It’s become rapidly apparent that I’m not as… accepted as I thought I was. Now it seems like every time I offer a legitimate insight someone complains at me. Which would be expected, I guess, but I didn’t exactly expect hostility at merely expressing my opinions.
This does not fit with my established world-view. I think I know what Dreamknight meant when he said I didn’t say much. I like to be thorough, but that’s not the point. I tend to ramble a little when I explain stuff; it just happens and I can’t change that. If you can’t understand my words, take an English class, if you can’t take the time to read my posts, I have the following for you:
*** SPOILERS ***
QUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK.
*** END SPOILERS ***
But there’s another problem. There’ve been posts here (The one I’m thinking of is in the PG) that have slid by without comment, but if I’d said them, all hell would have broken loose. Caciss’ occasional useless and not even serious opinions are accepted, but my serious (but “useless”) opinions, as I’m told to my face, are worthless. Caciss? Of course his opinion’s aren’t worthless, he’s Caciss. There’s my problem.
The only answer can be that I am considered a troll by many, no better then lil_das or simple man. How I got this consideration I can’t imagine. I’ve tried to be as good a member as I can, and apparently it’s not enough. Of course, this impression mostly comes from the “Grumps”: Mora, SirTMagus, Ryner, Dreamknight, Caciss, Gloom, IRC, especially Big Rick Cook. Although there’ve been others as well; I’ve gotten into arguments with Seraph and Alzar, Hito surprised me by affirming the “useless opinion” thing, and I seem to be on permanently bad terms with Porkchop.
So, what can I do to remedy this poor status among Pavies? The thing is, I can’t. As I have pointed out several times, I have Asperger’s Syndrome. The effects of this have become painfully obvious in recent months. That’s what started that argument with Seraph; his sarcasm was lost on me.
Also, I’m a little hypersensitive; words can bite me hard, since they go against the impression I’ve received for the past year. Also, it seems that if one person offends me, it reflects the opinions of the whole group, thus making me feel rejected. That’s why I left once, and why I very nearly left a second time. That debate with Seraph left me wounded. A few other things, and a pair of PM’s from him and IRC finally convinced me.
What changed my mind? While I was in my PM box, I found an old message from Perversion. I won’t quote it without his permission, but it basically put things in perspective for me, put rhyme to the Grumps' unreasonableness.
Well, I’m not going to try and leave this time. But I will stay out of the General Discussion Forum. That way, no one will have anything to ***** at me about, and the Grumps can’t bother me. I’m gonna stay in the RPG Maker area. Those people I get along great with. Maybe it’ll even get me to work on my game.
Lastly, I just wanted to say there's a few people here that I think have been very good internet companions. I had in mind a full list of Pavies and things I wanted to say, but I can't post that right now. So I just wanted to spell out my thoughts.
This does not fit with my established world-view. I think I know what Dreamknight meant when he said I didn’t say much. I like to be thorough, but that’s not the point. I tend to ramble a little when I explain stuff; it just happens and I can’t change that. If you can’t understand my words, take an English class, if you can’t take the time to read my posts, I have the following for you:
*** SPOILERS ***
QUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK.
*** END SPOILERS ***
But there’s another problem. There’ve been posts here (The one I’m thinking of is in the PG) that have slid by without comment, but if I’d said them, all hell would have broken loose. Caciss’ occasional useless and not even serious opinions are accepted, but my serious (but “useless”) opinions, as I’m told to my face, are worthless. Caciss? Of course his opinion’s aren’t worthless, he’s Caciss. There’s my problem.
The only answer can be that I am considered a troll by many, no better then lil_das or simple man. How I got this consideration I can’t imagine. I’ve tried to be as good a member as I can, and apparently it’s not enough. Of course, this impression mostly comes from the “Grumps”: Mora, SirTMagus, Ryner, Dreamknight, Caciss, Gloom, IRC, especially Big Rick Cook. Although there’ve been others as well; I’ve gotten into arguments with Seraph and Alzar, Hito surprised me by affirming the “useless opinion” thing, and I seem to be on permanently bad terms with Porkchop.
So, what can I do to remedy this poor status among Pavies? The thing is, I can’t. As I have pointed out several times, I have Asperger’s Syndrome. The effects of this have become painfully obvious in recent months. That’s what started that argument with Seraph; his sarcasm was lost on me.
Also, I’m a little hypersensitive; words can bite me hard, since they go against the impression I’ve received for the past year. Also, it seems that if one person offends me, it reflects the opinions of the whole group, thus making me feel rejected. That’s why I left once, and why I very nearly left a second time. That debate with Seraph left me wounded. A few other things, and a pair of PM’s from him and IRC finally convinced me.
What changed my mind? While I was in my PM box, I found an old message from Perversion. I won’t quote it without his permission, but it basically put things in perspective for me, put rhyme to the Grumps' unreasonableness.
Well, I’m not going to try and leave this time. But I will stay out of the General Discussion Forum. That way, no one will have anything to ***** at me about, and the Grumps can’t bother me. I’m gonna stay in the RPG Maker area. Those people I get along great with. Maybe it’ll even get me to work on my game.
Lastly, I just wanted to say there's a few people here that I think have been very good internet companions. I had in mind a full list of Pavies and things I wanted to say, but I can't post that right now. So I just wanted to spell out my thoughts.
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