Because in their fighting
They never noticed the idea dying right next to them
It's everyones
Those
who guarded it
lost control of
those
who abused it
And did nothing better than blame the others
Let us band together
Work side by side
And bring springs gentle rays
To wash over
To drown out the apathy that poisons its' roots
To make better
What we all made worse
There will be an idea
Firmly rooted in the ground
To show those that came before
To shade all those that are here
And it's fruit shall feed those who come after
Now if you'll excuse me
I must tend to my obligations

(753.) Anyone? Anyone At All? 04/25/07 3:27 PM - 3:33 PM
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DOES ANYONE SEE WHAT I SEE?
Or am I truly blind to the facts around me?
I must be to have so many people disagree with me.
I want to help so much
I was called a hypocrite today.
Is that what I am?
What does it take to prove what I believe to be true?
I thought time would do that.
Does it truly require that I starve myself to near death?
That's how Buddha got his original disciples.
I can do that
I don't want to though
I want to enjoy my life
just as much as they do
But they have power in their numbers
All I have is my voice,
What my soul tells me is right,
And a mountain of work ahead of me
I don't want to harm anyone
I respect everyone's choices
They just won't respect mine
It's so sad
Man will not learn at times lest he is repramanded
I do not want to crack any whip
But you keep making the wrong choices
Am I really as mature as my elders say I am?
Or am I just as immature as everyone else
Too blinded by youth to see it
I hope I'm not mature
I hope I'm wrong
It would sadden me so greatly if so many are truly wrong

(754.) It Won't Make It Go Away 04/27/07 12:29 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
She looked in her reflection
And show someone else
She kept brushing her teeth
Ignoring the stranger she recognized.

(755.) Kind Deeds 04/27/07 12:30 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I apologize
I'll stop bragging
It takes away the glory
I truly am sorry
I will continue my actions
Just limit my words

(756.) And Who Could That Be? 04/30/07 ? - 1:35 AM
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There's a fine line between
That which we can hold
And that which we can grasp
Love is something we can hold
But I fear we'll never grasp it

I am a man(boy) of solitude,
because people are so fragile
Like an antique shop
I will gladly look
But I'm so afraid to touch
Surely my fingers will turn
porcelain to dust

I'm a needy little flower
Not a demanding one though
Water me occasionally
Shower me with sunshine
When the clouds aren't out
And I'll be fine

I'm going somewhere
I'm not fully sure where
Could even be nowhere
But I'll get there

I'm stuck in the muck and the mire
Feeding coal into a self-sustaining fire
The flames may rise
But they'll just die back down

I'll share the warmth
But I'll need a hearth

So will you be a sun?
Warm me with a hug
Shower me with affection
Help me grow

Or just a shovel
Drowning me in soot
Feeding a never-ending flame
Helping me inflate full of emptiness

I'm not looking for love
It can find me
And I will greet it at the door
But it'll have to earn my trust
Before I ever let it in

I hear a rapping
An ever gentle tapping
Is it you at my door?

[altoecko]

(757.) Other Languages 05/02/07 11:24 PM - 11:26 PM
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I think we spend our lives
Trying to learn another language
Than that we're born into
Some people study Spanish,
French,
Japanese,
or
any other language such as this
I myself have engrossed myself
in the language of thought
of interaction
Philosophy
Psychology
I'm no expert
But I'm honing my skills
I can pronounce my words right
Sound out each part of my words
Get the meaning across
But while I'm getting better at speaking
I'm still horrible at translating
Does she even like me?

(758.) Holding Hands 05/02/07 11:27 PM - 11:27 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Life isn't all about
holding hands and writing poems
But I wish it were
She told me her life was
So we held hands
And I wrote this poem

[truekid]

thumbs up to "Tree" and "Holding Hands"

[altoecko]

(759.) 05/02/07 3:54 PM - 3:55 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
A reason for choosing you?
Let me think...
I don't need one.
No metaphors here.
Just, me.
I should hope that's reason enough for any emotion.
No reason at all.

(760.) I'll Buy That Camera Someday 05/05/07 ? - 4:23 PM
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I tried taking a photograph
Of that pulchritudinous face
But realized
it wasn't her face that I wanted to keep
And I didn't have a camera
That could capture such a sumptuous
soul

(761.) Awaking In Silence 05/06/07 11:21 PM - 11:22 PM
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in those gentles silences
in the abscence of her voice
i worry
my mind makes connections
to feelings i don't understand
axons sending messages
to recievers that should be dead
but fresh emotions awakin
and i am lonely
when all i should be
is thankful

(762.) Myself 05/06/07 11:23 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
It's true
everyone has a standard
A Christ
A Buddha
That they strive to be
Is it truly wrong of me
to strive to be myself?

That's me there on that cross
Sitting beneath that tree
Dwelling in the abstract
Of lines dividing into trinity

There's a gentleness in my eyes
And scars all over my flesh
Marks from all my sacrifices
I have begun to mesh

Indentions on my soul
Where words have lashed
But I'm still moving
Shoddy, rusted, needing oil and gas and faith

But I am still living
Breathing
Becoming
Myself


(763.) Those Smiles Keep Distracting Me 08/05/07 4:52 AM
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I'm such a sucker
For a prety girl with a smile
I stopped holding her hand
And wrote this poem

(764.) Ugly 08/05/07 7:24 PM - 7:25 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm an ugly man
With ugly hands
That make ugly art
That I show to other ugly people
Who welcome frank in for a visit
Then we talk of beauty
As we sip our ugly liquids
Or drag our ugly habits
We live in ugly houses
Bought with ugly money
Made in an ugly society
But we're aiming for beauty
And there's something beautiful about that

[altoecko]

(765.) 13/05/07 4:33 PM - 4:35 PM
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I saw a man and his wife
Sitting on the street
Their two children
At the end of leashes
Obidiently sitting
Waiting for mama
and papa
To make enough to feed them
The couple's bags
were large with clothes
and trinkets
from adventures across the world
They were selling junk
made into art
and jewewlry
I gave them $2.11
My step-father said
"You're only encouraging them."
"Good."
Was the only way I knew
to respond


(766.) If I Say It Is, Let's Hope It Is 14/05/07 12:33 AM - 12:42 AM
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I wanted to write a love poem
This is a love poem
Because I said so
Her eyes were small
The large glasses framed them
And made them seem even smaller
He winked as he pushed them off
She doesn't know what she wants from life
**** me
That's right
Telling me that will surely make it better
My brain is showing!
New skin
new day
And I think I want a tatoo on the back of my neck
I'll shave my head on the 25th
There is no poetic allusion here
Or is there?
I don't know
This is a love poem
Atleast I think so
The other girl
She was a *****
No two ways around it
But she hid it well
Quick to judge
But fun loving
They were both fun loving
RAGE
RAGE AWAY
Just for a kiss
The end of the world
Over a ****ing kiss
God he's a monster
There should be a comma there
Right?
God COULD be a monster
I mean....
Anything is possible
There she was
sitting on his lap
telling him what she wanted
I wonder if she ever got it?
he was getting on a plane
and leaving
running away
from all his sins
they still will fester in his mind
new beginings
lies
liars
This is a love poem
I hope
Because I feel something
And I don't know what else to call it

(767.) 770-286-2204 05/14/07 12:55 AM - 12:58 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Please
Ring
Vibrate
Sing to me
Bring me good news
Great news
Give me hope
Wake me up
To make me smile
Ignore that I'm angry
Ignore that I'm sad
I'll fill you up every night
And you'll shine bright
Every night
Every day
Your display hints an your innards
but I'll never know if you don't open up
Pull out your antenna
Pick up my waves
Realize I'm calling
Answer
Because I want to hear your sweet voice
Over a phone
And nothing else quite makes the silence
Seem so silent
As the absence of your voice

(768.)
=---------------------------------------------------=
There it was
That twang on my heart string
her smile was sweet
He didn't care
I could have a girl
Not any girl
But I could have a girl
Doesn't she realize that?
She can have a boy
Oh she can have a boy
I'm sorry I keep turning you gals down
You can have me I guess
But I don't want to be bogged down
I don't want to break any hearts
On second thought
I can't have a girl
I'm not responsible enough

(769.)Can't Hear You 05/15/07 10:52 PM - 10:54 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
God,
Can you hear me?
If so speak up,
I can't hear you.
I never could hear you.
I wondered if I was deaf
When all the other kids said they heard you
I still can't hear you.
I can't feel you
I don't know you
But I want to
Just no one seems to answer
When I call out at night
No human
No God
Nothing inbetween
It's lonely
And I can't hear you.

(770.) 05/15/07 10:55 PM - 10:58 PM
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Jewels laid washed on the shore
As his face kept changing
No.
His face stayed the same
No flesh
Different hats
Different hair
Same look in his eyes
My brain
Is br
ok
en
ne
ko
rb
Hands had flesh
Gray wings molted everywhere
he held it
held it tight
Nothing more beautiful
Nothing at all
Man asked a question
God didn't know the answer
Man made God
God made man
The cycle was nice
But where did it start?
It starts now
With this thought
Life is born
Life ends
Life becomes
Life

[altoecko]

(771.) 05/20/07 3:00 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I want to hold you in my arms
and wish away the
days and nights
Forget about the
delays and fights
I just wanna love you

(772.) God Damn I Hope She Remembers 12:58 AM - 1:00 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a fog rollin in
But I got a fan
There's a tide washin up
But I got a plan
I'll hold you tight
Won't shut-up
We've got all night
To talk
Open up
Won't you please talk with me?
Let me in
I want to see
Just how you tick
Oh God....
I'm writing ****ty rhyming love poems again.
I can't give up my artistic integrity.
Well maybe I can,
But only for you
.....damnit

(773.) It Seers It's Marks In My Eyes 05/21/07 ? - 9:13 PM
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This is anger
So rarely do I understand my emotions so clearly
But this...this is anger in it's purest form
It is irrational
So I do not express it
But it is still inside me
There is no denying that
I worry
For I fear nothing
And that scares me
So I must worry about other's fears
This is for every coward
Who idly stands by
And allows for the destruction of what he loves
I am angry
Calm
But filled with rage
I will craft it into a weapon
of purest intent
And strike fear in the heart
Only my heart though
No need to share this burden
I reached out
To preserve what I consider beauty
And it recoiled to my touch
Because a coward dangled it from a string
Anger
That is what I feel
It burns me
It rips me inside out
And keeps me warm
I will use my anger for better things
Before I end up hating you.

(774.) ? ? ?
=---------------------------------------------------=
I saw a strike against beauty
A tear in her eye
And some bastard somewhere
May very well be going unpunished
For the gravest crime I know

(775.) ? ? ?
=---------------------------------------------------=
He is a good man
Does his work when asked
Friends to anyone who wants one
Charming
Always smiling
Girls pay him no mind
No mind more than a shoulder to cry on
He deserves a good girl
But all he has is a cup of tears
A few tread marks
and a smile

(776.)
=---------------------------------------------------=
I was a child
And I put on shoes too big
And a belt so loose
And an knowledge too small
But I claimed adulthood
Much to learn
Much to see
Stop growing up so fast
You only seem to ruin things in your hurry
Be mature
Not impatient
The bird sings of lost loves
The sea responds with death
That boy rests on it's shores listening
Maturing
But I am not that boy
And no one sings me a song
But I sit and listen
Waiting for a note
To carry itself to me
So I can grow up
I try singing my own song
It too falls on deaf ears
I've broken beauty
Listen to your own advice
"Don't just be a knight in shining armor."
"Human emotions are no game."
She probably hates you now
And what do you do?
You write a poem
That you'll never show her
We hunt
That which retreats
From us
You know that.
Why did you chase her?
I wanted her to make her feel better
But look what you've done
I know
God do I know....
A thousand apologies
you give her
But,
if you hadn't been so brash,
to begin with
not a single one would be needed
Stop and rebuild
And feel horrible
That you leave her to rebuild herself
Justifiable?
Unwanted help is more hurtful than helpful
Just feel bad
And move along
Sing a song
That will fall on deaf ears
Have your feet washed over by death's murmurs
And wait for someone to sing back

(777.)
=---------------------------------------------------=
He offered the only thing he had left
His sanity
And they eagerly accepted
And so he bought it
His freedom
From rational thought

[altoecko]

(778.) Tempation Is A Cream Soda, Caring Is My Blood 05/31/07 3:04 AM 3:07 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Speak to me of logic
Touch me with your lust
I see all the error in your words
Your two-sided words
But I still held on
Despite the burning
The simple pain of it all
Drowning in my own faith
Did I seal any holes?
Or just open more wounds?
the after-taste of this sadness
is oddly happier than I expected
So I lick temptation off this fork
Drank of much caring
Not a drop of my sustenance
do you want
or probably need
Can't stop me from offering though.

(779.) My Vow 5:45 PM - 5:58 PM 05/31/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Please don't make me go
I want to stay and help them
Every last one
Let me be reborn again
So I can help more
Don't make me just die out
This candle will burn forever
If you let it
PLEASE
Let it
They are not meaningless
Because I give them meaning
I have no authority
But here,
hold my hand
I will let you know
I am real
You are real
We are real
You are not alone
You are unique
Why?
because you have me
You deserve more
But I can't give you more
I give you all that I have
Oh
Do you not understand?
You're not just another fun for me
You are a purpose
A reason
And I would like to be your reason
You are special
I will not ask for more than I need
I will not disrespect your gifts by taking less than you offer
But I will spread your gifts to others
I will not drink of the cup of lust
No matter how much my body craves it
I will only crave you
Who you are
I don't know
BUT I LIVE FOR YOU
And I realize
that you may not live for me


I will falter
But not on purpose
And when I trip
I will not fall
I will recollect and move on
Head high
I will be proud of who I am
I will be ashamed of my actions
But I will be proud of my apologies
of the lessons I learn
Of my actions to prevent more mistakes
But I will make them
And I will apologize
and I will learn
I wish happiness
For you
and everyone else
because we all deserve it
because I say so
but I know I hold no more bearing
than you
or anyone else for that matter
but that doesn't make what I proclaim
any less important
This goes to those to be born
this goes to those born
this goes to those reborn
unborn
and those who are no longer able to have the word born used about them
I will do something that matters
I will make life better
For all of you
I will honor your memories
I will help you build new memories
I will help
I will do
good
And I will love
I will love everyone
But more so
I will love someone
Very special
I wonder what her name will be
And someday I hope to come back this
And put her name in this hole
I LOVE ___________
This is my proclamation
My creed
My holy text
Full of egotistical babble
I swear my life by these words
I swear my soul on these words
I sign my heart in this poem
I will love you
I will hold you to let you know we are real
I will give meaning where there is none
I will think where there is no thought
And I will never let anyone get lost in the change
Here is my hand
In peace
In civility
In hopes
In dreams
In marriage
In yours
Let's work together
To do
good

(780.) Howard
=---------------------------------------------------=
Eyes raw.
Heart exposed
Not a hole in his chest
or a whole medal on his sleeve
No,
it was in his palm
daring her to take it
to destroy the one thing she desired
daring her to touch
it's mere existance mocking her
"You need me."
No more needed to be said
nothing was said
Much more was implied
She would destroy him
Because no one else deserved to look at him
He was beauty
He was art
He was something made for her
And the fact that others got to see him
Killed her
slowly
But he showed no fear
Every tendon placed perfectly
He was an ugly man
By most standards
but he was an ideal
he was what man should be
and in this he was not man
She tried
every weapon she could find
oh she tried
But he was calm
And her lashes raped his body
but not his being
The soul is real
his body was weak
it did not hold him in
but he was calm
Calmer than anything you could imagine
Only one man saw his anger
And that man bear-witness to the greatest tragedy
in all existence
it was destruction
it was death
from its' ashes he rose
Better
Than all of us
And calmer
He was the proudest man you'd ever meet
But he never judged others
lest they asked him to
She was unimportant
Because she made herself as such
but she could not be anything but herself
when he held her
because she was important
only because he definded her
and whatever else he wanted
Man stood tall
And defied the world
In such,
He defined it

(781.)Harness It 3:53 AM 06/26/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
We have defaced a beautiful planet
That's fine by me
but we should stop it if we can help it
Harness chaos
don't fight it
it only causes more casualties
make your enemies friends
and you shall have no enemies
only friends
who would gladly stab you in the back
if they only had a reason
so don't give them one

(783.) Cold 07/09/07 2:20 AM - 2:23 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Sweet footsteps leave traces
on soft snow
and delicate hands pick icicles
off sleeping trees
while pursed lips sing songs
in a passing breeze
with pure eyes scanning
a sky full of promises but devoid of clouds.
She walks to me
but only in my dreams

(784.) After All These Years 07/09/07 2:25 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I still love her.
No one can take that away.
Not even her.
But when she calls my name
It hurts me,
but I don't come running

(785.) Diesel 07/09/07 2:27 AM - 2:28 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Guilt stains my mind
Forgive me
but there is no one who will forgive me
For he is gone
And only his assurance would clean what I have sullied
Sometimes I wish God was there

[altoecko]

(786.) The Future
=---------------------------------------------------=
We will become our grandparents
We will gripe about how easy kids have it
And how we had to trudge through the internet on 56k modems
And how our TVs weren't always this clean and crip looking
I remember back in my day,
we had to have a tape in the VCR to record anything
I'm not going to complain,
I like the future

(787.) Leave Yourself A Clue Mitchell 4:05 AM - 4:11 AM 07/19/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I wish I had someone to write a love poem to.
Since I have no one, you my friend will have to do.
Why you?
I have no romantic feelings for you, it's true.

I just think you deserve a poem.

You'll read this someday I'm sure.
And perhaps by then I'll forget who this is really for.
by then I'll have a cure,
For this lonely heart that I endure.

But once again, I'm just *****ing.

So,
when you read this just know,
no matter where on this Earth you go
My sentiments will follow.

(Space is apparently too far)

I don't love you romantically.
But I do love you.
And I wish you well.
I wonder if you'll ever know this poem is for you.

(788.) 4:13 AM 07/19/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Don't be so shy.
I mean no harm.
I want only,
your smile.

(789.) THIS is art. 4:24 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
As if I needed his approval
To decide if something was art or not.
I'll be the judge of that
So stop ****ting on everyone else
And just keep ****ting out that crap on paper

[altoecko]

(790.) I Can Feel Your Smile 07/29/07 8:13 AM -
=---------------------------------------------------=
I can feel your smile.
And it is fake.
I miss the warmth of your old smile.
The smile that I brought out.
The one you showed me when I made you laugh.
When I did something special for you.
This smile,
I can feel it,
and it is sad.
Your sadness pains me.
but the fact that I can't comfort you.
Pains me more.
What happened to the smile I fell in love with?
I still have the photos.
And you make me smile.
Or at least you used to.
If only stealing yor soul,
was as easy as taking that picture
I've moved on
But I will always carry that smile with me.
I can feel your smile.
And it's memory is warming.
But it's reality is lost.
I'll always miss your smile.
I'll always love you.
And I'll always wonder what could have been.

[altoecko]

(791.) 07/31/07 12:27 PM - 12:28 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Tiny arms wrapped around me.
"I love you uncle Mitchell."
And I you, Shy.

(792.) The City 08/07/07 2:35 AM - 2:36 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Every little bar
makes another step
on the roller coaster city
and my music hangs overhead
so they can all hear me
when I hum
my furry little companion
purrs peacefully
to sleep
And I don't think I'll ever
want to get off this ride

(793.) When The Day Comes, Come See Me 08/10/07 3:25 AM - 3:31 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm standing here
Inviting you to please come back
I won't cheapen your life with petty excuses
"what about your friends?"
"Your family?"
"What about your children?"
"What about all those you'd leave behind?"
You know exactly what they'd do
Doing it for revenge is silly
Effective I suppose
But silly
In the name of science?
You know as well as I do the odds of you coming back are low.
So your data would just satiate yourself
And wouldn't advance science an inch
You're worth something you know
To me
To the "greater good"
To probably more people than you realize
I have a feeling at this point you don't care
There's a lot of things you should at least try
Before you make the plunge
have you loved?
Have you traveled?
Wasted a day?
Have you learned?
Have you felt pain?
Have you lived?
You have to at least live before you die.
Existing is one thing my friend.
We all do that.
Why not at least try to live?
I'll help you
I promise
I have patience
Take your time
Not your life
Please
Just talk to me first.

(794.) Let's Talk About Se..Life! 08/12/07 1:53 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Talk to me of life.
Your life
Someone else's life
Someone's you don't know life
A life you want
A good life
A bad life
The life
No life
Breathe life into a sentence of life
Live life vicariously through a ****ing sentence
Please.

(795.) Kill It, Why Not? 08/17/07 4:45 AM - 4:48 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Long blade like shoulders
Callous smile
Grandiose dreams
And she will kill this universe
We will be but red slushes on the ground
Puddled around her ankles
sliding down her leg
We will not move again
The rythm was prescribed
From 30 men
With 30 different views
Of 30 different things
But they meshed horribley
And disorder reigned
Over us.
She will not spare us
with her reptile skin
he will not improve
with his spineless ways
no,
the world is too much for some
and all they'll do is kill it

(796.) Know What To Follow 08/21/07 7:14 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Don't follow your gut.
Follow your heart
but your heart diverts 99% of all queries to the mind
And the 1% it does answer,
You should have asked your soul to begin with.

(797.) Liver Cancer 08/25/07 4:56 PM - 4:58 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I wanted to be there.
And see her smile
Put her head down
Sleep
I wanted to touch her
Let her know it's okay
Hug her
Tell her I loved her
Have her tail wag one last time
I would have cried
I should have cried
I miss her already

(798.) Useless Babble 08/22/07 11 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
And so consequentely as a result
implies that the point is demonstrates that
it is clear that therefore then for these reasons
means that it is likely that as a consequence
it indicates that accordingly it follows that
in fact serves to show that we infer that
hence is evidence that suggests in short
it must be that in conclusion
we don't really know anything at all

(799.) Rewrite It Again 08/29/07
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Would you speak to me
in tounges I don't know
of things I have never felt
and perhaps never will

And we will watch tim stumble over itself
into quantum connundrums
that men will kill themselves over
then we can laugh in our our world of uncertainties

I don't know your name
I don't know your goals
I barely know your face
I only know this moment

It seems that's enough
So take my hand
We will rewrite the laws of this world
Finding patterns inbetween the fabrics of our sheets

Making theories
Testing God himself
Teach me about yourself
And I will rewrite my world in your essence

[altoecko]

Here I am again, in all my 3 stars of glory.

(800.) Nice Girl 10/10/07 12:04 PM - 12:13 PM
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I thirst
a year in this wasteland
where I am parched to the soul
has dried me
water will do nothing
love may heal me
but it need be pure

I long for a straw
to dip into the sea of love
and suck
untill the stream is clean
then only true love
will make it through the filter

Here I am though
at the faucet of youth
watching others drink haphazardly
spilling it everywhere
and my knowledge of how precious each drop is
prevents me from quenching this thirst

One cup filled
holds so much poison
that I dare not risk it
and sifting through by hand
take so long

I am tired
I am thirsty
I am lonely
and the water here is tainted.

Can't I just have a nice girl to quench my thirst?


(801.) Pessimistic Drunk
=---------------------------------------------------------=
God damn you Charles.
Just because you made
mistakes
Doesn't mean everyone else is going to
You're a pessimistic
drunk
with more mistakes than
New York
How many bastard children did you have?
Then wayward teens angry with everything
come along and read your drunken
slurs
and have a new lesson for sunday
school
Claiming your fame as proof enough of your backward views
I read you because you make me laugh
I respect you for your drunken way with words
Not your views
You damn
horny
drunken
pessimistic
bastard

(802.) Peddling
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Anything you want,
you can be denied
anything you need
may not be supplied

(803.) Gramophone
=---------------------------------------------------------=
So as she injected the needle
into another dirty groove
the record played a sad song of addiction


(804.) 20% Off On Black Friday
=---------------------------------------------------------=
When you sell your soul,
i suggest you ask for a receipt
when you buy another's soul
make sure to pay extra to have it wrapped in deceit.

(805.) Old Age Will Destroy A Weak Spirit 10/15/07
=---------------------------------------------------------=
To Him:
He's smarter than me.
I'm too young to have an opinion.
I'm too naive.
I'm irresponsible
I don't have a real job and the REAL business world is going to eat me alive


I hope that there is a happy ending when it's all over.
I go to bed every night alone
And I only hear I love yous when I ask for them.
I don't feel I love yous anymore
I'm not depressed
This little light of mine
This little light of mine
It is dark in this home
it is cold
and it is blisteringly hot
all the comforts of a house
all the inconsistencies of the wild
or perhaps the other way around

he worries about me
I worry about him
he worries about money
I worry about love

I may end up poor
unsuccessful
but I will not
****ing
end up
alone.

More than I can say for him.
I worry about him

I want to leave
but I'm shackled down by his doubt

I don't know if I love him
and I feel heartless for thinking that

sadness
stay
away
p
l
ease......

[truekid]

:thumbs to "Gramophone"

[altoecko]

Thanks. :D

We went to see a movie but you never made it there
I gave him my stub and he left for good
You were sick somewhere
and I left you
but it was all a dream
and I awoke and you had the same
and I apologize
so we tried again
you made it just fine
falling asleep next to each other
holding nothing
but time went on
and you slowly held my hand
then me
but I awoke
and you didn't have the same
and I apologize

[lil_das]

Thanks. :D

We went to see a movie but you never made it there
I gave him my stub and he left for good
You were sick somewhere
and I left you
but it was all a dream
and I awoke and you had the same
and I apologize
so we tried again
you made it just fine
falling asleep next to each other
holding nothing
but time went on
and you slowly held my hand
then me
but I awoke
and you didn't have the same
and I apologize




I like most of you other ones but I am truthfully not a fan of more descriptive poems because the everyday reader usually cannot relate... But I LOVE this one, it is definitely not so broad that one cannot understand it but the way it is shaped and worded it seems like a puzzle within itself. Something about it really jumps out at me. This one kicks ass. You should be proud.

[altoecko]

Thank you very much, I love when people leave me feedback of any kind so I really do appreciate your comments. I mean, even if it is to tell me my stuff sucks, feedback is still feedback.

I am bleeding out the oceans
And coughing up the islands
Won't you take a cruise?
And come see my sickness
I am an abomination
Who looks like an angel
But my wings tell more than I let on
She is ecstasy
And they're angry
Stones
Breaking
Bruises
and a spear to the throat
why do you keep me alive?
and why....
oh why...
can't I find you again?
Angel from my dreams...
Come and take what you want
Just take me with you....

[altoecko]

(808.) I hear tomorrows is nice 12/14/07 4:53 AM
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Let's run away.
You pick the place.
And I'll take you there.

(809.) Listen, I Promise It's There 12/21/07 2:56 AM
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Don't you know?
Well I'm not going to tell you
I've told you....
in every passing breath
and if you don't know by now
I fear I never will....

[Ms. Porkchop]

I love the way you write.

[altoecko]

(824.) Recurring Themes It Seems 03/14/08 3:51 AM
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Troubled men write troubled songs,
I shouldn't have to mind at all
That they're crying
yet I do

Happy girls throw up some more
I shouldn't have to mind at all
that they're ashamed
yet I do

Simple men make simple plans
I shouldn't have to mind at all
that they're failing
but I do

I care about you.
I want to help you.
I want to be there
when no one else can
yet I can't.
though I try to

God hates **** they told to me
One day you see
and though I don't quite love my fellow man
to the extent with which they reprimand
I cared

Come to me you down trodden
And nail me to the cross
if makes you sleep at night
if you think it will make you feel alright
just do it

Nike doesn't know at all
and god damnit I'll take the fall
for you
whoever you may be

Mar me with your beliefs
and I will heal you with these hands
but should they wither
or stop to move
my words will have to do
because they are all I have to give you

Take my love
take it far
to the cities everywhere
that children cry
that the innocent die
hell
take it anywhere
that could use a bit
of encouragement

I'm not self-less
I'll want a reward
Give me an update
On how things come to be
And perhaps someday
Someone will bring love back to me
but just your words
that is enough
because really,
that's all I ask of you

=---------------------------------------------------------=
My mind is free.
Take as much as you want.
I have no need for it anymore
Because some day
it will have no need for me
and I would rather break
than have it feel guilt

=---------------------------------------------------------=
the world holds us
and mothers sing songs
that sooth us
and we lay our weary bones
on beds made of promises
because sometimes
today
isn't as good
as yesterday
and no day
for a long time
will be as good as today
but mothers sing to us
and somehow
it's all going to be
okay
It's all going to be okay.


=---------------------------------------------------------=
One more piece fell down today
and it splattered
everywhere
and then it bled
it's dark
brown blood
all over the floor
slowly
i can see the muscles
but not yet the bones
doctor
your patchwork
is impeccable


=---------------------------------------------------------=
i am bleeding
and no one
will love me
don't let me die
please
my world is on fire
and i could put out the flames
but i can't even bring myself
to wake up some mornings
let alone put out the only warmth i get
i want to love
i want to live
i want so little
but even this
im not given
metal outlines a face
of what was
and it chills me
when it is cold
i am dying
and it never warms
there is tomorrow
but i need the food for today
there is love for me
but by god i cant find it
and no one will help me
if i dont help myself
my legs are weak
my eyes are heavier with each blink of time
i am
broke
wont anyone
please
please
for once
fix me.



=---------------------------------------------------------=
I miss
warm breaths
filled with promises
on my neck
warmth of another
splattered with commitment
on my arm
looking into eyes
that would cry, if I cried,
on my shoulder
i want
once again
to know
love


=---------------------------------------------------------=
hope spilled from every pore
and the sun reflected off her glasses
blinding
only if she admired you
I was only blinded once
but it was enough
to make my heart churn
these days it seems my vision
is always crystal clear
won't anyone
blind me


=---------------------------------------------------------=
It grips at my throat
never tightening its grip
never quite choking me
but some how always strangling me

=---------------------------------------------------------=
I met her today
sleek,
soft,
black
hair that was appropriately long
for a woman of her age
she eyed me temptuously
from her perch
and through our social dancing
i showed myself
i was no threat
i was charming
and oh so tempting
once she let me into her world
i stroking her ego
and me being rewarded with her company
and subtle brushes with her skin
she retreated
not of fear
but of testing
and she back away partially
almost to her perch
but still whispering
"love me"
she once again invited me near
but I walked back to my home
and did not pet this harlot
she's the neighbor's cat anyways

[pinkymadigan]

Been a while since I checked in. Your stuff has matured. Much better IMO.

[altoecko]

Honestly? It seems like the same poetry I've always written.

[pinkymadigan]

Used to be real sing-songy. You've got that habit licked.

[Fruple]

Wow, I can't believe I didn't see this update earlier.

Anyways, I love your style of writing. It just... works, and makes it really enjoyable to read. Word choice is really good, especially impeccable, which is just a cool word in itself. Keep up the fantastic work and keep updating for the hungry masses (well, at least me.)

[altoecko]

=---------------------------------------------------------=
She handed me
her sanity
in it's small pill form
and I pretended to swallow
she looked at me
and thought I was once again home
I slipped the pill into my pocket
some other time
some other realm
some other way
I ask for a tool
you give me an answer
i pretend to swallow
and we continue the day


=---------------------------------------------------------=
Did you know I love you?
I didn't know I loved you.
But apparently this wrenching
this tearing
this longing
in my heart
is for you
because it only calms when I'm near you
but i am never near you
so I tell my heart,
"my good man, it's just chemicals.
you're horny, that's all."
and he tells me that it is true what they say
One Cannot Force Intimacy
but one can fall into it's trap
Mitchell,
you're heart is an open room
and it is your greatest weakness
regardless of how strong you make your house of brick
of stone
of pain
of love
people will never respect your space as they do their own
That is not my problem
but it is
it is!
Your heart is the one in shambles
and they never learn a single lesson
that is not my problem
that is my burden
that is my sin
and I will carry it not as a cross upon my back
but a badge upon my sleeve
I am no bottomless pit of sorrow
but I am a basin for your tears
I am in love with you world,
though I am not always near you
I am not just horny,
young,
or headstrong
I am without a doubt enraptured in your web
now eat me before I wither away
because I am lonely
and I am open
and no one wants to come in for reasons I am very much aware of
I swear my love,
you will be the death of me

[altoecko]

Sorry to make a new post, but editing doesn't bump the topic sadly.

This is a terrible poem, skip it and read the next.
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I don't write love poems to specific people
it's a dangerous business
it always is when your currency is love
sadly,
few people want to invest in something
that has no benefit for themselves
it could cure the world of something
but "what's the point if I don't get paid?"
I could spout off nonsense about derived utility
but most don't speak in such terms
there are many levels and layers
and miles of intricacies
but most just see a puddle
and then as that old German fool said
"they muddy the water to make it seem deep."
but this poem is deep
I'm not sure how deep
but it has depth
and it is for one person
so don't invest if you don't want to
you may not get a single coin in return
but know that I put a lot into this
I know I can't force art
I'm not trying to
I'm just describing it to you as it passes me by
I write this for you
because you are far more beautiful than me
and you're far more beautiful than most
but you have an ugly tint to your soul
just a tint
just a shade
just a scar
rinse out the saying mitchell
repeat it a few times
drive the point home
I guess it's refining the meaning
but it's being lazy in doing so
you're beautiful on the outside
(we've established this)
and the world agrees
but you don't like me that way
at least,
I don't think you do
and if you do
you hide it well
but we must always be mindful
that what one says out loud
is sometimes not what they say to themselves
I try to change that myself
but it's not easy
because the truth is and always will be
fleeting
and backstabbing
but I make it a point to deal in it as often as possible
as often as my wounds will bear
on principle alone I assume
you party hard
very hard
if no one's watching you
and you love hard
if no one stops you
but you're beautiful
so it doesn't matter what you do
behind closed doors
or in only special social groups
you'll still be loved and accepted
because that's how the world works
so you have no incentive to improve the inside
but you do it anyways
lightly I must say
but you do it nonetheless
on principle alone i assume
(Oh aren't we clever mitchell, quit it.)
your hair is auburn
not aflame like mine
but a simmer
a warmth
only hot enough
to heat those who touch you
but your beauty
that's enough artificial light
to appease most
your body is beautiful
beautiful this,
beautiful that,
who's afraid of the big black bat?
a new word is in order
my dear
you are all that i could want
a bit more than I could need
but you're probably nothing I can have
and it makes me want to cry
but i can't do that,
I won't allow it
I need to be strength when there is no hope
I will be courage when there is no light
and I will be myself when being an individual is
uncool
I won't use names
because then I'll cross the slight line
between creepy
and romantic
no, I will say a name
and I will hope you never read this
it isn't your style to
you hate poetry
how about a riddle because I'm a coward?
"There once was an Ash tree
and in that clearing their was a chicken.
Or some other Neoganthe
I'm not sure."
this is torture
stop writing it
it's a terrible poem
you don't love her
you just know you could
but she's not interested
so you're just chipping away your own soul
for your own bemusement
and you are far from amused
please,
just ask her out once she dumps the next fool
so you can stop being one yourself
and know once and for all
you are not worthy

Tube Tops and Hip Hop
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I take it back, I take it all back
Everything
I have the receipt still
It's never too late
right?
She wears music like fashion
she makes her world off what others give her
and nothing else
she doesn't go looking
she just waits
people bring things to her
like sacrificial lambs
and she pays them in tube tops
slutty shorts
skimpy skirts
drunken
frisky
but with morals
(so she says)
footjobs
and
anal sex
this girl is just their toy
"I like to please"
she says to us
in her coy voice
craftsmanship first
content second
the realization seeps farther in
almost all them
do it
empty pretty porcelain shells of people
no education
but god damnit
they look good
that's all that's important though
a pretty face
a hot ass
a fun wednesday night
a promised friday morning
and nothing in between
nothing after
because she doesn't know better?
because you don't impress her?
because because
and I'll never know
i don't wanna know
i take it back
let me return it
let me take it all back
i don't want it anymore


I Got Rhythm, I Just Can't Always Dance
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I've seen your face before
you've come in and out that door
you're a disgrace
a pretty face
and mother ****ing poser

you come in here acting like you own the place
*****,
I've seen your face
and you're a punk

you wear
your hair
in the style of the minute
but you have no soul within it
and you think it's still all grooves

i don't want a hussy
a slut
or a hoe

A little kinky is good
that's how it should be

You look at me and you think I'm a prick?
*****, I know you want to suck my dick.
But you don't have class enough to touch it

Do you want a strong man?
Firm collar, short lease, and strong hand?
You will drip justice and ecstasy
to my rhythm
to my rhyme
you can finish when I'm done

That the kind of man you want?
I could be that man,
but I have class
all you have is school

i've seen the world
not the whole thing
but more than you
i may be dumb
but I'm better than you

the world is a record
skipping in its beat
you ain't got no rhythm
but still you tap your feet
and when the song loops over
you don't see the pattern
but you still tap your feet

there's still time to find yourself
not just buy a soul of their shelf
you're broken
and I don't wanna fix you
but here's some glue
now what you do from here
is what we call called class


Come with me?
=---------------------------------------------------------=
you
you're just as lost as I am
take my hand
we can fumble through the dark together
even if we never find our way
we'll still have the journey

[altoecko]

Here's a picture I took, so you can look at a pretty picture. Now read the words above, please?

http://photos-a.ak.facebook.com/photos-ak-sf2p/v126/88/74/584590067/n584590067_1411904_858.jpg

[altoecko]

I'm in a writing mood tonight.

=---------------------------------------------------------=
So they leave their fingerprints
on everything they touch
their social fingerprints
their philosophical ideologies
their 10 tips all mothers should know
or maybe just the clothes they wear.
Everywhere they go.
on anything they walk by
on anyone passing by
and it all matters
but it's up to you
to filter out what not to care about
Do you become the will of the way of the world
or lock yourself down in your own little temple
a temple for god
a temple for objectivism
a holy ground for meditation
a trainwreck for drugs
Do you casually browse
picking up only the really
must have
look of the season?
Well, you're a show-off
but it's okay,
we all are a little bit
you guys just pull it off well
How about whatever?
You're lazy
but it's okay,
we all are a little bit
Or perhaps you look for you,
you know what you want
and you know where to find it
so you get it
And you?
You're an individual.
For better
or
neurosis
So we leave our fingerprints
On everything we touch
and every book we read
movie we see
life we live
leaves a little bit of a signature
hidden in their work
And do you follow their trail?
Or blaze your own
A few good friends
or thousand ****ty pretty witty ones?
You always choose.
Whether you're aware of it or not.
The brain
is your computer-muscle-machine
of a beast
and it does your bidding
but do you chip away the stone
or just coat the sides in color
in your programming
of it's functions
it's called plasticity
and maybe
you've just got
rigidity
Whatever the cause.
You've got choices to make people.
So wake,
the ****,
up.

[altoecko]

Sorry to post again. Chalk it up to vanity.

=---------------------------------------------------------=
And that's all we are
Divisible parts of a whole
or just individuals standing so close together
we lose each other
And I preach the middle path
like Buddha
but I preach the painful path
like Jesus
i am also aware of the blissful path
that some men get to take
the more ideas
that i find
the more my picture completes itself
and i see who i am
and who you are
and what we will become
if we do nothing
if we do something
if we do anything
i dont know all the variables
and i am stuck in a pattern
a self referential loop
but not a loop
more so a rhythm
a pattern
where I refine things i find
and these little jewels of mine
i hang them from my neck
like a jack-ass artist on the street
i can lie to you and say i dont care
and i wouldn't,
if i didn't want to
but i know it's all important
that everything
has a place
even if that place
is to be out of place
because only in the absence of somethings
did you know they even existed in the first place
life as we know it is complex
so we just go with the flow
because someone else will write the laws
because someone else has my safety in mind
but we're taught it's cool
to be an individual
it's cool to be cool
to be a part of a crowd
but the true individuals
they're on the outside
but never for long
they'll be eaten by this machine of society
ground up
spit out
culture industries churning
producing the next big thing
replicating
until our words mean nothing
because it has all been done before
until we can't tell where our tastes begin
and what we've been told to like ends
and the true individuals
are not even individuals
they're just different
it's not hard to be one of a kind
it's not hard to be one of the crowd
it's not hard to be yourself
it's hard to be appreciated
hard to be genuine
hard to be loved
easy to love
because no matter how loose you are
how frigid you are
they don't always want to climb the wall
they don't want to solve the puzzle
they just want things on a silver platter
but the right people
they don't want something spoon fed
if you're given the prize at the start,
why play the game?
value is determined by rarity
scarcity
demand
I have a high price on my head
and no one will buy it
because the reserve is too high
because the shipping is too high
because it's not easy enough
here is my mind
it is intricate
it may be ugly
but it's mine
and I'm proud
this reality of ours
i'm proud
this society of ours
im not
i'm not selfish
i'm not selfless
I'm Mitchell.
I'm me.
As i have always been.
Always will be
and i will be eaten
or cast out
either way
i dont want to die
alone

=---------------------------------------------------------=
Vulgarity
Propensity
Utility
Consummation
Vulva
Clitoris
Words
Rambling
On


=---------------------------------------------------------=
I've broken my eyes again
tape to the side
my view has changed once more
and we have recalculated it all
to fit


=---------------------------------------------------------=
You speak like you have a voice
I just hear echoes
You move like you have a purpose
All I see is a shell
You crack like you have secrets
But i see nothing of value
You speak like you know what love is
and you may very well
but I can't trust you
because you're someone else


=---------------------------------------------------------=
Lungs full of fuzzy details
coughing
i am dotting my eyes
crossing my tease
the floor is pouncing
my head is hanging
collarbone flipped up
shoulder blades sheathed
skin peeled back
i am diseased
and we clap
my ear bleeds

I wake up on the floor
my glasses are broken
it's not like I could see anyways
the smoke overwhelmed the oxygen
my eyes asphyxiated
i'm in love
or gravity is failing
no,
gravity is winning
is seems to always win
when flesh and bones are involved
i cut my ear on god knows what
it's kicked in more by now
the blunt trauma only helped
i can't hear out of one ear
it's a good night

[altoecko]

=---------------------------------------------------------=
And I'll say something,
anything,
and you'll eat it
because i tell you it is delicious
and by god you will believe me
by god you will understand
by me you call me god
by my hands you will know suffering
by my deeds you will feel pain
by my word will you live
by my choices you will die
and by you accepting these terms
you accept me as your holy savior
because I speak with such authority
I must know what I'm talking about
besides,
we all just want to be accepted right?
so just do as i say
and we'll do fine
and you won't die
till I'm ready for you to
because I know what suffering is
and you only have a fleeting suspicion
of what life even is
the unexamined life is not worth living
i've examined this one I'm offering
rather meticulously
wouldn't you agree?
it's worth living
but is it worth enough
because you don't want to sell yourself short
heavens no
because momma says you're special
by god momma must be right
by her words you must be a god
by god you've got it
by me you'll accept it
by her you'll regret it
but after-all
we do want to think for ourselves don't we?
well, I've thought it all out just for you
and this is certainly what you would do
in any and all situations
so just give your life to God
and everything will go according to his plan
my plan
your plan
our plan
wouldn't you agree?


=---------------------------------------------------------=
I am the sum of my parts
P + A + R + T + S = I
I am Me
I = Me
But I swear to you
Me = Present + Past
I = Present + Past + Future
Me = I
only if me has no future
but are you so certain that
Me = Present + Past
Yes, when I say Me
I mean the accumulation of I to this point
Splitting hairs?
No,
I round after 5 decimal points on principle alone.
but maybe
You = Too Far
Clever,
You = Me
Mirroring conversation
You = Insane
You're not a method actor
You = Nothing
No,
You = Nothing
and you're just trying to justify that by saying
You = Me
Just because it's not fun anymore
you want to quit
life isn't all games
you know
yes,
i do know
don't I?
(There's no point to this poem,
and if there is I don't know it
don't slave too much time
trying to solve it,
write it off as insanity
and if that doesn't work
write it off as genius
either way,
don't lose sleep)

=---------------------------------------------------------=
Her muscles get too weak
and they can't run her heart anymore
and her arm goes numb
she goes numb
he's tired and he never slept last night
but he's still working
she's tired
she's frail
she's dying
and I am powerless to stop it
and I go numb from the pain
pain that is nothing
nothing
like what she feels
and that hurts me more
because I want to take all that pain away
give it to me,
please
she doesn't deserve it
she's dying
and I'm crying
and I have no right to
because she isn't
impermanence?
i dont want her to go
numb
but hurting
that's what she said it felt like
that is dying
numb
but still hurting
they pump her full of drugs
and shes loopy
and she's numb
she is hurting
she's my mother
and there's nothing I can do
and it hurts
but I can't complain
because she hurts worse
but when you love someone
their happiness is your own
their pain is your own
or at least
you wish it was

[Xisthruos]

In trying to give you a critique, I couldn't help but think of the image of amateur astronomer John Dobson as he hangs out on the sidewalk, trying to get people to look at the moon with his homemade telescope. Some people are awestruck by the clarity with which they see the moon, while others simply look into his telescope and respond placidly, "Yes, that's the moon." I have to confess that I have similar difficulty in this instance. Forgive me, sir.

I really like how you are able to take very intimate parts of yourself and offer them in this way, without becoming too defensive toward criticism. That is unique. Many people in life are very closed off to others, or worse, to themselves. There's a lot to be gained from this kind of honesty, and I'm hoping that you won't allow anything in life to shut you up. You certainly don't show any signs of it. :)

On the other hand, you also have a number of short, clever poems that can be very readily understood, usually for humorous effect. I must also echo the sentiment for "Gramophone."

[altoecko]

Poetry for me is a form of Therapy. I use it to write out my problems and clearly define my sentiments towards things. I go by the Socratic thought of the unexamined life isn't worth living. But I examine everything in relation to me I just don't want to get lost in my thoughts though , so sometimes I have to put the thoughts in a poem so i can look at them later on and know where I've progressed/regressed in terms of who I want to be. My poetry is more for me, and I just share it with others. If people like what they read, all the better, if they don't, it doesn't matter, this is from my soul. If you don't like my soul, what am I supposed to do about that? I've already refined my soul into the general outline of what I want it to be, now I'm just filling in the gaps with knowledge.

**** Yes? **** Yeah!
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I'm dancing by myself
more and more these days
even though I am a creature of rhythm
I need someone to rock with
I need someone to connect with
as always,
a romantic with no material
and the people are a large mass
of untouchable sweat
i am not an island
i am just uninhabited
most of the time
two x's mark the spot of my
virility?
innocence?
straight edge?
who knows
perhaps I'm just as empty
as those other people
that I so despise
but I am full of knowledge
but no way to prove it
because I'm never given a chance
I want to love someone
I want to be loved
but no one
wants me
my friends outgrow me
but in all honesty
they just drift away
and I'm growing up
all by myself
time and time again
i'll keep bettering myself
until someday
I might be good enough
for someone
this is the sound of my soul dying
this is feeling in my heart
this is life for me sometimes
but there's always tomorrow
or tonight
or whenever
I just wish I didn't have to
go it alone


=---------------------------------------------------------=
she sings melodiously
with her large breasts weighing on her chest
her lungs large filled with happy air
hidden away behind a thin,
but bright and solid red
clothe of tapered humility

she dances rhythmically
topless
the beads bouncing
more than her breasts
the board bejeweled with trinkets
that men have offered
the bushel of her hair
held in by a crown
armlets
a fire
the wild
passion

she covers her eyes
skin speckled with freckles
soft,
soft,
so soft to the touch
her shirt is green
her heart is young
and I don't want her to take her hands away
for fear she won't like what she sees

she drapes her arms over him
her wings long and beautiful
arched over to fit in the picture
his are short
black
and sad
her hands touch him
his long fiery hair
her long glowing mane
her face has no features
and his
is just sad

the water parts around him
the earth begins anew
God?
Man?
waves wash over
speckles of blood
and battle
of friendships broken
the earth begins

fire on the horizon
cat tails jutting up
birds flying by
the water is just another fire

beautiful
swirling
colorful
lively
untouchable
unthinkable
so close to reality
chaos

a flower
made of paper
held up by dedication
a little love
and metal

he is sitting
grayed
aged
alone in darkness
but light erupting
from his soul
and clashing
with the soul
trapped
deep within
those pages
and he sets them free
once more
because all he has left
he's already set free
and he prays each night
"Please,
let them come back to see me."
his face is respectable
his hair is still there
and you know he's wise
but always forever
alone

blank walls
dotted with art
sweet
delicious
life

Value
=---------------------------------------------------------=
How do you judge the value of a man?
Money earned
Fame attained
Friends gathered
Women won
Women kept
Books read
Art made
Lessons learned
People helped
Children raised
Ideas spread

For me?
Do you make enough money to support yourself,
and those you love?
Did you taste fame,
but all the while kept humility?
Do you have many friends,
or just many acquaintances?
Have you made wondrous love,
or just ****ed an awful lot?
Were you a good husband,
or just a trophy?
Do you have all the knowledge in the world,
and you know what to do with it?
Did you make something all your own,
or just made something that certainly wasn't theirs?
At the end of life do you have no regrets,
or just a lot of what-ifs?
Do you help others because you want to,
or because you think it's impressive?
Are your children their own person,
or just a new vehicle for your sin?
Did you share something useful,
or did you just ponder to yourself?

I don't know how to word the judgment of a man
for I think it is not my place to judge
but I do
and I apologize
I won't decree any verdicts,
but perhaps
we should be our own judges?
and be aware of what we do
because i can't just dance
i wish i could
but when there is no music
it is just my own rhythm
and that's fine if I'm dancing
with someone else
but we're not most of the time
we're on our own feet
our own time,
so why not be judged
by our own standards?
just make sure
you've got
good standards

[altoecko]

Is it wrong of me to double post?
(probably)

=---------------------------------------------------------=
Footing
firm
slipping
falling
hurting
leaving
gone
the same as my father's first wife
same spot
same way
odd which ones
life chooses
to give to death

Treasure
=---------------------------------------------------------=
It's right underneath your nose.
And you're not educated enough to know
just how valuable it is
but that's okay
because someone will win the lotto
who doesn't deserve to
and someone will buy it for a quarter
at goodwill
and sell it on eBay
for more than you're worth
but he's not in goodwill
and you can't sell people on eBay
(we've tried)
so he'll sit here
free of charge
(or so most economists would say)
a world of value
but no buyers
she's the same
but neither one of them
will make a move
because they've been appraised
by whores
and douchebags
who don't know a thing about value
as replaceable
and cheap
don't worry guys,
someone will come along
eventually
we just gotta wait it out
till then
and hope that people have an eye
for quality


EDIT -

I Wish It Didn't Come To This
=---------------------------------------------------------=
we are societies prized labeled lost
children
willing to work
but having no jobs
millennials
generation y
whatever
we have to pay more
for less
the most educated
with less application
helicopter parents
have spoiled so many of us
so many of us
helicopter societies
breeding us into
educated unintellectuals
with our instant messages
with no content
besides to tell you where the party is
where the jobs aren't
we're all so charismatic
and drugged out
or drunk up
or whatever
because we have to be sometimes
big brother is speaking to us
directly I might add,
because when you take away the illusion of strings
it's easier to just put your hand inside of us
and contort how you think we should be
we are connected to the internet
as if it's some grandiose new form of
air
the greatest tool ever
we could unscrew any idea or thought we come upon
instead we just open up a paint can of absurdity
of culture
because I mean,
the world is collapsing around us
and we have the will to hold it up
but no place to stand
so why the hell not study up for the apocalypse?
watch a movie,
but know what it means
listen to a song
and read the lyrics
read a book
and know the author
define the emotion
know what it means
to mean what you do
don't be an egg shell
be a yolk
those higher up care
but not nearly enough
because it's the same story
we've been told a thousand times
the evils of capitalism
the anonymity of socialism
the dangers of every way of life we know
and the ease of every way of life we can't have
we're all too complex
but too simplistic in our complexity
because sometimes that's all you can do
you can be broad and ever expanding
but in reality you're just a thin piece of a person
malleable
but not that thick
or you can be a dense chunk
of whatever the **** you want to be
we have our cars
(old is cool,
new is expensive)
**** efficiency
most of us are too eager
to just have a ride
and we have fashion
scene kids
indie kids
emo kids
children
because we have to be
because we want to be
all the irresponsibility of adulthood
sex, drugs, and music
all the care frees of childhood
young
that's what describes us well
jobs don't define us
because we can't pick defining jobs
we just work retail
wait staff
hospitality
because it leaves enough free time
to party
and makes enough money
to live
and there is so much difference between
a psychology major
and a psychologist
major a
a-ist
though there's still not much difference
in a business major
and a business man
we've got all the greatest dreamers
and all the worlds finest pessimists
le petit prince
Oyster(and his book of spells)
The Prophet
Bukowski
and so much ****ing more
and I for one
have the knowledge
but I'll be god damned
if i know
what to do
with
it
we know what dystopias are
we're fully aware of utopias and their blinding ability
and we even know about Randian heroes
BUT
BUT
BUT
there's always a butt
always an asshole
somewhere
holding things up
(not in a roof sense
more in queue sense)
and by god
i'd sock em in his grinning face if i could
but it's probably some idiot
who doesn't know better
and you can't blame a whole system of education
can you?
I mean sure you can
but it feels like a cop-out
there is no Pareto efficiency to our model
there is no free market
capitalism works
if there's equal opportunity for competition
but there's not
because when you can sell to more
you can sell for less
and when wal-mart's selling you everything cheaper
and you can't afford to support your friends
you can sell out for less
because even though you know how much you're worth
you'll only get so much on eBay
on amazon
on anywhere
because the world is a play
and my generation
showed up after the auditions
but we still have to play our parts
when most of the time
we don't even have one
I am not a pessimist
I am an idealist
only because
I'd rather shoot for the stars
and land amongst
whatever rubble
will catch me
but that one time
I catch a ride on one of those stars
by god you bet your ass I'll ride it
ride it till I've lost track of the little things
(little things being the Earth mind you)
but I shouldn't want that
because fame and power corrupts
and I've come to show you
knowledge is power
miserable
self-gratifying
power
and i could just be speaking for myself
but I see a lot of sadness in our souls
and fake smiles on our faces
because if we're fun enough to be around
then people will keep us around
and when the rot of society falls in
and we're gathered around trashcans aflame with pop culture
we'll want people to keep us around
just so we can feed off the warmth
I am a patriot
but stating you're the best
and being the best
are two different things
and I'm willing to help make us better
but I don't have a clue where to stand
and I've got a diploma
like everyone else
and I've got a degree
like everyone else
and I've got ambition
like everyone else
but these gold stars
don't do **** these days
we're all so many pretty pictures
artists if you will
crafting out beautiful works of
art
because when the world won't let you work
it will let you be an artist
which as we know is a fancy word for lazy-do-nothing
with a few more definitions tacked on here and there
I've gone on for too long
stretched this poem out too thin
and I don't know if it's a sheet
or a chunk
but it at least has definition
and a message
it's an SOS
to everyone higher up
I'm not asking you to take care of us
I'm asking you to let us take care of ourselves
to stop hoarding all the money
for rainy days
because it's raining here
to stop spreading yourself so thin
you're not a quilt to warm us
you're just a sheet to hide what's underneath
to stop
think
and realize that we can't keep up the pace
survival of the fittest?
so be it
but don't blame us
when it all collapses in
we'll be pillars
well defined
but pillars standing in random places
with the ceiling falling in from above
with the rubble all around us
scabbed knees
like children
but not from falling down
from digging out each other
broken bones
and spirits
nursed by more spirits and hallucinogenics
I don't know about you guys
but I have the map
and I'm still lost

[altoecko]

I'd appreciate a blank post from someone else from time to time so as to not double/triple post so much. I mean, you don't even have to read anything, just I don't know.


(854.) Preference
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I wish that
someone besides
those that have
to will love me
someday.
I don't want to be
an obligation,
I want to be
a preference
but first I have
to be
preffered

(855.) Path
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I often wonder if I traveled the right path.
Frost,
I hope you were right.

(856.) Vulgarities
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Life is a wondrous twirling
twirl as in dance
not as in hair
though you can get life in your hair
but I don't deal in smut
only vulgarities
such as ****
****
damn
Republican
etc.

(857.) Grinng Cat
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I saw him grin
and he said
Freedom
I was in love
he was animated
yet inanimate
and while I enjoyed his ideals
I was not fond of his prefix
I could go for a nice chesire cat
but only if it's French
and a woman

(858.) CHECK FRAUD: KILLING INNOCENT PEOPLE PENS: HELPING SAVE INNOCENTS
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I was going to buy another pen
but this one protects from
CHECK FRAUD
and that sold me on the idea

(859.) MATH IS HARD
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Yeats + Ezra + Longfellow + Eliot + Ginsberg + Silvstein + Shakespeare + Dante + Dickinson + Thoreau + Dunbar + Bukowski + Williams + Bull**** =
Me-ish
Sort of
Not really
but I've read them

(860.) D:
=---------------------------------------------------------=
we are too complex
this is my attempt to combat that.
Have at you!

(861.) Thoughts For The Part of The Day (Early June 2008)
=---------------------------------------------------------=
True free will is mania
Determinism is OCD
We choose who God is
Or it gets chosen for us
But there doesn't have to be a God to have
reodr
Surrealism is silly but it's fun to pretend
Aardvark
I keep the ocean in my closet
I hope there's a reality after this one.

(862.) Don't Let The Poem Fool You, I Got Plenty of Help
=---------------------------------------------------------=
It gets harder and harder to fight
The urge to put down the book and go "live"
is so overwhelming
and it would be so much easier if I had
someone
anyone
else here to help me
But no one cares about me enough to do that
So I have to help myself
because no one else will
but it's hard
I've been spoiled by modern life
everything I could want is given to me
so simply
for a price
so we go through the motions
to get our pieces of paper
with words on them
that somehow give them ultimate power
(because we give the words power)
and we pay the price
for whatever reason
and we get fun
in its various forms
I want to build fun
for myself
I don't want to give others
God's love
I want to give them
MY LOVE
but my love is sloppy
full, warming, nurturing
at times unnattractive
but it's mine
evolution in action will decide if I'm right
if it says I'm wrong
and I never marry
then I'll adopt
just to pollute the system
a
little
more
and I'll help them
(my child)
just like how
no one
ever helped me

(863.)Pen Puts Out; Paper Does Not
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I WANT
to live forever
to fall in love again
to be a famous poet
to be rich
to be well liked
to be a good man
to be handsome
to play in a band
to further science
to make love on another planet
to read faster
to be loved for who I am.
to skydive
to be a great photographer
to pain wondrous pictures
to be respected
to meet God
to have super powers
etc.
i need
food
sleep
water
love
that's all
I sleep
I eat
I drink
I'm alone with paper and pen

(864.) . Vs ?
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I'm not sure whether it is better to be
a question?
or a
declaration.
there is always the allure
of the unknown
but of course there is something to be said
about absolutes.

(865.) Untitled
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Beauty is a promise of good
And beauty is in the eye of the beholder
at times good is too
but I believe there is an absolute good
plus many many bads
I hope there is absolute beauty

(866.) "waning into perfection" I like that.
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Your long legs
stratching with each
graceful glide
and your body is so smooth
so perfectly waning into perfection
but just flawed enough to make you seem real
beauty thy name is what I want
but you keep walking
away

(867.) Are we there yet?
=---------------------------------------------------------=
life is too fast for me
or perhaps not too fast
but at least a general feeling
of being rushed

(868.) At Least To Me
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Damn you Buddhist Monks
your life is so tempting
yet so unattainable

(869.) Clothed In Defiance
=---------------------------------------------------------=
She is clothed in defiance
her hair is a flash of rebellion
her skin is tattered with permenance
her flesh pierced with culture
scars reflecting lonliness
eyes dry with sadness
lips painted with Come-hithers
hips unhidden by their own majesty
and she is beautiful
for all the wrong reasons
and this I confess
makes her all the more right

(870.) So Sayeth The Idiot Prophet
=---------------------------------------------------------=
words, water, lighters, and software
these things should be universally free

(871.) I Doubt You Do
=---------------------------------------------------------=
my dear,
I miss you
do you miss me?
a question never to be answered
because you are gone
and some other woman wears your skin
I'm still the same
just not as young
you hadn't found you yet
but we found each other
I'll miss you
I'll miss us
Do you miss us?

(872.) SCALE
=---------------------------------------------------------=
nothing
infinitesimal
negligible
quasuriffic
atom-like
itsy bitsy
miniscule
teeny
tiny
mouse-like
small
compact
lacking
Just-Right (medium)
above average
big
large
excessive
great
huge
immense
gargantuan
collossal
brontasaurian
levianthanesque
planetarian
galactic
astronomical
infinity

(873.) Poetry Reading Central Library Atlanta Mid-June
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Meeting of the same idea
time and time again
in different fashion
matching the time
but always the same soul
poetry meets again today
on the 5th floor of a library
in a southern city
and we wield words like
brushes
and ideas like paint
forever married in beauty
on the canvas of our minds
someone asked me why I write
and i answered
in a different poem
that you very well may never
feel
but why we write
is a different answer
because we can
because the world feel write
when words encompass abstract
"poetry illuminates the night"
and words
light the bulb
like
like
too many allusions
too little point
poetry is in my blood
I'd show you
but I don't want to make a mess
just a splash
pleasure to meet you,
my name is Mitchell

(874.) I'm A Liar
=---------------------------------------------------------=
this is a self-referential loop
this is something else

(875.) You Know Who You Are
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I've met the same woman several times
but each time her face is different
shapes slightly altered
to meet the mood
but her soul is the same
and every time
she has the same fashion
the same glasses
the same love of Jack Johnson
of the protalitariat
of the working class
of theatre
and gay men draw her in
like some weird
fruit-fly

(876.) It Will Be A Sad Day When Science Conquers Love
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I have told you this before
and I will tell you it again
and again
even after science
and time,
for whatever reason
have proven me a fool
have disproved my god
as nothing more
than biology
then chemisty
than physics
than mathematics
and nothing as beautiful
as in my mind
this world
only holds me here
because I accept it's rules
for whatever reason
or without reason
but when i find her
when we find
we
love will
rewrite your laws
make them right
and it will all
be
in
my
head
but
always
through my soul
whether it exists or not
because love is my drug
my medicine
my god
my answer
my addiction
and I have none
an addict with no dealer
no outlet
no drug
just an idea
and faith
limitless faith
and they will solve life around me
and we will always object
we as in us
us as in her and I
same soul
different bodies
same dreams
different minds
same religion
different gods
someday she will read this
or ignore my past
either way
I will love you
forever
and always
our children
my children
may never be in this lifetime
and that is my fault
I
love you
and I'm sorry
for this
I'm not crazy
just
missing you

(877.) Art
=---------------------------------------------------------=
all the gold
is nothing
I bring you pewter
crafted
from me

(878.) So Be Sure You Give It To The Right Ones
=---------------------------------------------------------=
people and words
often at times
only have power
if you give it to them

[altoecko]

The man wheedled away at my senses trying hard
and harder for me to sacrifice something from my life for him.
I sat awkwardly, fingers entwined in a protective fortress
hiding only god and our imagination knows what
trying my hardest to say with my eyes what my mouth couldn't
that I was there for the moral support and discussion
sadly not for camaraderie and I apologize
I suppose it was rude of me
but I barely have enough for me
and if I had more I'd gladly share
but I have to eat
and have just enough fun
that I don't go insane
or grow boring
just enough
to still be me
but they tried again this time implementing a long silence
instead of a sideways glance
and it sauntered out so slow I thought it'd never leave
but when it did
I just spoke my point
said my part
stated my case
ditto
and the conversation hiccuped
my realizations creeping in
a problem to be settled
when I have things to spare
not when I have time to sleep

[altoecko]

(879.) Ulterior Motives 07/06/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
At times when I see other people
I realize there's nothing
underneath
yet I want to look for it
anyways

(881.) Awkward Explosion 07/10/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I am an awkward explosion
(i suppose sort of an implosion too)
Wearing extravagant colors
like the 80s threw up a little bit
shoes like some pimp somewhere
an ideology of negative liberty
acted out in some romantic idealism
and I just want to be a dead beat
an artist
a writer
but I don't want to be a disappointment
to my elders
I want to further science
but I think science may have already left me far behind
I enjoy culture
all cultures
but I can't figure out a job
where I can just sit around
and soak up culture
not one you go to school for at least
I'm not switching to Anthropology
leave that to those cute girls
hell this poem is even awkward
I'm ending this one


(882.) Around Us (The text formatting may not transfer well to some mediums) 07/10/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I sat in the center of it all
and every noise of everything
r o
a us u
d n
from frogs to flies
made their voice
fill in the gaps
that ours did not
and every
shift
made them change their pitch
to match the mood

(883.) Diamond Schmimond 07/10/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
A dish washer
is a diamond ring
to some girls
a diamond ring
is a promise
to most
a dish washer
that's more of a
"I don't want you to work,
because you deserve not to"


(884.) But First I Need Confidence 07/10/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I want to write love songs
but first I need a decent voice,
an instrument to play,
learn how to write music,
and someone to love
wouldn't hurt either


(885.) No Really, She's Not 07/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
she's not kidding
that's a man
not a robot
and they all know anger
everyone does
she is in fact
insane

(886.) I Think Therfore I Deny 07/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
how are you supposed
to live
let alone
survive
when every moment
seems exactly like the last
four four four four
or five
memories you've had
when every day bleeds
a little more
into the day before
and a lot more
into the
two too
days ever after
when life
is so cruel
that it doesn't have the decency
to be cruel to you
it just leaves you numb
laying there
lying
about the fact
that you even exist
when you both know
you don't
but no one cares
so you do?
you think
at least
that's what you've been told
and you tend to believe
them
well
not all of them
just the right ones
with the right faces
the right souls
the right eye
and the left eye
I never knew mom
or dad
just those people
who claimed to be
but I knew board games
and the sun
and the snow
and that guy
who promised to take me away
but just hit me instead
which sent me for a trip
but it wasn't a cruise


(887.) Love You Are 07/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Love you are a slow guitar
a galloping horse
sweet passionate kisses
awkward conversations
phone calls far later than we're both used to
love you are two broken people
becoming one working entity
when you touch
when you talk
when you're together
but you blind us
and we don't know what to think
when we're kicked to the curb
with our pants around our waist
and our hearts
broken in the floorboard
or buried beneath the snow
so neither of us have to listen
anymore


(888.) Not All Corporations Mean To Be Evil 07/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Ruthless men sold their soul
for some soil
and from this dirt they grew an empire
so vast and so great
that all competition had two options
sell out
be crushed out
when the blood had dried
the men held firm to their contracts with the devil
while other men lay broken
or holding their contracts they made with men
who may as well have been the devil
but don't think unkindly of those men
it is better to lose today
and fight tomorrow
than die today
there are martyrs
and times to be the oil
(blood)
in the cogs
but this was not one of those times
david can beat goliath
but mom and pop
did not beat Standard Oil
or Wal-Mart
at least the later
not yet

(889.) **** Ya Up Is What'll Do 07/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
it was a wonderful drug
that fissured the senses
numbed the ambition
and made everything so appetizingly
accessible
and when the smoke billows out
you swear the blood leaves with it
and your mind
notices
every
teeny
itsy
bitsy
thing


(890.) Idiot 07/12/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Idiots don't even like to be talked to like idiots
you idiot


(891.) Clearly My Way Is Better (THAT'S SARCASM FOKES) 07/12/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Just because it's counter-culture doesn't make it better
just because it's pop culture doesn't make it better
so stop assuming either way you fools


(892.) No Honestly, Don't Take It So Personally 07/12/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Life is terribly unjust
but it's nothing personal.

(893.) Cigars Only (I know they're not too much better for me) 07/14/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
It billows out and seeps into me
deep into me
my arms tingle ever so slightly
my eyes droop lightly
relaxation comes so naturally
tobacco
I know you'll kill me
and you've convinced me
that that's okay
it's not an addiction
when you choose when to indulge
(or so we've convinced ourselves)


(894.) Liberals Are Gonna Have a Tough Time Getting This Pass The Conservatives 07/14/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
perhaps
if we think about it
in a twisted
sort of loopy way
the only way
we can leave the truly
smallest
of ALL the footprints
would be to walk in on ourselves
I speak in fuels
but do we honor our dead?
or do we make pacts with our children's children?

(895.) Articulate
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Good god girl,
you're so articulate
but you have nothing to articulate

(For reading purposes I'll let you know that the
first is pronounced: R-TIK-U-LIT
Second: R-TIK-U-LAYT)

(896.) Articulation As in QUITE a Few Meaning of the Word 07/17/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
wings,
indescribable in their articulation
gray in color
wondrous in hue
they lofted behind her as she walked to him
arms spread wide
a choice in each palm
he bled life
she bled love
in a rapture of passion
and temptation
they mixed blood
and the child
was born into a world
undeserving of his imagination
and unappreciative of his magnitude

(897.) DANCE MOTHER ****ER, DANCE 07/18/06 3:53 AM
=---------------------------------------------------------=
My actions over-exaggerated
done three or four at a time
in some weird slur or ligature
of motion
and I could feel every ounce
of blood in my stream
jerking to the forefront of perception
as my body calculated everything
so seamlessly
that I didn't even know what was happening
till it happened
and every move is made more fluid
till I'm unsure where I begin
and the crowd ends
and the lubrication between us
is our sweat
and I am a broad animate sculpture in honor
of some God
somewhere
showing that I was worthy
for love
the dancing continued
the rhythm flowed
and we all knew
we were living

[altoecko]

(898.) Bite Down On This 06/20/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Try not to move too
much for fate has a plan for
us all, this will sting.


(899.) I'll Give Love To Who I Damn Well Please 06/20/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
The world is full of evil
full of darkness
unsettling
creeping
monsters
that you swear to me
do not deserve love
but I'm going to give it to them anyways
because I don't want to be
even more of one of those
demons

(900.) 07/27/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
A better educated me will
make better decisions
get jobs easier
be funnier
spread more truth
will be better
I know this
a better educated me is what I want
I have the means(
books
internet
people
classes
etc)
I have the goal
I even know where to start
but I don't have the initiative
the drive
I sit down to read a book
and I'd rather do drugs
or play games
or go to a party
or something else equally
and instantly
gratifying
I've been told I'm not ADD(ADHD)
yet
I don't know what this is that hampers me
if anyone out there can help me
please do.

(901.) "physics makes us all its' *****es" 08/01/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
you can craft a world of perfection
just by mastering a few billion rules
and I fully understand
why you think it's perfect a world
but we're gonna revolt
regardless
so,
stop forcing perfection
so openly
and try going for small victories
that add up to perfect?
Everyone's perfect.
Not just yours.


(902.) A Dream World 08/01/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
The day starts when we wake up
the night ends when we want it to
candy grows on trees
the rivers are alcohol
soft drinks
water
and they're all
equally healthy
we'll all look like Greco-Roman God's
without lifting a finger
there's always something on TV
we can watch any movie we want
on a screen any size we want
we'll wear glasses as fashion statements
because they'd be useless otherwise
we could play any game we want
any time
we'd be able to map out each other's bodies
in kisses
in strokes
in gentle sweeps of fingers
you'd be pregnant
when you damn well pleased

and I can't shake the feeling
I'd still grow bored.


(903.) 08/02/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Life does not always allow you sapience and the trust of others.
I'd choose trust.
And hope that the others have the truth I gave up to talk to them.


(904.) 08/03/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
you came to me in shades
i textured you in hues
the kaleidoscopic colours we spill
when we mix tone
are the pastels of our dreams
becoming our realities
and we'll never have to wake
because we'll always be sleeping
in each others souls


(905.) 08/03/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
i drank of life
i drank of hope
of promise of safe tomorrows
of innocence
gazing in her eyes
she sang soft songs
and let me know
the world was an okay place
her voice
and milk
was the only assurance I needed


(906.) 08/03/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
diamonds
cutting tension
fingers sliced
emotions meshed
wandering caresses
probing curiosity
fingers wet
we were children
playing a grown up game
i'm a child
playing my favorite game
the prize my dear
is diamonds

(907.) 08/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
a simple gesture done in four motions
an exaltation of her glory
trying for justice in his actions
words merely highlighting her wonders
love etching in details
that both already knew
yet felt needed to be stressed
he spoke it the best he could
she kissed him the best she could muster
the world kept turning
the sun still set
and they slept in each others hearts till history ended


(908.) 08/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
A field of snow speckled with flashes of life, brought on by a blade bringing out the innards of passion


(909.) 08/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Hope was not there anymore
Neither was she
But he trudged onward
For reasons unknown to everyone
now that God was dead

(910.) 08/12/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
Waves crash
with tremendous force
washing away your insecurities
washing you away
into the music.

(911.) Principia Discordia 08/12/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I cafn clearly snee you there.
So don't thionk your're foodling me


(912.) 08/17/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
he cut
another
thin
slice
of memory
from off the wall
so he could remember
tomorrow
what he could barely hold on to
today


(913.) 08/17/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I swear I saw a seed in that there soil.
But all I saw was a broken promise.


(914.) 08/17/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I want to hear and see everything.
That doesn't mean I want to smell, feel, or taste it.


(915.) Saliva From Consumerism 08/25/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
he was dressed in hanch
and spread in fad
another drizzle
from the mouth of the beast

(916.) 08/27/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I think it would be good to be Ilunga
And to always shoot for Taarradhin
To make sure every movement I do has a little bit of Meraki
But what I'll end up doing
is writing a silly poem using words I just found on a site.
and assuming they mean what they say they mean

[altoecko]

(917.) Sally's Dad 09/02/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
I saw
the king came
from death to emeralds
to flesh to chaste;
he was quite the squirrel

(918.) Plastic, Not Paper 09/15/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
it was on a journey
to wherever the wind went
wherever the ground was grasping
wherever the limit was
then 10 feet past it
through drowning sun
through weathers warnings
it would make it to the place
where all good things go to die

(919.) Age Enshrouds Us All Eventually 09/16/08
=---------------------------------------------------------=
his memory is not what it once was
he stared at himself in the reflection
he remembered doing the same at different ages
different mirrors
at different hims
these memories came to him
as they always do
when he is allowed to reflect
but the brain was weak
the mind was weak
the man was weak
and he shuffled off into the night
back into a haze of existence
that occasionally stops
to look at itself

(920.) Presumptuous Whore 09/16/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
there is no bridge
but he laid a brick
and she walked across anyways

(921.) The Moral Of The Story Would Have Been ****ty Anyways 09/16/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
I thought of a terrible tale
a fable with a sad ending
about a world we will not visit
about a time we will not see
I cannot promise absolute safety
but I can give you my word
and my work
this evil will not spread
farther than the imagining of my head

(922.) Milky Legs Spill Forth 09/23/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
a point
a split
a crack
a chasm
and it spreads
all the way
down
her
hosiery

(923.) Can you get HIV from drinking someone's blood who has AIDS? 09/23/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
a network of veins
brought blood from other people
and from their blood he drew life
into a vial
that he drank nightly before bed

(924.) Simple Minded 09/24/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
Mistakes were made.
Errors done.
But let us hope my friend.
We learned a bit and had some fun.

(925.) Too Bad Only A Few Of Us Can Dance 09/25/08 12:38 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
the world beat steady on the drum
keeping up the rhythm
atoning for its creation
and we all pulsed along
to any beat
or echo
we heard

(926.) To The . 09/25/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
It's nice to be pauciloquent
from time to time

(927.) (Psst it's a record player) 09/25/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
in the old days the music would stop
and we'd hear the tap tap tap
of the needle
now it just starts over
i miss such definite endings

(928.) He Is A Good Man 09/28/08 10:07 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
the man enjoyed the fact his bones shook when he walked
that his hair was thin but still vibrant
and though his jokes were not the best
they still made you chuckle
and a little victory
is still a victory


(929.) A Power Punch 09/29/08 5:47 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
a guttural yelp
emerged from the man
he crumpled like sand to the floor
grains far fragile to be delicate
but a bit immense to be whole
and he began to bleed
like any man would
when broken

(930.) A Bouquet Of Ideas For You My Dear 09/29/08 9:03 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
happiness stuffed into a sleeve
a dress to make weight of an implication
a beautiful array of ideas
to mill about their heads
stop and smell the imagination
listen as the petals themselves breathe to you
revel in the bouquet
it's a declaration
a personification of an abstract ideal
because all ideals are imaginary
but the line between the mind and there
is a rather permeable thing
so here is a thesis of my feelings
do you agree to the terms?

(931.) No Really, Thank You 09/30/08 5:23 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
thank you for them
you know who you are,
I hope

(932.) Adrien Brody Was In Angels In The Outfield 10/01/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
icame
i cr awl ed
i stumbbled
i walked
I walked
I walked.
And I walked some more.
And I played.
And I learned.
And I cried, but only for a little while, when it hurt REALLY bad.
(And a few other times,
but I was little.)
And I grew.
And I became.
Me
followed by
Myself
and me
myself
and me.
Not to say there's a few me's running around out in the wild.
Just saying, I'm not me anymore.
I'm me.
if you know what I mean.

(933.) And If He Does, He Won't Like Them 10/01/08 7:19 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
He's right you know
That is not your song
This is not your musical
Life is not your story
you may be a character
but you are not the star
and I apologize
that I'm the one
to tell you
don't call us
the future
is yours
the moral
is ours
but
the lead role
will probably never read these words

(934.) AND SHE'S FLASHING DIFFERENT COLORS 10/04/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
the same slut
pasted
to four different walls
selling car insurance
this would make no sense in the real world
so why the **** is that tolerated on the internet?

(935.) I Like The Redhead Myself 10/09/08 5:22 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
as they walk in powerful strolls
to an indie rock anthem of melodrama
as they sheath themselves
in anticipation
they're all so deliciously
fantastically
stylish.

(936.) Splish 10/09/08 9:28 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
two drops in the water
two galaxies spinning into each other
the ripples bouncing off one another
so beautifully complex in it's simplicity
from afar
but so destructively dying
up close
I wonder
which of you
will win

(937.) And Even If That Band Knows Misery, You Don't Asshole 10/12/08 4:17 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Life is hard for you
I'm sure
as you enjoy all the comforts of modern life
as you rock out to your local metal band
I understand,
you're angry
(really you just have angst)
and that you want to express this
but turn down your ****ty music
when you drive in your ****ty Frontier
that gets ****ty gas mileage
because I don't want to hear about misery
from you
or that band that just thrashes on instruments
and don't get me started
on the ones that use classical instruments
and opera
none of you know sadness
so when you emulate it
it just comes off as you being a spoiled brat
so shut the **** up
listen to something happy
and realize that you're not sad
just insecure
afraid
and a loser

[Red Dragon]

Since when is Death Metal crappy?

Or angsty?

???

[Big Rick Cook]

That last one was rather uh... full of itself.

Was that the point?

[altoecko]

I'm not saying ALL metal bands suck, just a lot of them do. And I changed it to just metal band. Plus the local metal bands around here are complete dickwads. They come from Suburbia and have no idea what sadness is but they scream into the microphone all about their TERRIBLE lives. They have peachy-keen lives and they're just spoiled brats.

[Caciss]

Why are you so angry that people who supposably live comfortable lives are angry?

[Red Dragon]

I'm not saying ALL metal bands suck, just a lot of them do. And I changed it to just metal band. Plus the local metal bands around here are complete dickwads. They come from Suburbia and have no idea what sadness is but they scream into the microphone all about their TERRIBLE lives. They have peachy-keen lives and they're just spoiled brats.

Isn't that called EMO music? Maybe your local bands are weird, but Metal has screaming as a percussion instrument, for the most part. Lincoln Park screams too but they are the farthest away from Metal.

Not raggin' your poems or anything, it's just that I listen to a whole lot of metal and don't think that many are angsty like that.

I dunno.

:V

[altoecko]

Why are you so angry that people who supposably live comfortable lives are angry?

I'm not angry at all. It's just silly to see people who have no reason to *****, ***** for the sake of *****ing. I just wrote that poem because I was driving today with my windows down for some fresh air and some dillweed pulls up next to me in a bright red Frontier with Death Metal stickers from local bands covering the back of his truck. That's fine and cool if you like that stuff, but BLARING VERY VERY loudly from his truck was the ****tiest stuff I've heard. Like Dragonforce with no rhythm it was just like four guys thrashing around on electric guitars with no actual direction for the song. Then some asshole comes in falsetto singing about how miserable his life is. I don't know his back story but judging from that terrible music, I'd say he deserves whatever he's *****ing about. And don't get me wrong, I can appreciate weird loud noises(Merzbow :D) but that **** was terrible.


EDIT - There are good metal bands, there are good scream bands, there are good angry bands, and hell there are even some good emo bands. BUT, I think that if you're just angry/sad/whatever and you have nothing to be sad/angry/whatever about, you're a ****ing jack-ass who needs to grow up. I'm sorry you dislike your life so much, change it, don't ***** about it.

[Caciss]

I also hate peoples music tastes and pass judgments based on them.

[altoecko]

I also hate peoples music tastes and pass judgments based on them.

Actually, yes, you do. I'm pretty sure EVERYONE does. It's kind of natural to draw judgments about people from things such as that. Not saying the judgments are accurate, but they are at least natural. But still, it's a poem, I'm sorry I insulted the angry little kid deep inside you, but they're just words.

[Biggie]

I just rip on poeple for their music taste, I don't really let that get in the way of being friends with them or what not.

But still, it's a poem, I'm sorry I insulted the angry little kid deep inside you, but they're just words.

:buddy

[Big Rick Cook]

Words have power. Otherwise why would you wriiiiiite.

[altoecko]

Words have power. Otherwise why would you wriiiiiite.

Words have power if you give it to them. I write because it allows for me to reflect on my thoughts a bit easier, it allows me to look back and remember how I felt at a particular time, and it allows me to make people happy in a small way sometimes.

[Caciss]

No kidding. Also, I don't draw judgments based on musical taste since it's largely irrelevant. And, I doubt you know what the listeners or the musicians have experienced in their lives, so, y'know.

[altoecko]

No kidding. Also, I don't draw judgments based on musical taste since it's largely irrelevant. And, I doubt you know what the listeners or the musicians have experienced in their lives, so, y'know.

Actually, music can be a fairly good indicator of a person's lifestyle. It's becoming much less so with digital distribution being the way it is. A lot of people only listen to music they connect with. I'm sorry, but if you're favorite band is the Greatful Dead or someone equally as far into a certain social scene, that honestly tells me a lot about your personality. People's interests normally reflect their personality in a lot of ways. That is of course not true for everyone, but it is a good rule of thumb.

EDIT - I think Juggalo's are probably the best example here, forget Dead-Heads.

[Big Rick Cook]

For true. Juggalos are generally carbon-copies of the Juggalo lifestyle and personalities.

[altoecko]

(938.) ∀ 10/12/08 10:14 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
built into our brains
is the ability to be God
or at least the power
to emulate him

that is not to say all men
are God
it is to suggest that perhaps
we all are a part of him

so those of us lucky enough
to be God
should remember
that the brain
still need look after
the feet
the arms
and the rest of the body

(939.) 10/12/08 11:12 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
the banal
will
not
survive
evolution


(940.) It Thinks, Therefore It Is 10/27/08 9:38 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Artificial Intelligence
is the hope
that we can
make a mathematical
proposition
so complex
that it continually
solves
itself.

(941.) Random Thoughts
=---------------------------------------------------=
Why is it caretaker?
And not caregiver?

It's when you take away the rituals
that it becomes an addiction

Oderint dum metuant
Quite the political statement.

(942.) Quack Quack Quack 11/03/08 1:11 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
splash chemicals on the background
draw the connections you must
dotting
point
by
point
so that you will see a story
as i tell it
let the neurons
talk to each other
bring words
to life
and know that it is only
the brain
echoing
to itself

(943.) Remember Not To Forget 11/08/08 2:59 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
it's the small things
the extra toothbrush
a half filled queen sized bed
shirts too big for me in a closet
and smells that somehow lie in wait
trapped after all this time
springing on me
when I think
I can quite get up the courage
to give away these shirts
sell this big bed
and throw out the toothbrush
smells that make me remember
I still love you
and I always will
that tell me
you're selfish for leaving
to a place I can't follow
quite yet

(944.) Message From The Hippocampus 11/10/08 5:51 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
thesethingsgotogether
thesethingsgo together
thesethings go together
these things go together
it would appear you don't need me anymore

(945.) Neuron AMPA Lips 11/11/08 6:48 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
take all these Potassium ions
i pass them through your lips
converting them to Sodium ions
let the glutamate simmer in
my vesicles are safe with you.
pass on the love

(946.) Stand Aside 11/12/08 9:57 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
watch me as I pass
or follow me as I go
but know that I only have enough
fuel
soul
energy
chaos
force
to go so far
and you'll have to stop with me
or grope out into the dark alone
my path is not the right one
but it's mine,
and it may be a short-cut for you

(947.) The Medium Is The Message 11/13/08 9:22 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
it billows
it seeps
you feel
the blood
quicken
the mind
melt
god
loves
you

(948.) At Varying Ups And Downs 11/18/08 12:02 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
they
all
vacillate
through
us.

(949.) Brass Tacks 11/18/08 10:07 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
the men stood side by side
against the sky
their clothes were all
angles
none of them right


(950.) 11/18/08 10:09 PM
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the man
made timid
by glaring into
the eyes of God
shallow
like a two-way mirror
you see all that there is
in the reflection
but you know
there must be
another side
to the story

(951.) 11/19/08 1:53 PM
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He was whisking
trough the dark
but the door was gone
the blood sacs
weren't telling him
enough
and he
was afraid

(952.) 11/19/08 1:56 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
much of life is far too esoteric
and most of us
will never know that

(953.) 11/19/08 2:00 PM
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a deep thick soup of existence
he swims through it
never knowing
tomorrow
apart
from yesterday
because everyday
is drowning

(954.) Both Are Deep 11/19/08 7:29 PM
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the world weigh on their shoulders
while ideas are at churn in their head
some demi-god kneels praying
at the thinkers feet
metal
rests
by wood
both burn into the night

[altoecko]

Someone mind giving me a filler post? I always feel awkward double posting like this.

(955.) The Strongest Memories 12/03/08
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you are here
you wafted to me in a crowd
my memory creates you
and i miss you
but i know your love
delivered to me
on the scent of a stranger

(956.) The Elements Of (Our) Life 12/03/08
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you wanted a poem on the elements of life
Oxygen (65%)
Carbon (18%)
Hydrogen (10%)
Nitrogen (3%)
Calcium (1.5%)
Phosphorus (1.0%)
Potassium (0.35%)
Sulfur (0.25%)
Sodium (0.15%)
Magnesium (0.05%)
Copper, Zinc, Selenium, Molybdenum, Fluorine, Chlorine, Iodine, Manganese, Cobalt, Iron (0.70%)
Lithium, Strontium, Aluminum, Silicon, Lead, Vanadium, Arsenic, Bromine (trace amounts)
this is you(and me)
somewhere
in there

(957.) I'll Take Narrativism Over Escapism Any Day 12/03/08 6:34 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
At times I wish I could close my eyes and drift away
to a world free of worry and full of play
where you and I would frolic free
and **** in a rhythm of the highest degree
but I realize this is naught but fantasy
that I merely wish to escape reality
and that if I truly wanted Utopia
I need to fix this terrible myopia
For we do not create reality by observation
we create it by hard work, creativity, and most of all dedication
there may be ten dimensions
but I care of only the four you share with me and our conventions
we are ants continuously looping throughout existence
and to go in any decent direction I need your assistance
life is random; life is great
dreams are definite; but certainly not fate
so while this poem may be terrible at enjambment and sing-songy
the entire point is that I while I wish to run away I'd rather stay and bring you alongy
to whatever direction that the universe washes us
and to the reality that I hope we eventually make together, with varying degrees of success


(957.) Hair In A Drain 12/05/08 6:44 AM
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Sheddings of my person
that is what kept you from flowing
you that is in nearly all life
can be defeated by a clump
of me
but can be fixed
by a distortion
of lowly metal


(958.) Grandmama And Her Dementia 12/03/08 6:49 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
She drifts into lucidity
long enough
to defend her children
then she drifts back off
into her convoluted mind
only to call me
three more times
to talk about the same
thing

[Fruple]

I like 938, even moreso as you used emulate. That's the word of the week!

[altoecko]

(959.) Death 11:47 AM 12/07/08
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Death is discarding of the soma
we house the germ plasm
the genetic code,
our children,
and we pass the plasm
along to the next soma
so that we may live forever
though you and I
and everyone we know
will die someday
most of us
will live
forever
in the echoes
of our lineage

(960.) Evil Is Goodness Without It's Make-up On 1:39 AM 12/10/08
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I see pure sadness on those horizons
brought on by lack of work
and abundance of entitlement
trust me when I tell you
you deserve no better than me
or anyone else
so when you're treated lesser
please don't revolt
it is only life
balancing itself
out of your favor
but I know regardless
of what I say
or what I may try to do
men will line their pockets
because "they deserve it"
and everyone will suffer
because no forethought was used
no selflessness harnessed
just the gentle cooing from the men
whose hands were in your pocket
"it's all going to be okay,
we'll get through this
there's no problem"
we will huddle in spaces
where we kept our junk
we will smoke often
and always be drunk
Hoovervilles of Self-Storage buildings
and looting of the neighbor
"Because I need it more."
entitlement to things you do not deserve
scarring of children just from the exposure of life
dark times creep on the horizon
no trumpets
no large fanfare to announce its arrival
evil has always been here in our hearts
but soon it will release itself
and whisper in your ear
"take it,
you deserve it
more than them.
with it's hand in your soul
wrenching about
"worry not my friend,
it will be alright."


(962.) "Skyscrapers are the skeletons of Demons." 8:34 AM 12/10/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
the most compassionate man you'll ever meet
is standing on the street corner
preaching about the end of all mankind
it's not as if he enjoys your chastisement
he's just worried about your soul
is it wrong to want to save us all?

(963.) Keep The Paper Near, I May Need To Speak 1:06 PM 12/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
his mind drips away
every second
so he keeps a pad
to catch the drops
he's lucky enough
to remember

(964) No Butterfly Will Leave Here 1:20 PM 12/11/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
I am sadness
inside an integument
that filters in
every emotion
that I feel
even though
it is only one

(965.) I Am Sorry We Will Never Go To The Theatre 1:39 PM 12/10/08
=---------------------------------------------------=
I'm sorry
I collapsed
inwards
in front
of you
how rude
of me

[altoecko]

(966.) Now Smash It To See How It Turns 12/12/08 8:49 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
beauty is a well-built machine
on the inside
and out

(967.) I Hope It's Just, whatever it is 01/04/09 1:03 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
it's crashing
and I'm unsure
what
will rise
from the debris

(968.) Nascent Splashes 01/06/09 12:52 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
the universe was amassed
by glorious nascent splashes
and steady ataxic simmers
at least that's what it feels like to me


(969.) He's Worth Object 01/17/09 7:20 PM
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the men huddled in the womb that the shelter provided
for fear that every cold drop that hit them
would judge them lesser
and lesser
as men
meanwhile the children slept
the wind shifted
and only one woman
knew the true value
of her man

(970.) Black Atlas 01/20/09 12:12 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
all the world's eyes
look upon him now
I pray he carry the weight well

(971.) Can you break a dollar? 01/20/09 12:27 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
naught by color
but by good efforts
let us hope
for change


(972.) Serve Us 01/20/09 12:34 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Many years etched in his cheeks
waves in his voice
he asks for humility
for service
for us all


(973.) Besides, weren't you in Eurotrip? 12/25/09 4:13 PM
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thin
they wear it on their sleeves
aimed at the prepubescent
foreshadows cast about their faces
hidden in their lips
riding on their lies
physics is more than what you read
it is what is done
for what is life but the motion of extensions
quoting to seem intelligent
mopey faces
and they all think they're so
they think they're all so
great
but we know
the truth

(974.) Spongy, Soft, and Wet 01/27/09 3:30 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Education is not what you learn
but what you retain

(975.) Stimuli 01/27/09 3:32 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
You pump money into us
as if to reperfuse our systems
but just like the body
without changing conditions to a slower pace
and just hitting the ground running
our mitochondria
are just creating radicals
that are destroying us
from the inside out


(976.) We're All The Universe 02/04/09 11:17 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
a child who is naught but a mirror
I grow my hair
a small recreation of
an elephant entering me
of trading eggs for life
and realizing that we are all fuel
I am a cluster
I am all
We are masks
acting unto masks
all played
by one
grip it and it is gone
I look into my eyes
and wonder why I continue
this charade.

(977.) Please, Take A Second To Complete This Survey 02/05/09 5:00 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Another needle withdraws from his skin
so thin he never noticed it harvesting him
a noumenal world floats just outside his grasp
he is lost in the rush to find a line
that's not really there
but he tries
and he scribbles
but they ask him another question
and he bleeds another nugget


(978.) EAT WHILE THE MIND IS EMPTY 02/05/09 5:05 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
poverty can strike even the mind
when you do not feed
you do not grow


(979.) Same Soul, Different Diet 02/05/09 5:10 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
the old god rested
shifting his weight
thanking the rock for it's force
the centuries had not been kind
and all its legs grew tired
it slumped to a rest
and coughed because the air was too sweet
life trickling from the edges of its mouth
once again
death scrapes away the body
and forever concedes the soul

(980.) Need New Subject Matter To Fill Bowl With 02/05/09 5:29 AM
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shallow in
waste none
eyes shot
breathe out
shallower
frugality
blood
exhale

(981.) Bladders Don't Wait For Hope 05/06/09 8:59 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
even in times of great emotional stress
you still have to ****


(982.) 13 Views, 0 Comments 02/10/09 8:07 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
dopamine leads to artistry
and gambling
it tells you what is good
and just how good good is
it and of itself is good
so to say

(983.) I Wish We Still Called It Vis Viva 02/23/09 6:00 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Because life is not plum pudding
and decay is not uniform
because energy was not always energy
and vis viva is no longer living
I tell you we are all connected
but we've no idea where we will go
(and no one does)


(984.) Roll The Di, But Make Up The Rules
=---------------------------------------------------=
Life can be good
Life can be bad
Life can be unfortunate
Life can be lucky
Life can be a lot of things
But Life is only what you make of it.

(985.) The Watch Ticks 03/09/09 4:22 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
a Queen ant scuttles across the floor
the sole survivor of a truth that never ceases
and a justice that always increases
looking for a place to make of home
There stands a man
whose face is always changing
whose cells are rearranging
and he does not stand down
God sees everything
but he does not choose time or place
or matter
for that matter
he simply sees how it fits together
and he tinkers
the world slows
we think it the end
but just because we never change pace
or direction ever forward
we assume everything is lost
when really
we are

[altoecko]

(986.)Journalism Shouldn't Be Based Off Luck And Looks Alone
=---------------------------------------------------=
a stretched out tarp
smiles the news at me
blinking out some sequence of persuasion
and blathering on about how amazing
what it tumbled on was
jittering with insecurity
knowing it is already dimming
when it just got bright today

(987.) Just Saying
=---------------------------------------------------=
ceteris paribus
across all lines
I think is asking
for a little too much


(988.) Pardon Gib?
=---------------------------------------------------=
gibber gish
given out
one for each
but not each for one
not a single questions
gish from gibber
or from which gib is gished

(989.) Honestly, I Just Wanted To Use That Word
=---------------------------------------------------=
he tells a joke
where the humor is so subtle
no one can find it
he turns his head
shows his neck
and his face burns red
not from a blush
or a rush
nor a flush
but from the fact that no one seems to
auscultare to the body of his issues
so they feel the earthquakes
and see the shakes
but not a one knows what caused it

(990.)
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Death is not the enemy my friends.
He is an eventuality.
One we must keep healthy balance with
if we wish to survive.
Because the world is finite.
And reality has limits.
They are grand complex walls
that start big
and may not always grow.
This is no need for distress.
We are still here.
We will continue to be here.
Till the everything quiets.
All of us must breath deep
but breathe effectively
patiently
and enjoyably.
There is only so much life to go around.

(991.) Please?
=---------------------------------------------------=
When I am done with my being
you may take all the materials I used
(for it is used)
And do as you will.
But do it for the benefit of all
let me be the particular
that betters
that fixes
that helps.
no matter how small that part is

(992.) Details Schmeetails
=---------------------------------------------------=
Government should be a God
or at least an engineer of a God
quiet, well mannered, ever watchful
rarely active
precise and effective in it's actions
but always benevolent

(993.) Like Piercings To Some
=---------------------------------------------------=
God would have you to believe
that there is a hole in you
one that only a man of his stature can fill
don't believe him
There is a whole in you
but,
some holes are there for a reason.

[altoecko]

(994.) Seriously Though, I Hated The Flavor I Tried 04/27/09 10:06 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
OH GOD THE TEA
IT BURNS
But reinvigorates my body with essential gut melting ****.
Like cornflower pedals and Pineapple.
Thanks Mighty Tea,
you truly are too mighty for a regular bag.
That bag being my stomach.

(995.) Legos, Lincoln Logs, K'Nex, Brick, Steel, or Play-Doh just wouldn't do. 05/04/09 3:58 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I piece together my perception
like a child
slowly
with intersecting ingots
of the finest corporeal
my imagination
can muster.

(996.) All Branches 05/12/09
=---------------------------------------------------=
She was draped in red and wandering with her companion
he was lowly and sauntered but faithful and warm

To her he was only a cigarette
a lap to sit on and be petted in

she wandered from door to door; man to woman
to whatever hand would touch her; just to feel that little bit of love

Large, lumbering, barking, and possessive
but sweet to her when no one was looking

small young sweet thing that was always friendly and flirty
he only slept in one bed, with one woman, although he slumbered in many homes

so easy is it to tell you the life of an animal
and you never know animal from animal

(997.) Rituals Are Just Things We Do To Get Stuff 05/12/09
=---------------------------------------------------=
one self-rolled place where two things are united
one hand-rolled bundle of leafs
two bottles of a strange liquid
brewed by some machine
somewhere across the ocean
sitting on a pallet
staring at the sky
reflecting back the city life
in an orange and purple glow
no wind
no one
and I am
sadly
happy


(998.) Patience Is A Commodity? 05/12/09
=---------------------------------------------------=
I understand it varies by person
but do we have a lifetime(read infinite) supply of patience
that recharges itself after being run-down
or is it something we chip or scrap away
bit by bit
till it cracks
and there is nothing left?

(999.) I Like This Tangram 05/14/09 1:37 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
god made two pieces
that locked their teeth
and completed a picture
of what happiness felt like

(1001.) Condensation From The Fire
=---------------------------------------------------=
its just something you taste
not hold
nor saturate
let it wisp by
even manna is only made of dew

(1002.) There Are Plenty Of Treasures In There
=---------------------------------------------------=
The discrepancies that arise from stated goals and achieved realities
will always be disappointing if you shut reality out.
Reality cannot find you as it always knows where you are.
You will not know where you are unless you find reality.
So open your channels,
turn on your filters,
and actually SIFT the stream
not just watch it run.

[altoecko]

(1003.) This American Life 06/15/09 3:43 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
A young boy turns down love forever and always
tells his older self to stay the course, or go to hell

a young man video tapes the people that love him
while they drift in and out of drug hazes

a man tells the truth; nothing but the truth
he aims for congress; even he says he'll fail

a dear pet is skinned alive with blade and tears
a clone gores him through the testicle

she reads from her diary to all the strangers from when she was a private school girl
she ****s, she smokes, she snorts, she lies about her age and she and they have a good laugh

a women pens the last bit of her life hoping to live forever
but all she is fading like all the happy people that go through her motions

the girl inches forward and leaves a puddle
the bus lurches forward and chaos flows across the floor

a desk sits in the middle of somewhere
and we see America through Glass


(1004.) Black Holes 06/18/09 8:21 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I can reach farther than you can see
all creation is destroyed and made in me

there is a halo hanging round my head
there is a dip in fabric where the universe is dead

I resurrect the matter of this existence
inside me a spoonful is worth a galaxy of resistance

there is no hope for all who enter
even the particles that carry all time splinter

I eat and regurgitate
your everything is just my precipitate

you cannot out run my reach
for all things turn to me each by each

crunch your numbers and do your math
there is no wishing away the mass that is my path

(1005.) 07/02/09 3:26 AM
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any flame that flickers
any man that kisses with soft lips
and strong arms
because reality is often at times not enough
and fantasy always burns her veins
while water doesn't satisfy anymore
any love she can use to paste together what's left of her
and any excuse she can find to give what's left of her away.

(1006.) Organic Living 07/07/09 11:07 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
let's all sit there
don't take the responsibility
just pass it down
let it diffuse amongst us all
no one use your spine
no one make a move
just stare
dumbstruck
and let your emotions rule you
there's no need for thought
action
courage
no need for anything but an organic feeling
washing over you
as you watch the world burn
why care you've got water in your hand
just take another sip
feel the heat
and take no blame

(1007.) Some People Just Wanna Keep Warm 07/08/09
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i'm unsure of everyone else
but I know the mad flames of passion
from the first spark in another's self
their eyes speak in glints
but there are so many sparks
varying in their intensity, heat, color,
and a myriad of other hues and quarks
i can tell when I am wanted
when I am needed
when someone just wants to be grasped
and when someone just wants to be ****ed
few flames deserve kindle
and I pray i know which flames to fan
which flames to snuff out
which flames to worry about
i have a fire
and she keeps me warm
but there are so many fires
waiting to be
and to extinguish every one
almost seems a crime to me
I need no more warmth
and I do not burn
but not every glance I feel
does not deserve a turn
it does not eat, gnaw, munch, nibble, wear or erode
but I can't help but feel
like some flames just need a hearth
some place to call abode
and while I have no room inside this heart
or loin
for anymore
what of all the fire
that deserves to blaze


(1008.) Rationalize 07/08/09
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rationalize,
chaos
let it overtake you
it's natural
to destroy
oneself
it's natural
because it occurs
without provocation
but natural is not always best
and what is best is not always to be trusted
if you accept without question
and do not filter what you do
you are chaos
and it's natural
it is just what you do

(1009.) Senalar a or is it Dibujar or Dessiner? 07/18/09 1:03 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
translation is so hard
when ones knows two languages
but the two have different syntax
connotation and stroke
when a silent dot in one
means a blank point in another
and I try to make the things come out right
but my hand does not speak
mind
and my mind barely
speaks
hand

[altoecko]

(1010.) SINGULAR BEING(s) 07/24/09 3:42 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Oneself must be a summary
Lest there would be no me.


(1011.) Thoughts Grow Habitats 07/30/09 10:59 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
they all want to put their seed in you
but it varies over spectra
what it is they intend to grow
growth is not your enemy
it's a tool used by all those who push a goal
but what seeds to crush
what crops do burn
which forests to cultivate
but when the foliage absorbs the space
should this boundary stay?
or do does it plant seeds?
and why does this plant
deserve to be spread so far?
can you gain from it?
and at what costs?
mind your garden well
for there are good weeds
and bad trees.


(1012.) Careful Where The Tide Takes You 08/06/09 11:12 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Culture floods past you
at the speed of excite
some will wash you away
some will clean you
a lot will whittle
some will carve
but who knows
if you belong where you go
and are what you're made


(1013.) There's Also Connect Four and Truth or Dare 08/07/09 12:22 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
All relationships are games.
Some Go Fish.
Some Risk.
Others,
just the tip.


(1014.) 08/12/09 2:01 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Life is abeyant
for something greater
all parts in conveyance as life is looped through
and through to weave a story
in fabric that tells tales
as if we were all souls
memory serving as sewing machine
particles as thread
too much soul
to fuel flame of spirit
and enough time to gather many cups
from all inner living wells
but the soul is what you make of it
some make a creature one must hunt and spill the blood
others make inner tumult out of bacteria
that belongs
they think that a sterile life
is the best life
when a sterile life
heeds no intrusion
soul is essence
spirit is energy
no flame without fuel
existence is once
so try and get it right
reality is forever
so be patient

(1015.) I Heard It On The Radio(AM 1690) 08/21/09 9:47 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
they ask simply
what would you do
with Gabriel's horn
would you think of your neighbors
or would you be selfish
blow
and end the world.


(1016.)http://www.ewanco.com/~eje/lexicon.html (I hope it's still there!) 08/22/09 1:42 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Pardon me while I bloviate
in an attempt at contesseration
let's all hope it's a coruscation
but I feel as if this may end as an inquorate
but I may just be making an ipse
my doubts are not kedogenous
I think it is just a challenge to make sure everything is idoneous
I mean, not every sentence can be mot juste
I should probably obvolve
I hope you're practicing orthoepy
It's easier since these are all without polysemy
I do hope I've helped you evolve



(1017.) Facebook Pulsars 08/30/09 11:05 PM
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in the pulse of all those nu's
she writes a few messages in their ripples
each one echoing in time forever
but who admires lines in wave with such detail?
she doesn't know,
she hopes.
"do you still care?"
written in the spin
of some random
blip
he'll probably
never see.


(1018.) There Is No Such Thing As Telekinesis(Yet) 09/06/09 4:38 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
you say the numbers prove they have some form of noesis
that allows them to control a loved one's physiology
off mere conscious decision to love
as if the very fabric from which they were both sewn
is inextricably tangled together forever
quantum entanglement on a classical physiologic scale.
Quantum mysticism is just the same as any other pseudo belief
take what little knowledge you have of science
mix it together with whatever you want
then claim it to be true
claim to know it is true in your heart of hearts
KNOW that it is true
because God is here
and he imbued you with the ability
to do what you claim
and random ticks on a scale you make
prove you right
...right?


(1019.) I Wish I Spoke Cat 09/11/09 2:22 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
well,
great,
you've gone and **** yourself again
it's matted and stuck on your butt
and you keep scooting across the floor
trying to alleviate your discomfort
mostly just smearing little "I'm sorry"'s here and there
and I clean them up
because I love you
and you've been my friend for so long
and you're senile
don't know better
you remind me of grandparents
your hair sure is falling out
i can't bear to put you in diapers
and some day soon
I'm going to have to take you to the doctor
eventually
but I love you
and I'll miss you
and I don't mind your little "I'm sorry"'s
but you're in pain
I know it
but you still purr
and love me
and I don't want to let you go



(1020.) Tick Tock Tyck (Sin Cos Tan) 09/21/09
=---------------------------------------------------=
turn by turn
part by part
interactions passing through
existing in the same position
being in the same way
we hold our color
we are our charge
but you are not me
though we share the same place
same face
same movements
we are intertwined
but you are not me
and I am not you
regardless of how either of us
spins


(1021.) Lawnmower 09/21/09
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no more toes
one more baby
6 years of education
and naught to show for it.


(1022.) Fnet is Never Zero 09/24/09 1:04 AM
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evolution is a constant abacus
slowly ticking beads
trying new combinations
seeing what works
then seeing what works best
at working
at being
for you see
evolution has no grand plan
outside of live
under this only plan
all forms of life thrive
and what lives in one place
may not be possible in another
there are varying valences
around the central pillar of life
that may be filled in certain ways
not all life has the same number of shells
some life is singular
lonely
but alive
moving the blips
up
down
across
each aisle
to find a balance
to find what keeps


(1023.)I Just Wanna Sit Next To You On The Bus 10/10/09
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I've been saving up all my nights
and rounding down all my days
saving up in hopes that you'll buy the same
and go all my same ways



(1024.)You're Such An Asshole 10/10/09
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i know you
through blank eyes
dripping in disdain
you'll never be anyone
so keep looking down


(1025.) Arms Long Enough To Box With Being 10/24/09 3:11 PM
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just because I don't believe in God
doesn't mean I couldn't use somebody
couldn't worship something
that pats my head
as I go to sleep
to let me know tomorrow will come
justice will be served
and all will be right.
but each night I go to bed
with my own dreams
my own life
and only one world
no hand pats my head night after night
no God assuages my fear
it's just me
alone in my mind
which means it's just me
alone in my life
that I can count on
to make things right
to make sure justice is served
but I'm just one voice
one point
one being
in a vast array of fears
joys
hopes
and general distaste or pleasure for what is
so I know that each morning when I wake
and every morning that anyone wakes
they are alone in their mind
despite the echoes of so many others
thoughts and beliefs
This world is ours
and it belonged to those who came before
and all who come after
there is no universal sense of justice
no galactic hand to pat us on the head
just us
and our own moral compasses
so take time to calibrate them right
use not money as a means of gauging good
don't rely on capitalism alone
for life is not an Ayn Rand novel
regardless of how much you love greed
she will always cheat on you
and while some are strong enough to hold the pillars of life in place
they'd be fools to shrug their burdens
the government answers to many things
but should truly fear only one
us
so if there is something that life requires in your eyes
but lacks in existence
use your hands, your mind, and your soul
because they are all you have to shape this world
because even if God is real
and we can use him to think the world seems fine
in all honesty we have no way to prove such a fancy
but there is all the proof you could need,
that you are real
that this world can change
and that hands can mold it
So reach out,
make positive changes
and go to sleep at night
with the comfort
of your own deeds.


(1026.) This Man 10/27/09 6:41 PM
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this man
this man is in your dreams
not every dream
not every one
But this man will reappear
You will know this man as father
even when this man is not father
this man will fly with you
but will only reflect
beside you in the air
no words are needed
this man is a romantic
ugly
but always charming
with sweet words
this man will show you which way is out
from whatever labyrinth
you sleep in
this man will have sex with any of you
if you want
for this man always has imagination
to buy your pleasing
sometimes this man dresses up like Santa
sometimes this man is a balloon floating like a head
forever just out of your reach
and other times
when you are trapped
every night
in nightmares
when you are stuck in hell
when others beat you
and you cry yourself awake
wet in sweat and fear
this man will show himself
blankly on the television screen
and you will beg this man not to hurt you
this man will slit your throat
and you will gargle at this man's blank face
but you shall never be trapped in that hell again
this man is always watching
this man knows that when Fallout happens
Americans must go North.
this man surfs your dreams
this man w

(1027.) If You Need Me, You Can Find Me In The Patterns. 11/19/09 12:55 AM
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Stop
when it is late at night
while the world slowly crawls to a murmur
where parts are dancing
with others sleeping in their comforts.
Parks swaying in the wind
the city rushes everywhere
through sound it canvasses all
but only in a rustle
swarming over everything
a cold ever present murmur
bouncing and crashing off or through
every particle it can
till its waves die on your shore.
The collective breath of a civilization
whispering in every ear.
I hear this whisper
rippling on my drums
the rhythm of our heart
the engine of man purring along.
Some would say God is in those details.
But if anything of the sort,
God is waves.