altoecko
05-19-2007, 08:47 PM
Do you wanna know what I am? I am a sign of defeat for childhood. Unless you get to know me. I am an end to all parties and the sobering effects of adulthood. Unless you get to know me. Childhood is when innocence reigns and we are easily forgiven for mistakes we make. Adulthood is when logic reigns and we are easily punished for the mistakes we make. Here we find the dilemma mentioned by Schroedinger, when does one thing become another? This is no hard-pressed moment that you can point to and say: "Well, damn, that's where I became an adult." If you can do that, I'm sorry but you're life is very dull, very sad or perhaps even a combination of the two. This is like evolution baby. You evolve into an adult, gradually.
There are many things that turn you into an adult, but you're still a child in some aspects. Hell, once you're an adult you can define what that means. I will ALWAYS be a kid at heart, but I will strive to be an adult in my actions. I love to make up elaborate imaginary things in my head, I call it writing though. I also STILL love to play video games. As long as I'm deriving marginal utility from them, I will partake in them. Drinking is nice, in moderation. Using it to drown out any memory from your past is ignorant and childish. Childish....is that such a bad word? Not really, but there are so many things we've attached to it to make it bad. I'm childish, but I'm mature about it. There's a time and a place for being a kid. I honestly don't know how to refer to myself on the phone these days. "Hell, I'm the young gentleman from the other day." Young man? Kid? Teenager? Young adult? Older child? Young teen? Old teen? Bastard? I've no idea. I've decided today that I will use, young gentleman. May as well state what I wish to be and hope that it is what I am. Oh yes, back to the subject of me being the proverbial party pooper. I am apparently the death of everything that irresponsible teens hold dear. Why? Because there is a choice to be made between apathy and responsibility and I understand the fear of responsibility. If you believe you'll fail or let someone down or not be good enough, I have found this to be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Apathy though, there are few things I hate in this world, but that is truly one of them. I DON'T CARE. Well if you don't, why should anyone else? It's a poison and it will choke the air out of you and everyone else around you. But wait, you don't care. I'm sorry that seemed to slip my mind for a bit. Apathy gets you nowhere in life. I know of a 54 year old man who loves to show kids in his class Karate. He loves to go bike riding and he loves to make jokes. He's afraid to offend people though. I can't say I don't blame him, but at times toes must be stepped on. Creative destruction after-all. My point being, he is that old and he STILL HAS FUN. He is mature and knows when and where to act like a kid. If you cling so tightly to childhood you will smother it and it will ultimately die in your arms. If you let go, it's not going to run away from you either. It's like an old friend, as long as you keep in touch your bonds will stay strong. I'm on my way up in the world and I will not use anyone as a ladder on the way up either. I will stop and invite everyone to walk with me. No reason for me to be greedy and share the wealth at the top. I understand some people don't want to go up. I also think some people make bad choices and stay complacent with their place in life. People deserve to be happier than they are. Some often at times pull wool over their eyes and don't realize how miserable they are. Or worse yet, they know damn well how miserable they are and they lie to themselves or drown out their misery with some escape device. It's still there though. Ignoring an elephant in the corner of the room won't make it go away. Party as much as you want, party as hard as you can handle, and party as often as you can. Just know that there is a time and a place for partying. Know that you have to sober up from the intoxication of childhood and go to work the next morning. Why not come with me upwards in life and be happier? College isn't where fun goes to die. It's where fun often at times goes into remission, but it never dies. It only rises up with tenfold power afterwards. Please, I'd like for you to honestly give me as many reasons as you can think of for why you shouldn't follow me up the mountain. I am not as empathizing to your plight as I want to be. Let me get to know you. That way I won't be the killer of childhood or the slayer of fun. I'll just be the facilitator of happiness. Your happiness.
There are many things that turn you into an adult, but you're still a child in some aspects. Hell, once you're an adult you can define what that means. I will ALWAYS be a kid at heart, but I will strive to be an adult in my actions. I love to make up elaborate imaginary things in my head, I call it writing though. I also STILL love to play video games. As long as I'm deriving marginal utility from them, I will partake in them. Drinking is nice, in moderation. Using it to drown out any memory from your past is ignorant and childish. Childish....is that such a bad word? Not really, but there are so many things we've attached to it to make it bad. I'm childish, but I'm mature about it. There's a time and a place for being a kid. I honestly don't know how to refer to myself on the phone these days. "Hell, I'm the young gentleman from the other day." Young man? Kid? Teenager? Young adult? Older child? Young teen? Old teen? Bastard? I've no idea. I've decided today that I will use, young gentleman. May as well state what I wish to be and hope that it is what I am. Oh yes, back to the subject of me being the proverbial party pooper. I am apparently the death of everything that irresponsible teens hold dear. Why? Because there is a choice to be made between apathy and responsibility and I understand the fear of responsibility. If you believe you'll fail or let someone down or not be good enough, I have found this to be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Apathy though, there are few things I hate in this world, but that is truly one of them. I DON'T CARE. Well if you don't, why should anyone else? It's a poison and it will choke the air out of you and everyone else around you. But wait, you don't care. I'm sorry that seemed to slip my mind for a bit. Apathy gets you nowhere in life. I know of a 54 year old man who loves to show kids in his class Karate. He loves to go bike riding and he loves to make jokes. He's afraid to offend people though. I can't say I don't blame him, but at times toes must be stepped on. Creative destruction after-all. My point being, he is that old and he STILL HAS FUN. He is mature and knows when and where to act like a kid. If you cling so tightly to childhood you will smother it and it will ultimately die in your arms. If you let go, it's not going to run away from you either. It's like an old friend, as long as you keep in touch your bonds will stay strong. I'm on my way up in the world and I will not use anyone as a ladder on the way up either. I will stop and invite everyone to walk with me. No reason for me to be greedy and share the wealth at the top. I understand some people don't want to go up. I also think some people make bad choices and stay complacent with their place in life. People deserve to be happier than they are. Some often at times pull wool over their eyes and don't realize how miserable they are. Or worse yet, they know damn well how miserable they are and they lie to themselves or drown out their misery with some escape device. It's still there though. Ignoring an elephant in the corner of the room won't make it go away. Party as much as you want, party as hard as you can handle, and party as often as you can. Just know that there is a time and a place for partying. Know that you have to sober up from the intoxication of childhood and go to work the next morning. Why not come with me upwards in life and be happier? College isn't where fun goes to die. It's where fun often at times goes into remission, but it never dies. It only rises up with tenfold power afterwards. Please, I'd like for you to honestly give me as many reasons as you can think of for why you shouldn't follow me up the mountain. I am not as empathizing to your plight as I want to be. Let me get to know you. That way I won't be the killer of childhood or the slayer of fun. I'll just be the facilitator of happiness. Your happiness.